I didn't do anything today. Just sat around. Being myself. I stepped on a bee early this morning. Now the bottom of my foot is swollen. I have to limp around which sucks. I want to go to the fair tomorrow. I'm not sure if I am. Demolation Derby! Woo! Monster trucks were tonight. Nathan would have enjoyed seeing that again. I've only gone to the fair once. I had a good time though. We're having a garage sale tomorrow and Saturday. Oh how fun. Ha. Not really..umm..I yelled at my dad today. I seem to always do that a lot. He was saying something to me and just kept talking on and on about it. I hate when people do that. I get the point in the first place. You don't have to ramble on about it for 5 minutes. So I screamed okay really loud. He's like "Dang girl! Calm down." I don't like my dad much. Everytime I'm around him I feel like shit. He always tells me I need to diet. Now when I'm eating around him I feel ashamed and fat. I just want to walk upstairs and kill myself. Ugh. Nathan doesn't help either. He tells me I'm fat all the time. That I'm ugly. After he's done I'm so suicidal. I just can't take what he says. It's too much for me. And I can't tell him how he makes me feels because he's too young and he'll never understand it. And then my mom...she never even talks to me anymore. We used to talk about things..like have deep conversations. Nope. Not anymore. Not after we got Hailey. She's all about the puppy now. She says Hailey is my sister. No, Hailey is not my fucking sister. Nevermind. I'm sorry for complaining. I just hate feeling this way.

ended counseling @ 9:17pm