I want it to stop snowing so then Blondie could come over. Even though my mom still hasn't said yes yet. She better. I must hang out with Blondie. haha We must fight! GR! Where the hell is she? Blah. (smiles) I wasn't allowed to go to her house yesterday because my mom found out I lied to her about going to Mary's house last week. I said I was going to her house, but instead we went to Target. Stoopid pop told on me! Last night was one freaky night. My pulse was racing like the entire time my parents were out. One of the reasons was my house almost caught on fire. Ha like Mary's. I was downstairs and I heard this loud burst but didn't think about it much. I had my cd player on and both the tv's on so I couldn't really hear it. I heard it again and I was like "Oh god there's someone in the house". I hate thinking that. So I look up the stairs a little and I see this flickering. And then I'm thinking "Oh god the walls on fire!" haha Good thing it wasn't, but the flames were up pretty high. The glass had burst and shit. The fire wouldn't go out and it was freaking me out so much. Hm. That was one freaky experience. I'm hungry. Food! Where's fatty at? hahah FATTY! fatty makes me smile. haha sorry. STOP SNOWING! I'm going to go and talk to Shannin some more. Goodbye, my love. I love her.
I've been online most of the day. Actually I've been online most of this weekend. That's a first. I'm never on this long. I'm so bored though. I have nothing to do. I want to hang out with my friends or something. I'm talking to Shannin right now and it's making me pretty sad. Well I'm considering on stopping cutting myself. You can read about it in my Cut section. There's a picture of my carving on there too. (so ashamed) Not really. I should be though. It hurts really bad now. It might be infected. Oh well. I'll clean it before I go to bed. Hm. I'm so stupid. Yep. I am. Shannin now knows who the new person that I like is. She's like "awww" and that made me smile greatly. Then I thought about that person. Grrshees! I don't want to like that person. And Shannin is right, I can't control my heart. I feel like you don't want me around. I want to talk to Mallory. She can cheer me up. As always. (smiles) I haven't talked to Blondie all day. That sucks. I added 4 new pictures of her only because she sent them to me. So if you have a picture of you then send it to me. Yep. Advertising. haha I'm so stupid. (big smile) God I have a stupid game tomorrow. I don't want to go. Then we play Kouts on Tuesday. Another game on Thursday. I only want to go to the one on Thursday because Blondie will be there. Hopefully. (Something is obvious here...talking about...24/7. Shannin knows what I'm talking about. hahah!) I'm so amused with myself right now. Hm. Bored. Bored. and more Bored. I'm listening to Sublime right now. Hm. Good song this is. Sort of. "What I've Got" I dread the week coming. I don't feel like going to school at all. Not even to see my friends. I feel that if I go to school then I will get all depressed and I don't know. I feel really nervous right now. God. I need to get happy. I'm sick of being sad. Maybe it's because I'm bored. I just need to laugh and everything will be ok. Only 2 people can really make me laugh right now and they're both not on. HELP! (screams) Ok well I'm being forced off right now. Goodbye, my love. I love her.