Dear Diary,

Sudden inspiration. How long has it been since I've written in here? Who knows...! So

why am I starting again? I'm not quite sure. Maybe it was 'cause I was bored and

looked at other people's pages and noticed how they actually worked on them...like I

said, sudden inspiration. Well..not really.

So. Why haven't I written? Because I generally only write in diaries when "the world is

getting me down." Layman's terms: when I'm unhappy. Which means I haven't been in

a slump for the past X months since I've written. But it's not that I'm unhappy now...

*thinks more*...okay fine. I've proved my theory again. To continue: I'm not unhappy,

but more neutral. There's the joy of yearbooks and friends, the sad of leaving high

school kinda, the joy of summer, the sad of evil universities telling me things i don't

want to have to face, the joy of seeing old friends again, the sad of...um...I don't

know. Is this even coherent? I'm not quite sure...So..what's been going on these past

months..? Um...lots. Let's not go there. How about we just not go anywhere and I just

stop here? Sounds good to me.

*starts running off*

*stops*

*returns reluctantly*

Well, I already started writing..I might as well finish and get whatever it is off of my

mind. (Again, the "why am I writing this" comes to mind) I honestly don't know...just

rambling here. OKAY. So generally these past few months I've been between neutral

and happy. But now...it looks like the tides turning again. Why? I don't know...Why's

a big theme here isn't it? I mean, I subconsciously dealt with 2 of the big problems in

my life. Except I took the easy way out so...I didn't really deal with them so much as

kinda ignore them and later notice that they kinda moved farther away from my

immediate and constant attention. So now, one of the problems is sneaking it's way

up again. (Oh, and on the way to getting rid of this one problem, I enhanced another

one, so I really DIDN'T do anything worthwhile except get rid of that OTHER problem...)

If only I could just spill everything...that would help a ton, but then...I don't want to

just dump this on someone...unless they already guessed it...and it's not like I hide it

well...AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Strange thought of the day: I wanted to say it...but then I have no control over who's

reading this...so...I don't know if I want to. Okay fine, I'll just jump in the fire. Why not.

I don't think anyone reads this anyhow. AND I don't think anyone will: a)know what

this means, or b)care about what I mean. Here goes nothing. How can I feel so

uncomfortable in a place that everyone praises and loves so much? Dorothy's Law

Regarding Her Writing In Diaries: (NOTE: It's a law now that it's been proved so many

times) 1. She only writes in diaries when she's not happy. 2. If she's not unhappy and

she writes in a diary, she will end up unhappy. Conclusion: diaries = unhappiness Well,

I guess I'm done here now. And the above is true. I do feel a lot less...well...cheerful

than when I started out.

*shuffles off to her room to sleep as it is late at night and no one is online to talk to

and the law project can go #%&#&#$&@#^#&$&#!!!!*

Here. Have a quote from my newest favorite show (Smallville) and song (Save Me) by

Remy Zero:

I see the world has folded in your heart

I feel the waves crash down inside

And they pulled me under

I would give you anything you want, but know

You were all i wanted

And all my dreams have fallen down

Crawling around, around

Somebody save me

Let your warm hands break right through

Somebody save me

I don't care how you do it

Just stay, stay

Come on I've been waiting for you