-12.07.02-
I just got done reading Mallory's journal and I want to die now. I treat her so bad. I told her I didn't love her and she went and did something really bad. I feel so freakin' terrible. I wish I could live yesterday all over again so I wouldn't put her in such pain. I hate how I am and the way I treat the people I love. I piss myself off nonstop. I wish I could die right now. Maybe I should. Mallory,girl, I'm sorry for being so mean to you and I'm sorry that I said I didn't love you. I just read her journal again and I'm wishing I was the one who cut myself. Yeah that's right she cut herself over someone like ME...I'm a nobody. I don't know why I have such good friends like her. I don't deserve any of them...:-( Mallory don't ever say your not good enough for me because then you would be lieing. The things I say just make people assume that I don't care about them. But I do care about you and you mean everything to me. I don't want you to cut yourself, or to leave me. I'm sorry I caused you pain, I wish I hadn't, but wishing is just bullshit so nothing I want will come true. And Mallory your wrong about no one liking you, there are so many people out there that like you and would die if you left them, including me. I don't know what I would do without you. .....I'm just so sorry!!! That's all I have to say-