01.12.03
finding maiself once again in an awkard position
only to kno wht i want will never go through
realized ish better to forget now before ish tooh late
giving it time to fade away, far far away..
eventually i will foget the tiny bits of feelins but it will be
tormenting meeh every step of the way
the mani thoughts that filled mai mind
it ish so hard to control ur mind..ur heart
inside of mai heart i jus doesnt want to gib in but there ish
nothing i can do, that can ever change the truth
getting on with mai life, forgettin the feelin i hab for u
yesterdai tears filled mai heart, cryin out in pain
over and over again..i ask maiself why..
u are the onli thought that fill mai mind though out the nite
- tryin so hard -
everynite i stare blankly into the nite sky,
seein time passin bai slowly infont of mai eyes,
remberin all the times you made meeh laugh,
seein every moment that imma with you..
replay in mai mind,
everything jus seems to end with memories,
cant forget the fact that nothing last forever,
it feels like imma lockin mai heart away,
tryin so hard not to think, not to remember,
all the happiness that u've brought to meeh,
tryin so hard to push everything away,
makin maiself forget hoz i feel n what i think,
cuz imma scared, scared to loose a friend,
dont think i can hold it in ne longer,
all the feelins has taken the best of meeh,
tryin so hard not to cry, but wht can i do,
i choose to remain silent but...*sigh*
wonderin when will mai star come..
to guide mai way,cuz ur the one imma missin
- lil mousie 08.15.02