I wrote a poem today. First one in a long time. It was actually good. I like this one a lot. Hm. I finally stopped ignoring MaryM today. Well in the beginning of school I was still ignoring her then at the end of the day I wasn't. She abused me so much. I was crying on the inside. haha She makes me laugh. I'm quite depressed right now. Maybe not depressed, but I feel really alone. Sad. I'm talking to Shannin about me cutting myself. She's telling me to not cut. Hm. I really need to stop. Hm. Still sad. God where is MaryM? She can cheer me up. Or Mallory. She can always cheer me up. I don't get angry when my mom smokes pot. My mom wouldn't let me do anything today. I wanted to go to either Wal-Mart or Target with my friends. But NO! Maybe she'll let me do something tomorrow. I want to do something with MaryM so we can fight. Fighting with her is the best. Ha. (Smiles) Woah that's a first. Ha see she's cheering me up and she's not even here talking to me. I just have to think about her. Ugh. That was sort of gay sounding. Ha. Many Ha's. Have you noticed? Good. The Hubba is over. Her and Nate smell. Ew! I signed up for softball today. YAY! I'm so happy. I CAN'T WAIT! I need a private pitching trainer though. I don't want to go to that stupid clinic. I went to it last year and I didn't learn anything new. Stupid people. They expect me to stay 7 hours to learn nothing. HELL NO! (Black womans voice) haha(bigger smile) Hm. Oh yeah my art teacher recommended my art work for this thing at VU I think. Yeah so I'm going there with some of my other classmates to get a ribbon and our picture taken. How fun! Yay. No. Just NO. I'm trying to think about my day. Oh man in gym it was hilarious. Emily had a racket and she stuck it between her legs to hit the birdy that way, but it didn't really work. She didn't try hard enough or something. So I did it and Emily, Shannin, and I fell(well I wasn't on the ground) on the ground laughing so hard. It was great. They kept making me do that about 2 more times and we just kept laughing. Crystal didn't laugh much. Then Shannin did it. She like tripped when she did it. We laughed some more. It was great. Shannin and Rian are pissed off at each other. And I'm stuck in the middle of it. It's alright. I'm used to it. I try to help one while helping the other. I don't want to pick sides because they're both my friends, but it's hard. Man I love this song. "Pretty Girl" It's the best song ever! WOO! It's addictive. So is "Swing Swing". WOO! I'm trying to make myself happy, but it's not working. I'm going to go and look at pictures now and see if they make me smile. Well I know that new one of Blondie I have will. hahah Sorry. Ok. Goodbye, world.