Everyday I see
More than what I wanted
More of what is me
I am not as average
As the mask I show
I'm finding out who I am
But no one else can know
I just can't stop acting
That risk I cannot take
Or everyone will see
That all of me is fake
I thought that I could handle it
I thought that I was strong
But every time they push me
I find that I am wrong
The people I thought I trusted
The things I thought I knew
Everything I could count on
Nothing has been true
Something is helping me through this
As I sit thinking at home
I can feel God's presence
I know I'm not alone
But more of me keeps crashing
into my broken life
It could all be a test
To see if I will use the knife
As I sort through my problems
That noone else will find
They still ask me for help
I think I'm losing my mind
I still must help them
This I don't know why
Why can't tell them?
I must suppress my cry
As reality comes closer
I must face what's come
I can't hide forever
Or I will come undone
