I don't want to get caught. I would feel so ashamed. Letting everyone down. They just wouldn't understand why I do it. Yeah I'll admit it does sometimes hurt like shit. I keep doing it thought. I don't know why. I get some sort of pleasure from it. 4 cuts now. All in one week. Why? How can I do this to myself? One person tells me I'm only myself. I tell that person I'm not.