This school year is going by fast if you ask me. I always say at the beginning of each year that it's going to be a long year. Then at the end I always say how fast it has gone. Weird, huh? I like the end of school. Although I don't get to see all my friends. Because I do not hang out with them much over the summer. Sleeping in is good. Yes. I wish I could have done that today. Early dismissal today. At 10:10. I don't have any homework. I'm going to do my tessellations though. I'm not even half done. Damn. I need to get working on it. I fnished Martyn Pig. In my opinion, that is one of the best books ever. I loved it so much. I told my mom she needs to read it fast so we can discuss it. I like discussing things with my mom. I learn more that way. She's a great teacher. For the most part. I bought some books yesterday. Well I didn't buy them. And they're not bought yet. Mom will buy them tomorrow. I got Catherine Blue by Lois Lowry, Bud, Not Buddy, and these 3 scary books. Andrew was reading on in the library the other day. Ha. It was funny. I've been having a good week. Not week. Just. Ever since I've been taking those anti-depressants I've been feeling much better. Is that good? I hope so. I like to smile now. I like to laugh. Ha. Well I never didn't like to laugh. I just like to do it more now. I don't want to go to school tomorrow. I hate going to a few classes. They ruin my day. Like Home Ec. If we didn't have to sew then going there would be fine. I like being there because Carly is hilarious. I laugh a lot in that class. English sucks. I don't like English. I only like being there because of Shannon. Health sucks too. If Rian is gone then I hate it. I'm stuck with Kevin. Grr.

What else has been going on? Hm. I might go camping this weekend. Nate has Friday Night Live on Friday. Obviously. Haha. If we do go then I won't be able to go to Blondie's soccer game on Sunday. Damn Blondie's soccer game. I wanted her to come camping with us. Some other time. I like camping. It's the funnest. The traveling to get there isn't so great. Very long. Like when we go to Sam. A. Baker, we have to drive for about 11 hours to get there. I hate it.

I don't know if my grades are slipping or not. I've been doing my work. I think. Yeah, I have. I don't want to do my work anymore. See, Mary is doing all her work and then I'm doing the opposite. Ha. It's weird. I'm watching Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets right now. Actually Nathan is. I'm just listening. Good movie. Not the best in the west but good. I wanted to go to the Aberdeen gas station with Mary but she didn't say when we would go. That's alright I guess. I just hate staying in the house. I'm waiting for it to turn off warmer so I can go outside.

James showed me these pictures of his friend, Michelle. She's cute. "She's HOT!"-Mary Ha. He says his friend Megan is a gothic lesbian. I want to talk to her now. Lol. James said that I should go to 'church' with him on Wednesday. Maybe I will. I hate going places where I don't know people. I mean. I'm shy and all. Nevermind.

Mr. Fauser hasn't called my mom back. Stupid bitch. I'm wanting to know when our practices are. God damnit. I only like to bat at practice. Because I'm really good at it. Ok this year it's going to be my goal to hit the ball over the fence. Last year I hit it out to the fence. But this year, OVER the FENCE! Yes! My goal! And I want to make more than 3 homeruns in a single game. Last year I had 3 in one game. It was great. I felt so good. I also pitched excellent. My dad wasn't there though. He never is when I play good. When he is there I try so hard to impress him that I screw up. I hate that. I feel as if I have disappointed him because after every game my mom and I talk about the game and how good I was or how good someone else was. I want to actually show him that I am good. I don't know. It's just something I've been thinking about.

I haven't talked to Mallory in a while. Or Joe. I miss talking to them. I wonder how they are. I wonder if they even look at my site to know that I miss them. Hm? Eww Ron just puked up some slugs. Nasty. Lol. Ew. He just puked up some more. After school I drank a wine cooler. I thought my mom was going to be home soon so I drank it as fast as I could. That is not a smart idea. I felt really sick after that. For a while at least. It sucked. I could feel the alcohol flowing through my blood. Maybe it was the alcohol. My arms and legs began to ache. Painful. I've already had 3 wine coolers in the past 3 days. That's not good. Ok well I'm going to go now. My mom has to call to find me a psychologist. Sorry for this being long. No, I lied. I'm not sorry. I feel better. I've gotten everything out. I think. Bye, my love.

ended anger management @ 2:54pm