soccer kicks 424 (9:10:20 PM): CHELSEY!!!!
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:10:30 PM): you rang?
soccer kicks 424 (9:10:39 PM): haha.
soccer kicks 424 (9:10:42 PM): yes i did...
soccer kicks 424 (9:10:49 PM): I updated for you.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:10:54 PM): oh thank you.
soccer kicks 424 (9:11:00 PM): you are welcome.
soccer kicks 424 (9:11:02 PM): its really long.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:11:08 PM): is it?
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:11:09 PM): wow.
soccer kicks 424 (9:11:15 PM): yeha.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:12:17 PM): are you busy tomorrow?
soccer kicks 424 (9:12:29 PM): uhh I dunno
soccer kicks 424 (9:12:29 PM): why?
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:13:09 PM): oh mary and i are going to the movies tomorrow
maybe. would you want to come?
soccer kicks 424 (9:13:21 PM): hmm.. what movie?
soccer kicks 424 (9:13:27 PM): what time?
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:13:34 PM): uh freaky friday.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:13:37 PM): i dont know what time.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:13:48 PM): your gonna reject me again, aren't you?!
soccer kicks 424 (9:14:13 PM): I won't be home till like 3:30 ish.. and then me
and mikey are home alone.....
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:14:44 PM): is mikey allowed to stay home alone? is he a big boy now?
soccer kicks 424 (9:15:00 PM): hell no.. have you ever met that boy??
soccer kicks 424 (9:15:01 PM): haha.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:15:34 PM): umm i think so. lol.
soccer kicks 424 (9:15:56 PM): ahha.
soccer kicks 424 (9:16:08 PM): that kid is so uhh whats the word I'm looking for?
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:16:18 PM): my lover?
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:16:23 PM): sex.a?
soccer kicks 424 (9:17:00 PM): uhh no..
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:17:06 PM): uhh YES
soccer kicks 424 (9:17:07 PM): irresponisble.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:17:10 PM): oh.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:17:14 PM): i was close.
soccer kicks 424 (9:17:25 PM): yeah you were close.
soccer kicks 424 (9:17:41 PM): damn i haven't talked to you in like a week ish.. well like a real talk like this...
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:18:05 PM): yeah i know.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:18:09 PM): i just told somebody that.
soccer kicks 424 (9:18:14 PM): who/
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:18:29 PM): some girl from texas.
soccer kicks 424 (9:19:01 PM): cool.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:19:15 PM): wait, do you have practice sunday? or anything?
soccer kicks 424 (9:19:28 PM): sunday.. uhh I dunno
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:19:38 PM): FINE
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:19:42 PM): i mean. okay.
soccer kicks 424 (9:19:42 PM): I'm sorry
soccer kicks 424 (9:19:45 PM): I really don't know...
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:20:03 PM): you hate me.
soccer kicks 424 (9:20:31 PM): I would never.
soccer kicks 424 (9:20:37 PM): dude you are my bestest friend.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:20:51 PM): no.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:20:54 PM): i'm not.'
soccer kicks 424 (9:20:56 PM): yes.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:20:58 PM): you hate me.
soccer kicks 424 (9:21:07 PM): you and tiffany, but now tiffany is gone so I only have you..
soccer kicks 424 (9:21:18 PM): Everyone else annoys me majorly...
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:21:23 PM): like me.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:21:26 PM): i'm sorry for annoying you.
soccer kicks 424 (9:21:50 PM): dude you dont' annoy me.. Kim, Mandy, becca, all them people annoy me.
soccer kicks 424 (9:21:52 PM): you are the best.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:22:21 PM): yeah. sorry for just being a bitch now. i'm really depressed/suicidal. but i'm okay.
soccer kicks 424 (9:22:50 PM): you aren't being a bitch..
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:23:13 PM): yeah i am.
soccer kicks 424 (9:23:23 PM): no you arne't.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:23:23 PM): i'm picking a fight. because of the way i feel.
soccer kicks 424 (9:23:35 PM): what do you mean the way you feel?
