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Updated: 2002
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Well, you made it to my poems page~! Good for you... I think. Well I have so many more poems at Poetry.com so come check it out sometime. Just look for my names as:
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Vily Tran
Vi Ly Tran
Well all these poems here are definitely by me and no one else... I don't plagiarize something like this. Anyways, hope you enjoy them... check out for new ones too. **I don't write poems unless I really feel them - so it might be a while for a new one**
New To The Dark
I've never felt this rush before
Its like the flow of fresh blood
I've never acted so cynical
Its like the world has been at fault
So I open my eyes to see nothing at all
I take a step, realized I would fall
I'm stuck on this piece of light
Shrouded by the endless darkness
Where it came from, I'm unsure
But later I'll realize, it was from me
So you see, that's all I'll ever be
Dark... dark as my heart feels
Dark as my heart is...
Dark as ashes from a fire.
A fire never ending...
Like the rage in my heart
Burning inside so subtle
In a world that's fucked
I'm stuck... in the dark
Where I will always be judged
All because I am different
Stars
So why does the sky look so dark to me?
Even with the moon and stars to light it up
Nothing feels right without you around
The wind makes me shiver without your arms around me
The earth tries to drown me amidst itself
It does not hold me above Hell's fire
You are not here to protect me from life's pain
You are not here to share life's pleasure
Instead you've left me for the angels in the sky
Lighting up the skies with the stars
Until I learn to fly up with you
Shining ever so brightly - together
Identity Crisis
Who am I? I'm not what people want
Who am I? They don't see me for me
All I get - criticism and insults
What I want - to be accepted as I am
Is that so wrong?
I'm tortured day by day - night by night
I'm not good enough - I'm pathetic
I wasn't brought up the right way
I was a failure as a child, a daughter
I'm the living shame that must look them in the eye each day
I am the memory of a fool that never leaves
I am the horror of what isn't to be
They still want to change me
I am not perfect to them
I will never be
Who am I?
Blood
Look at me spill this liquid red
The only problem is I'm not dead
A fool that cuts to feel the pain
Letting the sink feel my rain
A tear not shed, but buried inside
A little piece of me just died
I sit in the corner to think things through
And reminisce the bad things I do
Let escape the pain in me
Cut my skin and let me bleed
Release my hurt and let me smile
A new idea so versatile
I paved the way to a river red
And built a wall to hold the dead
I watched the growth of a flower bud
And water this life with my red, red blood
Vampiresque
I walk the night searching the street for fools
And my life's pleasure was to break the rules
I sent the darkness to follow you home
Little did you know, you'd soon be alone
My light steps would softly echo on concrete
And I know faster your heart would beat
Watch out for me - lady of the night
There is no way you can put up a fight
My seductive ways like the succubi
Will give you a great way to die
When I sink my fangs into your life
Your whole life you must sacrifice
So come with me into the night
Give up the memory of light
Taste the love and warmth of blood
And get yourself out of the mud
Leave behind your weaknesses
And let me be your mistress
I'll guide you where you want to go
But dared not say, dared not know
And free yourself from your misery
Love, dance and feed me
The blood of your defeat
Don't Need You
I don't need the shit you give me and feed me
I don't need the insults, the hate you slay me with
You feed my hate and you feed my pain
I don't need one thing from you
I can't even stand to look at you
I just want revenge for the shit you pulled
What the fuck do you think your words do to me?
I want to see you hit the ground
I want to hear you scream the way I did
I want to do what you've done to me
I don't need you to do this to me
Forever grinding me between your teeth
Tasting my blood with your wicked tongue
I thought that I needed you to keep me alive
I was wrong, keeping you here kept me hating life
I hated you, I never wanted to see your face everyday like this
Why won't you leave me alone?
I told you, I don't need you anymore!
I don't need you!
Last Chance
I never got the chance to tell you I love you
It was the only chance I had, I lost it
If I could ever bring back the hands of time
I would let you know how you affect this heart of mine
It really hurt me when it hurt you
More than you know, I couldn't stand seeing you like this
So wise in your heart but fragile your body
When I saw the pain you held, it got me
That's how life is, some people say
That's not how it should be treating you
You're all alone, and I rarely get the chance to see you
To tell you with all my heart, my feelings true
Before you pass on and let me walk alone
I want you to know, that I love you more than the universe has stars
I love you more than God loves his creation
I care for you, think of you for a long duration
Please don't leave me before I can say
That I know you will bless the angels with your heart
And I will hope that you wait for me and watch out for me
So I can find my chance to tell you I love you more than you can see
I love you granny...
Simple Lust
Oh what beholds my eyes
I am enthralled by your vision
Your beautiful eyes, your body
How I want to taste you
How I want to take a bite of you
And taste your sweet wine
I would love to make you mine
And mine forever
I would love you all day
And every way I can
I want to learn from you
To know what pleasures can excite me
My mind and my blood
I want you to hold me in your arms
And keep me warm
While we kiss in the coldness
Feeding off of each other's warmth
And loving each other
Forever on... the way we know how..
