As you all know I am bisexual. My life has changed majorly. People talk behind my back calling me the 'bi one'. I don't care. It's not my fault. I can't control my sexuality. If I did have a choice then I wouldn't be bi. But I am. There's nothing I can do. I don't see what the problem is with people being gay, a lesbian, or bisexual. It doesn't bother me and it doesn't bother you. Are you afraid that I'm going to hit on you(if you're a girl)? You really shouldn't. It's not different from a guy liking you. I don't like my friends like that, except Mallory and maybe Blondie. People haven't really started treating me differently. Well Shannin did at first. She was speechless. She didn't want me to be bi. Like I said, I can't control it. It's like if your heart says you like someone and you don't want to be in love with that person. you can't control it at all; it feels whatever it wants to feel. Maybe being bi is a problem because I was dumped by a guy for being bi. Was it my fault? I guess it was. Unless that guy was gay or something because being bi is a bonus. He said he couldn't handle me being bi. How can you not handle it? I'm not a different person, I haven't changed. (I might have) I don't look different, act different, I just have different feelings. Weird. Maybe being bi is a good thing? You get more action. haha that's why it's a bonus. Twice as many people. But if you're a girl, who wants to be with a girl? Not you. Shannin said she'd never be bi or a lesbian. She says it's just too sick. I don't see how it's sick. I look at the girls at my school and they're always touching each other, always so close to each other. I always wondered who was bi or a lesbian because of the way they acted. Hm? I don't know why I wrote this entry.

(1.10.03)