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:23:51 PM): nothing.
soccer kicks 424 (9:25:08 PM): no you ment something when you said it.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:27:39 PM): i don't know what i meant.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:27:41 PM): i'm stupid.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:27:45 PM): i've been so stupid lately.
soccer kicks 424 (9:27:54 PM): you are not stupid.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:29:15 PM): since school started i've been so depressed. and so suicidal. and so lonely. i've wanted to cut so bad. i saw something today that made me want to cut. ugh. oh i'm terribly sorry for complaining.
soccer kicks 424 (9:30:36 PM): dude don't be sorry...
soccer kicks 424 (9:30:46 PM): Its good you are telling someone instead of keeping it all inside.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:30:49 PM): but i have to be sorry. i don't like complaining.
soccer kicks 424 (9:31:18 PM): Its okay
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:31:21 PM): everything is just so fucked up. but really nothing is fucking wrong.
soccer kicks 424 (9:31:30 PM): you can complain all you want....
soccer kicks 424 (9:31:34 PM): I knwo what you mena..
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:31:35 PM): and something must be wrong because i just want to cry so fucking bad it hurts.
soccer kicks 424 (9:31:43 PM): me too...
soccer kicks 424 (9:31:55 PM): I dunno what it is, but I just wanna liek cry or somthing..
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:32:30 PM): i cried while watching the show Switched. it was so weird. all the people on there were crying and i started crying.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:32:59 PM): i'm so lame.
soccer kicks 424 (9:33:59 PM): I"ve seen Armageddon like a million times and i cry every single time... and shit.. I feel lame... I mean all I want to do sometimes is just cry.. I dunno whats wrong.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:34:38 PM): yeah but this is me. i don't cry.
soccer kicks 424 (9:35:16 PM): good point.
soccer kicks 424 (9:35:19 PM): but still...
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:35:32 PM): but still...IM STUPID
soccer kicks 424 (9:36:28 PM): on uhh i think tuesday I got hurt adn I was fine, but the I hurt myself again and I just broke down crying.. I dunno.. It didn't hurt at all, but i broke down and cried for liek 5 min on th floor downstairs...
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:36:29 PM): sorry. sorry. sorry. sorry. i'm so sorry. sorry. sorry. forgive me. sorry sorry.
soccer kicks 424 (9:36:37 PM): YOU AREN'T STUPID!!
soccer kicks 424 (9:36:45 PM): why do you always say sorry?
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:36:55 PM): because i hate myself and you have to deal with me.
soccer kicks 424 (9:38:05 PM): I dont' have to.. I choose to because I love you... you are my best friend.. i'm dead serious.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:39:31 PM): i love you too. and you're one of my best friends.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:39:54 PM): i want to let you know that i do love you incase tomorrow is my last day.
soccer kicks 424 (9:40:46 PM): Tomorrow won't be your last day because I really won't be able to deal with that.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:41:03 PM): what do you mean?
soccer kicks 424 (9:42:26 PM): tiffany moving, everyone one else leaving and then the only person i talk to about serious shit.. I'll go crazy.. I"ll be in a mental house i swear to god...
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:42:37 PM): nah. you won't.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:42:42 PM): you can make it without me.
soccer kicks 424 (9:43:11 PM): no I can't.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:43:57 PM): why not?
soccer kicks 424 (9:45:16 PM): I've known you really good for a year and I have more memories and inside jokes than I have w/ Amy and Becca and i have known them for 4 years.. I couldn't make it w/o you.. I'm serious I need you to help me through shit because no one else listens to my problems.. you are the only person I know who will listen to my problems and what I have to say.. eveyone else is just like oh shut up and deal w/ it... I hate that.. I love that you are here for me whenever...
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:45:42 PM): i hate people who don't listen.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:45:47 PM): i just want to kill them.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:46:02 PM): slit them open and shove my pain in them.
soccer kicks 424 (9:47:32 PM): I know.. I mean I'll listen to them, but they won't even bother to listen to me.
soccer kicks 424 (9:47:39 PM): I mean me and you talk about serious shit all the time..
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:48:09 PM): yeah. i like people to listen to my stuff too. like jason mick. he wants me to pay attention to him but have no respect for me.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:48:12 PM): it makes me sad.
soccer kicks 424 (9:49:08 PM): I know.
soccer kicks 424 (9:49:26 PM): Like becca.. if I tell her anything the whole fucking school will knwo about it.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:49:31 PM): god. people are so stupid. i'm so stupid. the world is soooo fucking stupid.
soccer kicks 424 (9:49:32 PM): amy doesn't know me anymore.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:49:37 PM): jeez.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:49:39 PM): what a fag.
soccer kicks 424 (9:49:45 PM): I know.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:49:49 PM): how come she doesn't know you?
soccer kicks 424 (9:49:56 PM): Kim is too self involved.
soccer kicks 424 (9:50:05 PM): She only knows fucking Jimmy
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:50:28 PM): you'll be that way too. you'll find someone and you'll leave me.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:50:32 PM): then i'll slowly die.
soccer kicks 424 (9:50:39 PM): I will never leave you.
soccer kicks 424 (9:51:11 PM): If I start to yell at me seriously.. I would be so pissed at myself for hte rest of my life if I did that.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:51:15 PM): that just gave me a chill.
soccer kicks 424 (9:51:28 PM): why?
