New Newz: Most of you probably havnt heard yet...Im in trouble with tha local law,and it doesnt look too good this time...A protest gone bad...I might have a case that I can win,but it doesnt look fortunate...Due to this I will not release anything new or promote anything until its recorded...Looks about 6-8 months,unless I do win tha case...I cant really say right now,because Im a "wanted criminal"..not even caught...an time will only tell when I do,because it isnt hard to tell who Lil Dead is in some biggot city of Tucson... Hopefully Ill be able to keep in contact with all of you...Anyone Im currently doing projects with,you have my word that as soon as possible the project WILL continue...Bullshit like this only makes me work harder on music,not quit...So Lil Dead aint gone forever,just for a few months...Um...I guess thats all Im gonna say right now..Alot of you on this mailing list may not know each other....I have close friends,relationships and homies and buisness homies too....Just know I aint down for tha count...This is a poem I wrote Sunday night and its being put out by a well known website (kinda)....you can check tha exact spot for it here http://www.solitarywitch.com/asher_death.shtml read about what tha people have to say about it here http://www.solitarywitch.com now some of you dont know the name Asher Nashah....thats my Hebrew name,and Im going under it to release non musical art..such as poems and visual... and heres a dirrect thing of the poem.... Title: Awaiting Death Author: Asher Nashah I've found threw time that waiting for death is the hardest part of life, I've grown used to never ending crying, thoughts of enjoying dying, I've grown used to making myself put down the knife, I've found even the truest are caught lying, I've found you can't fix the unbroken, Humans can't be broken, they can be filled and unfilled, I've found your never heard even if you've spoken, Even without service your still billed, Life is more of a chore to me, and that's sickening, I find myself emptier by the day, and it's frightening, As I speak, I wonder how I've survived this long, Even if Im right Im always told Im wrong, Like a Clockwork Orange I have disturbing thoughts, Blood rape and murder I imagine but have never sought, For that craving, that deadly urge, I've always fought, Only one time did I not, and I was never caught, But you wouldn't believe me, you don't even care, If you did you wouldn't do anything for me, you wouldn't dare, Im the monster that walks down your streets with her fists clenched, Im the angry kid that dreams about blood and the dead body stench, Im the morbid Hebrew that hits herself upon the head with a wrench, Im trying to tell you I hate me but you don't get the catch, These feelings Im having, its hard to put words to, Forever sad, melancholy but not a damn thing I can do, Science proves there's something wrong, and now they want to fix it, So depressed... Id like to die cuz we all do... Id like to die soon, just to get it over with, Because living an entire life, just waiting to die, Beyond pathetic, Im a loser, Im wasting your precious air, taking your breath, Im a rotting soul just waiting for death.... FURTHER DETAILS, IN A LETTER TO FIGZ (SACUL THE MACABRE) I refuse to re-word, I put it in here exactly how she sent it to me-Figz hey man..i wanna thank you for all your support...I still havnt been picked up,and to tell the truth things are looking a lil good for me...Im a pothead,a lazy one,and you know that,haha...so I found the letter I sent to the PETA (Animal Rights) and it explains EXACTLY what happens...If you can re word it for the site,thatd be great....I used my Hebrew name,kinda "Ash"...Asher Nashah so Im not completly fucked...heres a direct quote thing,please re-word it..and thank you again man! Hi...Im sure you know of the protest that went on in Tucson earlier today...Well,god I hope I dont get my mom in trouble...If you havnt heard yet,I am an "independant protester",and I was the one who came alone,with a "Fuck The TPD" shirt on,talking about ignorant close minded people eating chicken beaks and guts..and I guess I show the angry side of freedom...My life was threatend for telling people what they were really eating,even by the young manager that was there...Well I left because I was tired of being threatned and called a "treehuger" and such,an yes I admit I have extreme anger problems (which i am getting more help as a result of today) and the manager yelled threw the drive threw intercom "Ill fucking kill you asshole"....now fortunatly my own mother was a witness,because im sure our "wonderful" police would believe my life was threatned,so I threw a brick near by threw the big order thing...Now I know what I did was wrong and if I was able to controll my anger I might have done a better job...Now cops are looking for me...My mom wants to pay for it,and I told her Id have no part in it,and she understands because Im fighting for what i believe in....I did make a difference,just not as well as Id like to... Now obviously what happened was against the law,on both sides...they intagonized and threatned my life! They threatned my life,I retaliated by vandalism...now by law,because of being a pothead,a lesbian and a teenager,along with an independant protester on things that not many people care about and god knows what else society thinks wrong with me.... And I know I have a case against Wendys,the manager of Wendys,a young man who also threatned my life,and once the police get involved,cuz we KNOW they will,the city,the county,and the state..if it was my choice id bring tha whole damn country down thats corrupt like Wendys,but itll take a while,I found.... Im not asking for help....well....I guess Im asking for support,because my family isnt doing too well on money,and I just hope you can understand what I did and why,and hopefully feel the same way...I dont belong to PETA or any actual orginazation,ive done a few protests with others,but mainly just alone...And this one got out of hand,due to employees of Wendys,and I know the city isnt gonna care if Im alone...I really dont know what else to say...um...I would like to congradulate your members in Tucson on keeping it peaceful,as is which I wished so bad could have been my case...Being angry gets me angryer you know..I love peace,and it hurts when somebody gets to me...Well thanks... "Ash" peace(iz)!!! -LiL deAd

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