I had a good day. Very smiley. hehe Those pills are working. They make me smile. I'm trying to fight the happiness though. I know I shouldn't, but I must. I'm falling for someone again...him...my ex. The one guy I thought I loved. Maybe he is my one love. Maybe. He makes me happy. He tells me to stop cutting. I always get sad when he talks about me cutting. I feel so ashamed for doing it. Like I'm hurting him. :( It's seems as if all my friends don't matter and he only does. It's not like that. I just feel really bad having him know. I feel asl if I let him down. :( I'm starting to like him again...him. *sigh* :) He doesn't like me though. *tear* :'( And for the first time in my life, I am crying. My ankle hurts...but for no particular reason. Ahem. I was outside tanning yesterday, but I had to cover up something before my mom got home. Ahem. Some people know what I'm talking about. Ahem. I want to do something with Mary this weekend. Lets go to Merriville. I'll invite Fred. :) *sigh* What a sweetie. heheh *starts daydreaming....* I think a lot these days. My friends will be talking to me and I'm just thinking and then I get yelled at for not paying attention. I think A SHIT load! lol :) I went shopping with my mom yesterday. First we went to Blythes to get me some sliders and I also got a BG WOLVES duffle bag. Then we went to Target and I got 4 CDs: TATU, Chevelle, AFI, and the Ataris, and then some candy bracelets (they kick ass!). I wanted some Hello Kitty Easter lights, but I didn't have any money. Hello Kitty rules. :) They say it's my fault but I want her so much. ....Cause I'm feeling for her what she's feeling for me. Good song. Good song. Many good songs on that CD. BLAH! It's warm out again so I think I will go SKATEBOARD! Or in the words of James "attempt to skateboard". haha What a funny guy. Bye, friends...I DON'T HAVE FRIENDS!

ended anger management @ 3:12pm