Forever on
Scars of Memories
When you look at the marks on me
You ask me, "What happened?"
As if I was about to die
I do not see my scars as you do
A pain wielding mark
I see them as a photo album
Pictures of how I lived my life
Each ridge shows me the intensity of those times
I remember what happened to me
And why it happened to me
I find my body as a canvas of art
Unique in its own way
I live my life the way that I do
Adding onto my collage and mural
Sometimes the pictures I paint are accidents
Sometimes I intend to paint them
And you all find me strange for doing it
I am not doing it to kill myself
I just want to express myself
I want to drain myself of painful memories
Releasing them by cutting at the skin
Its nothing to me, but something to you
Shouldn't that be reversed?
These are my memories and they shouldn't be ridiculed
Especially by someone who would choose to forget
How they crawled through life through each obstacle
I am not like you, you're right
Why would I want to be like you
I'm happy enough being me
I don't want to leave life perfectly, smooth skin
I prefer to bleed, and to scar
So that I may remember everything when I step into my grave
Because these are scars of my memories
"Lady Luck"
Lady Luck has turned me down, shooed me out of her court
Never again may I visit her chambers, those visits were cut short
Now my life has felt a touch of the black plague
I dine with bad luck, she's a dirty old hag
And so I drink my sorrows away
The fiery sun incinerates all of my fears and I enter illusion's paradise
Drinking sweet water and ambrosia, my soul I would sacrifice
"Predator and Prey Scenario"
I stalk my prey from night to night
Waiting until they silently arrive
I watch and wait and slowly get close
I wonder how they taste the most
I wait and walk by, casually, undetected
They look up and see nothing to be suspected
That's when I'll hit them, disguised still in innocence
Each day I smile and the scenario is reminisced
"Money"
I hate you all
I hate fighting about money
I hate the quarrels we must go through
I hate how I've been ripped off by all of you
I hate that you have manipulated me and used me for your own purpose
I see your trickery... I hate it more than I hate life
You're fucking with my head and I hate it
I don't want to fucking owe you anything
I don't fucking owe you anything
You tricked me... I hate it
You're scheming ass
I should rip your fucking heart to shreds
I don't want anything from you, nothing at all
I don't need your fucking money or your fucking pity
I can fend for myself in this world all alone, fucking alone
I hate the fact that you mess with me and make me seem like I owe you
I don't. Fuck you. Fuck you all. I don't want anything from you anymore
I just want you to fuck off and leave me alone in my poverty
I owe you nothing you dirty bitches, fucking whores
Screw you all, I'll die a poor woman if I must
Through life and death, I will owe you nothing but an ass kicking
So fuck you and fuck your money, your riches, your arrogance
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you!
"Breaking Ties"
I need to put you behind me
I need to forget what you did to me
I need to get away from you
Just leave me alone, hush
Don't say a word because I won't listen
I need to get away from this, from you
So hush darling, say no more
Give me time and space to breath and maybe...
Just maybe I'll come back to you
Maybe I'll think about staying
We can compromise but not now
I need time to cry and bathe in salty tears
Tears born from my eyes
I need to wash away the pain, the blood
I need to forget the scars
I need to leave it all behind
So hush darling and let me go
"Dilemma"
What am I supposed to do?
I won't betray anyone for lust
I can't speak of it or think of it
It feels wrong and I shouldn't be even considering it
Nor daydreaming it, wanting it
I suppose my curiousity is getting to the best of me
My judgement is impaired, like I've been drinking and decided to drive
But I won't let myself hurt anyone because of it
I don't care who and what's caused the friction
I won't let it shock me in anyway
This hurlyburly is not to be thought of
It's nothing important, so stop thinking
The dilemma you're in - stop thinking about it
"Lost"
Don't panic
I must stay calm
I fear what I don't know
I can't predict
Surrounded by the same scene
Over and over again
Which road to take
Stone to overleap
River to swim across
Field to glide by
Don't panic
Should I yell out?
Or will that bring a danger to me?
Where must I turn to?
Should I stay or should I go?
The right choice
So hard to search for
This situation may worsen
Don't panic
Someone will find me
Or must I find them?
Must I charm the raven
So he may help me home
Must I outsmart the fox
So he may help me home
Must I know the earth
So it may help me home
Expose a path
Though dust storms blind me
Watch the vines entangle my feet
To trap me now that
I know the way
Don't panic
Even though the dark woods
Keep me hidden in their obscurity
Keep me jailed in their labyrinth
Of sharp rocks, dry branches
to snag on my sweater
As I walk deeper and deeper in't
Don't panic
Though I'll never find my escape
Of this forest in paranoia's house
Though I'm trapped here for eternity
Longer than a minute, day, month, year
Longer than a decade, century, millenium
Though the image binds me in
repetitive frames, jolting me
towards tortured life, dark
questionable ethics, confusion,
blank thoughts, starvation of the mind
as if it were of no necessity,
jumble of senses, losing reality,
losing life
Don't panic
"Have You Seen The Light?"