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:51:41 PM): i don't know....it was just so personal. nevermind.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:51:50 PM): If I start to yell at me seriously..??
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:52:09 PM): why would you yell at yourself?
soccer kicks 424 (9:52:30 PM): no If I start to.. then you yell at me...
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:52:52 PM): oh.
soccer kicks 424 (9:53:05 PM): yeha.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:53:06 PM): i always yell at you for stupid reasons though...
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:53:12 PM): why? because i'm STUPID
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:53:17 PM): jesus christ.
soccer kicks 424 (9:53:23 PM): NO YOU AREN'T.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:53:49 PM): can't i just die now? give me permission to die please. :'(
soccer kicks 424 (9:54:01 PM): NO
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:54:14 PM): can i do anything bad?
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:54:19 PM): is crying bad?
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:54:22 PM): is cutting?
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:54:26 PM): can i cut?
soccer kicks 424 (9:54:32 PM): crying sin't bad.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:54:34 PM): tell me, mary. tell me what i can do.
soccer kicks 424 (9:54:38 PM): cutting yes is bad...
soccer kicks 424 (9:54:58 PM): no can't cut.. i can tell you that much.. you can't die because i need you.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:55:17 PM): you don't need me.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:55:20 PM): you think you do but you don't.
soccer kicks 424 (9:55:27 PM): you can let everythign out in a poem or a nice long good cry or talkinh about it.
soccer kicks 424 (9:55:29 PM): no I do.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:55:32 PM): you go on each day living it without me. being fine.
soccer kicks 424 (9:56:03 PM): no i don't..
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:56:33 PM): yes you do.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:56:36 PM): you're so happy without me.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:56:52 PM): you'll always be happy and content without me.
soccer kicks 424 (9:56:52 PM): I"m happiest when i'm w/ you.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:56:57 PM): NO YOUR NOT
soccer kicks 424 (9:57:18 PM): you make me laugh so damn much.. I mean everytime I talk to you now i have to pee...
soccer kicks 424 (9:57:20 PM): YES I AM..
soccer kicks 424 (9:57:28 PM): how would you know..
soccer kicks 424 (9:57:33 PM): you don't know how much you mean to me.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:57:36 PM): yes i do.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:57:38 PM): i mean nothing.
soccer kicks 424 (9:57:49 PM): you mean so much to me.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:57:58 PM): i'm nothing but a person to you.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:58:06 PM): you wish i would die.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:58:09 PM): cut myself and bleed.
soccer kicks 424 (9:58:20 PM): NO I DON'T.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:58:23 PM): you wish i would go away.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:58:25 PM): and never return
soccer kicks 424 (9:58:43 PM): why would you even think I would think anythign like that.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:59:02 PM): because you hate me.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:59:13 PM): you want me dead
soccer kicks 424 (9:59:20 PM): no i fucking don't.
soccer kicks 424 (9:59:27 PM): I need you.. you don't knwo how much I need you.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:59:33 PM): you don't need me!
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:59:39 PM): you hate me so much.
soccer kicks 424 (9:59:45 PM): YES I DO NEED YOU!!!
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:59:46 PM): you need me to be gone.
soccer kicks 424 (9:59:50 PM): I would never hate you!!!
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:59:57 PM): you'll always hate me.
CHELSdog 6301989 (9:59:59 PM): i hate me.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:00:07 PM): HATE ME!
soccer kicks 424 (10:00:13 PM): I need you here w/ me.. helping me throught everything bad going on...
soccer kicks 424 (10:00:18 PM): I WILL NEVER HATE YOU!!
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:00:25 PM): just hat eme.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:00:28 PM): you know you do.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:00:31 PM): just tell the truth, mary.
soccer kicks 424 (10:00:35 PM): I am.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:00:37 PM): tell me how much you hate me, how much you wish i was gone.
soccer kicks 424 (10:00:38 PM): I don't hate you.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:00:44 PM): i wish i was gone, mary.
soccer kicks 424 (10:00:48 PM): I don't hate you I dont' want you gone..
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:00:57 PM): i can't stand living.
soccer kicks 424 (10:01:06 PM): thats you... Not me.. I need you.. you don't know how bad I need you..
