I had a really good dream last night. It was about this girl Melissa. Kandyce's friend. I can't really remember all of what happened. But I let her borrow some fabric and glitter and glue..something like that. So she was off doing stuff with that. When she was done I came over and helped her pack it all away. The way she was looking at me was unbelievable. I was so amazed. I started to fall for her easily. She wanted to drive me home. I told her my mom was picking me up. It was dark out and I guess this was like our school or something. It looked like BooneGrove but some of it was different. So I was walking out towards my mom's van. I turned around and I thought I saw her. With my heart racing I kept walking and then I'm like..oh screw it. And I turned around to walk with her. I walked past Crystal on the way towards her. I asked Melissa if she had an AOL sn. She gave it to me. It was really long...something dealing with counseling. Ha. And I gave her mine. I wanted her to drive me home so bad. But couldn't. I didn't know if she was bi or not. I guess I was hoping she was cause she acted like she liked me a lot. She ended up getting a ride with Crystal for some reason. I didn't want to watch her go.

Eh. I don't know why I typed that. It's just an ordinary dream. I guess this one was different. The way I felt was so different. I've only seen Melissa twice. And everytime I see her something in my body..I don't know. It's weird. Too hard to explain. I don't think it's right anyways to be feeling this way when I'm in a relationship. Anyways..it's not as if she's bi. Hm. I'm too stupid. Why did I tell you people my dream? Hm. I guess because I can't get if off of my mind. I want to fall back asleep and have the dream all over again and have it go on and on forever. It won't happen though. I doubt I'll ever have that dream again. Why do only nightmares repeat themselves and not the ones you want to repeat? That's what happens to me. UGH!

ended counseling @ 11:44am