I walked down the street
Just to bump into a man
His low, refined whisper lead me
I gave him my full attention
Though I could smell the cheap cologne
How it bothered me so to be around him
I knew he was the type
To strut down the street
To show them all his worth
His suit, his tie, money
Money he would save
To buy his children toys
His wife jewelry
A car to get around town
I could picture it all in my mind
Still confined to attention
I waited and listened
He asked me
"Have you seen the light?"
I smiled and told him I did not
He laughed at me
Nudged me away
I obliged and left
Saying not another word
On my way
Rough cement beneath my shoes
I walked, hearing the resonance
Of the world around me
Crowded streets and endless traffic
I bumped into a woman
Apologized quickly
She gripped me by the arm
I could feel her nails
Digging into to me
I could smell the faint
Nail polish about her
I could hear the jingle
Jangle, jingle, jangle
Of her jewelry
She seemed the type
To enjoy long shopping trips
Eluding men with her
Sultry perfume
Her sexual walk
Wiggling her buttocks
Giving them chase
She had recently been to the hairdressers
Her hair
Sealed in hairspray
She asked me
In a high voice like a
Young child asking
Their mama and papa a question
In which they do not wish to answer
"Have you seen the light?"
A familiar question
I shook my head and told her
"I've never seen the light."
She laughed and walked away
Her high heels click clacking away
I shook my head
Agitated at rude responses
Though I cared not enough
To dwell on the matter
So I walked onward
My feet began to ache
As if I had been walking
An endless road
In the hot sand
Without my shoes
I leaned against a wall nearby
I could feel the coarse
Bricks, piled on top of each other
My shoes struck broken glass
I heard a tinkling and
I shook my head again
I heard a voice from nearby
It's hoarse sound frightened me
I stepped back
I could smell the alcohol from
An old man
A bum on the street
That everyone fears
Hates and despises
Because he never took the time
To find a job
To make money and find clean clothing to wear
And he would waste his time
Drinking his sorrows away
Like he could do no better
And he asked me
"Have you seen the light?"
Again the question rises
And I shout out
Annoyed with the old fool
"Never have I seen the light!"
Tired of being
The one they all pick on
I start walking away
Undignified, staring at the ground
And he called from behind me
"Then perhaps,
You should open your eyes."
Like sitting on a rocking chair
And waiting for the days
To rain by
Like dark clouds, storming over head
Flooding the lands with tears
And lightning will strike the earth
Trying to resurrect new life
Like Frankenstein
Binding together once individuals
Only to create a new whole
By the man, who's eccentric mind
Overtakes our own
And makes us wonder what to wonder
To ponder in our minds
Seeking ourselves and our emotional depths
Striving to understand his ambition
Like a riddle no one knows the answer to
Something that plays through our mind
Striking every single note, like a piano
Ivory keys and black
The smooth touch beneath our fingers
Like the skin of a dearest friend
When we caress, love, kiss
A kiss, such a small kiss
Can bring amazement to our eyes
It can make us see like never before
Like a newborn opening his eyes for the first time
To see the world and his mother
Whispering his name over and over
Like a broken record
Singing the same tune over and over
Like morning and night
Switching places over and over
And the dove that wakes us up
From the final moment of sleep
Endless dreams creating our own parallel universe
Where we thrive as someone new
Or someone old, in a place that exists
Only within ourselves
The deep caged prisoner in ourselves
Who, losing his freedom to move
Has not lost his freedom to speak and to believe
In what he most wants to believe
Like a child realizing his goal
To make it in the world and to be loved
To be feared and to be successful
Like the business man who spent his life
Collecting green slips of paper
Just so he may one day be able to sleep longer hours
Never needing to wake up for any reason
But to eat and to play
Never needing the responsibility age has forced him to take
He is once
Like a child again, allowed to bloom
But in his case
To spend his days withering away
Like a flower without water or nourishment
Without the sun to help it grow
And what will he be?
Without a purpose, would he sit there
Bored and wishing for more?
Like a greedy old fool who just can't get enough
As if he could protect all his wealth
Forever and ever
Never spending a dime but storing it away
Hiding it and never sharing it
Like a child with a new toy
Who refuses little Susie the right to play
With something that does not belong to her
Because it belongs to you and only you
And if it were to ever fall into her hands
Would you wrestle it away
Keeping a firm grip and never let go
As if your friend had taken a false step
Leading to her descent down a cliff
You would grab her hand and never let go
In fear that you would lose something
Much more important
Than that toy
Than the money, sleep, dreams, kisses, curiosity and freedom
That you would lose someone you truly loved
Like a sister, a mother, father, brother and wife
Grandmother, grandfather, aunt, uncle and cousins
That you would lose the only thing
You were put on earth for
To love the only one worth loving
Would be lost if you let go?
Would you let go?
So bitter
Vile taste of you in my mouth
Hard to get rid of
But
I'm so addicted
Because
Everyone's had a taste
And they all enjoy it
Laugh and smile
Small kisses
That will drive them
Make them like new
Wanting
To fit in with the others
That's how it starts
You burn my tongue
And enter my veins
Swimming through my
Bloody ocean
Infecting me
And the next day
I won't remember at all