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:01:16 PM): i don't want to live, mary.
soccer kicks 424 (10:01:50 PM): why not??
why do you hate it so much
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:02:30 PM): i'm so afraid of life.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:02:34 PM): growing old alone.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:02:36 PM): what's the point?
soccer kicks 424 (10:03:10 PM): the point is to have fun...
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:03:16 PM): i can't have fun.
soccer kicks 424 (10:03:19 PM): not to be so negative.. you need to have fun!!
soccer kicks 424 (10:03:23 PM): yes you can.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:03:26 PM): i'm negative though.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:03:29 PM): i'm always negative.
soccer kicks 424 (10:03:34 PM): everything we ahve done is fun!!!!
soccer kicks 424 (10:03:40 PM): BE POSITIVE!!
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:03:48 PM): i know what we have done is fone.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:03:49 PM): fun*
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:04:21 PM): you're the only person i like to be with. i like to be with mary too and we have a good time. but nothing like us.
soccer kicks 424 (10:07:32 PM): oh shit my eyes are watering.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:07:40 PM): my eyes have been pouring.
soccer kicks 424 (10:08:17 PM): I wanted to cry so bad, but tommy and my dad were on the floor in front of me..
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:09:00 PM): nate was behind me so i just cried.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:09:08 PM): it felt good to let it all out.
soccer kicks 424 (10:09:33 PM): It always is.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:09:46 PM): no!
soccer kicks 424 (10:10:04 PM): YES.
soccer kicks 424 (10:10:17 PM): dont' hate crying.. most of the time its a good idea
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:10:32 PM): yes especially when i'm suicidal, right?
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:10:46 PM): wait no.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:10:47 PM): it's not.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:11:05 PM): cut. cry. sin. die.
soccer kicks 424 (10:11:32 PM): NO.
soccer kicks 424 (10:11:40 PM): crying is always good
soccer kicks 424 (10:11:50 PM): If theres no one to talk to go have a good cry.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:12:03 PM): i can't.
soccer kicks 424 (10:12:10 PM): yes you can.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:12:10 PM): crying hates me.
soccer kicks 424 (10:12:15 PM): no it doesn't.
soccer kicks 424 (10:12:17 PM): you hate it.
soccer kicks 424 (10:13:26 PM): my mascarea is running.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:13:49 PM): i want to die. let me die. please.
soccer kicks 424 (10:14:04 PM): no.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:14:09 PM): please!
soccer kicks 424 (10:14:13 PM): no.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:14:15 PM): let me go.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:14:18 PM): i need to die.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:14:25 PM): hate me.
soccer kicks 424 (10:14:33 PM): NO
soccer kicks 424 (10:14:33 PM): NO
soccer kicks 424 (10:14:34 PM): NO
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:14:47 PM): hate me.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:14:49 PM): hate me.
soccer kicks 424 (10:14:56 PM): NO
soccer kicks 424 (10:14:56 PM): NO
soccer kicks 424 (10:15:13 PM): dude my damn father is making me go to bed because of soccer tomorrow.
soccer kicks 424 (10:15:17 PM): i'll talk to ya tomorrow..
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:15:22 PM): ..bye.
soccer kicks 424 (10:15:23 PM): call if ya wanna talk tomorrow.
soccer kicks 424 (10:15:25 PM): bye b e
soccer kicks 424 (10:15:26 PM): bye*
soccer kicks 424 (10:15:29 PM): I love you.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:15:32 PM): when will you be home?
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:15:37 PM): i love you too.
soccer kicks 424 (10:15:47 PM): uhh 3:30 ish... i'm not sure..
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:15:55 PM): okay i'll try around 4.
soccer kicks 424 (10:15:59 PM): okay.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:16:03 PM): bye, mary.
soccer kicks 424 (10:16:10 PM): don't do anything you'll regret!!!
soccer kicks 424 (10:16:16 PM): bye, chels.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:16:18 PM): how can i regret it when i'm dead?
soccer kicks 424 (10:16:35 PM): don't you dare...
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:16:42 PM): just go to bed.
soccer kicks 424 (10:16:55 PM): uhh okay.
soccer kicks 424 (10:16:56 PM): bye
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:16:58 PM): bye
soccer kicks 424 (10:16:58 PM): love you.
CHELSdog 6301989 (10:17:01 PM): i love you too.
soccer kicks 424 (10:17:05 PM): later.
soccer kicks 424 signed off at 10:17:12 PM.