My weekend was an ok one I guess. I told Jason and Steve that I used to cut myself. Steve talked to me about it some. Only because my mom showed him something I wrote and it said that I thought he didn't care about me. I'll have to post it on here sometime. I want to go back down. It is so nice there. If I wasn't at that stupid church dinner thing then I would have been outside tanning. It was like 70 there. It was grand. I loved it! Ok on Saturday I was wearing my black corduroy pants, blue stripped longsleeve shirt, black superhero shirt, about 10 necklaces(maybe more) and I had all of my bracelets and shit on my arms. Ok. Then Saturday night my mom told me about how my Aunt Berta was saying how she would never let her daughter dress like me. Oh and I was wearing my blue beanie. My mom thought that I heard her and wanted to know if I was going to slug her. I probably would have if I did hear her. Damn. I didn't. I hate people so much. They don't accept anything. Grr. Ah piss on it. I want Jason to hurry up with his truck so I can drive it. Well by the time he does get it finished I'll have my license. YAY! haha It's going to be soooooo cool! 2 hour delay today. I have about 1 1/2 hours left. Hm. What to do? I'm eating TacoBell right now. YUM! I'm fat. Fat Fat Fat. Hm. I've been thinking about someone lately. Yeah. Mallory. As usual. lol I want her to get on. I bet her mom threw her computer away. (TEAR!) I miss her dearly. You know what pisses me off? Besides people...Being alone. Gr. I hate it. I'm so freakin' sick of it. HONKY! hahah CRacker. White. Cracker! Man I'm such a racist. I hate that too. Why do I have to be a racist? Blah. It pisses me off. I'm only a racist because of my father and he's only a racist because of his father/mother. Jason is a racist too. I think Nate & Steve are also. My mother isn't. That's a good thing. I love you mom! ha. At TacoBell last night I was like "Well it's kind of dark in this town" meaning there were a lot of blacks. In Calhoun County (where I might move or maybe Jerseyville County) every single person there is probably a racist. Ok in Gary, whites are afraid to go there. Well in Calhoun County, blacks are afraid to go there. Ha. How insane. Wouldn't you say? Blah. Ok I'm done updating for now. I think. Wait. We have our PCC game today. I hope we lose because I don't want to practice anymore or go to anymore games. I want some free time. Besides I need to go to a tanning bed before SpringBreak. Hm. Well. Goodbye, my bloody love. I hate you.