Everything was pretty good until 7th hour. I almost lost control again. I started to cry a little. It was such hell. I went to go see Mrs. Kassner today. She's really nice and I like her. Maybe she'll be able to help me. Hopefully. I'm going back next week to see her. Yep yep. She taught me how to breathe when I get angry. I tried it today and it actually worked. I'm glad too. I like talking to Mary. She always understands. She's always there. That's good. I want it to be Wednesday so I can go back to see Mrs. Kassner. Ha. She's making me write down how many times I get angry this week and why. I want her to read what I write. I want her to see my cuts. I want her to know it all, just like my notebook. It knows all. All of my thoughts. Everything. I think on Friday I'm leaving to go to IL to see my family. Either Friday or Saturday. Hopefully my dad will take me out of school early on Friday. I don't want to go to practice. Nope. I don't. And honestly. I want to lose our PCC game on Monday. I don't really care. I want to lose only because I'm sick of basketball. Even though it calms me. I went walking with my mom today. It was fun. And cold. I made a deadjournal except it's pissing me off because I don't know how to change the color. MARY HELP ME! lol Blah blah blah. I'm happy right now. Heheheh Damn. I need to do my SS notes, but I don't wanna! I'm over someone now. I'm glad. But. Tomorrow I'm going to see that person. And. I'm either going to like them again or forget about them. Hopefully I'll forget about them. Well those feelings of mine. Man. I miss Mallory. MALLORY! I MISS YOU! I wish she was online right now. I love that girl. She's the best. Ha. She makes me smile. Do do do ...la la la... I'm going to go now. Goodbye, my bloody love. I hate her.