I hate you. I hate how you always hurt me. There is never a second in my entire life where I don't hurt because of you. You cause me so much pain. Why can't you see that? I cut myself because of you. I bleed because of you. I cry because you. I scream at the top of my lungs because of you. I hate the way you make me hate you. I hate the way you make me hate myself because I'm not good enough for you. Why do we just have to be friends? I want to be so much more. I can give you everything and anything you ever wanted in life. They all told me that we couldn't be together. We will though. They said we were different. Two different human beings. We both happened to be girls though. I fell in love with you. Yes, I said I fell in love with you. Me, falling for another girl. Was this possible? But surely I'm not a bisexual or even worse...a lesbian. You didn't love me though. Not the sort of love that truly means something. No, I wish you did. We are really good friends though. Best friends. I'm never going to be good enough for you. I'm sorry. I hate how we're falling apart. Our friendship that is. I hate how you are becoming better friends with other people. Why not stay friends with just me? All we need is each other. Stop torturing me like this. Always playing these mind games with me. Stop doing that. I hate that. I hate you. I hate the way I care about you. I hate how I love you. I hate these feelings inside of me. Each and every one of them are evil sins. I hate being hated by you. I hate being hated by others. Your friends. My friends. What is up with that? Why must everyone hate each other? Why do I hate you? Because I do. I hate you. I hate waiting all night by the phone because I think you might call. I hate starring at your picture. I have about four of your pictures on my wall. I hate laughing at our special memories we've shared. I hate smiling every time I think of you. I hate seeing your face in my mind 24/7. I hate dreaming about you. I hate thinking about you. I hate wondering what you are doing. I hate how I'm so jealous of who you are and who you like. I hate when other people like you. Why can't they see that you and I belong together? Why can't you either? I know for a fact we are soul mates. I hate that you make me say sorry all the time. I hate that you care about me. I hate that you're the only one I cry over. I hate crying. Stop making me cry. Stop hurting me. I hate your eyes...they see the true me. I hate your voice...you say you care about me. Why can't you say you love me? Just once. Please. I hate your lips...I just want to kiss them. I hate your looks. They drive me wild. I hate wanting to be with you all the time. I hate how we're not together. I hate how you don't hate me. I hate how we're not as good as friends as we used to be. I hate these tears in my eyes. I hate writing about you. I hate that I believe everything you say just because you said it. I hate agreeing with you. I hate doing what you want me to do. I hate how you want me to stop cutting. I cut for you, dear. I hate how you want me to cry. I can't cry because if I do. I'll cry over you. I hate crying. Stop it. I hate how you control me. I hate it. I hate how I hate everything about me. I hate everything about you. I hate hating everything. I love you.