"Really... So now what?"

It defeats being a "PERSONAL" laptop if everyone has access to my files and it never being in my room anymore... Talk about common sense... whatever...

With the Fall finally setting in and Winter just inches away from the corner, October has yet to rear it's nasty ass in my face again... I don't expect it to be any nicer than it has in the past, but this coming week is Pow Wow week at work, and it's sure to make me hella weak for the beginning of October... "Love Halloween, but can't stand October"...

I'm over the whole "hate world, find truth" thing and now I'm looking at myself as "whatever, so now what?" type person... I don't care to be a revolutionary nor a total nothing... I think I'm just happy as is because I haven't the slightest thing to bite me in the ass to really "DO THE DEW" as it should... Yes I like to party and all that jazz, but that's just it... What else is there? So now what?... haruhi, haruhi, haruhi, haruhi... I'm bored finally...

There's absolutely no routine for me (except work, but even I can't call that a "regular" 9-5) and every goal I've set for/will set for gets done in due time... The only reason Ayumi isn't finished yet is because I'm afraid I'll be bored the weeks to come? "Seems like I stumbled upon it"...

Just to get by... just to get by... is that what I really wanna do?

So now what?

"October is such a sad month full of bad luck. Everything said above is truly a lie and there is one thing that can possibly void it all. Sadly, it can never be obtained by my foolish thinking going about these days. The days grow longer and the boredem comes quicker. What is the problem? Is there a problem? Of course there's a problem. I wouldn't be implying a slight melancholy if there wasn't. At this rate, I'll revert back into an enigma just so I can figure it all out, but that's something no one could ever comprehend."

Don't worry... It's just the thought of October rolling in... I've a story to write, but there's always two sides to a story and one is never told, mentioned, or written... It's carried to the grave...

(One Hour Later)

I screamed "YOUTH!!!" in my mind and I was totally ready to smash skulls and snap some backs... I think I'm supressing violence...

-wolf

"Are you a gang member?" - Diane
"Are you in a gang?" - Elizabeth
"Uncle, why do you look like a ninja?" - Leila

Whether I end up in Japan or Seattle or wherever after this story is over, I'm gunna NEED a place with a garage to do all my mechanix... (Vanaly has no tools and I felt lost in her place)... HA HA!!!... So an apartment is outta the question and I'm settling for a house only... (Could be a small ass ginger bread house for all I care, as long as the garage is big n solid, I'm all for it)

Despite all the dramatic changes since my last trip to Seattle, I had quite a ball and nothing seemed wrong at all (Same Seattle weather, Same unbreakable attitude)... I stayed with Uncle Nan the majority of the time and we ended up at the bar every night, which left the condo in a huge mess every time we stepped out the door, but we managed... Anyways, here are the highlights:

- I threw up from drinking too much... Yeah, I realized that going to the bar my first night there wasn't gunna be pleasant scene, but I never say no to booze yah know... Just get plenty of sleep, don't eat anything greasy, don't drink like 7 beers before you go, and don't plan on drinking Hennessy the whole time you're there at the bar... It will get messy... and no I didn't KO either...

- Reverse or forwards, it took at least 6 tries to pop-start Uncle Nan's car... I pushed...

- I don't care if I'm not a local and "not used" to it, but Washington has got some psycho ass drivers... I drive a ricerocket in Cali and I wouldn't dare drive in Seattle without a helmet...

- I installed Vanaly's steering wheel... It took 3 trips to the auto store and 1 near collision... 1 near collision because there was a big ass car accident no more than 2 seconds after we parked at Schucks Auto, and no more than 6 FEET BEHIND US!!! 5th Gen Honda Prelude vs a big Dodge Ram... guess who won?

well I'm tired and I'm going to sleep...
(offline 06.54am)
(online 08.21am 09.22.07)
aight, let's finish up...

- I rock at darts!... I'm not a bad player nor am I any good, but after a 2hr session with Uncle Gary and Chan, I got "fairly" good and started hitting bullseye every other round, not to mention being able to group them at pretty close range... I practiced a couple hours ago and my targeting improved a shit load...

- Seeing the Seahawks lose while watching the game in Seattle, hurt more than seeing the Chargers lose while watching the game in Temecula... The "game losing" fumble hurt my feelings...

Well that's about the jist of the trip (or so much that I want to mention, everything else is for my mind anyways), but there's just too much I can't express in words yah kno... (Yeah, call me a bitch for saying it like that, but also try growing up with a broken family and then finding a real definition years after your mind has already developed psychologically... it ain't easy)

Some strangers became friends... Some friends became family... Some family became strangers... I think that's where this story went wrong... I unno, I woulda had a better log if I had finished up the first night, but go figure...

-wolf

~10 min small blog~ (previously posted on mah mahspace)
I don't have enough time to drop a fat log into my site, so I'll do it here... but anyways, I'm GUNNA wake up at 9.30 (or so) and make my way down to the shop to pick up some parts before I head out to Seattle (Yes Vanaly, it's your steering wheel... for the most part, I was thinking about just giving you my set and getting a NEW (FRESH!) one later, but I'll be nice)... Then probably pick up some takoyaki from Mitsuwa and then with whatever time I have left, have a drink (or ten) with some buddies before I gotta get back for work... Groovy... We'll actually see how determination can get a lazy ass off his lazy ass...

And no, I didn't bail out on my "YOUTH!!!" beliefs earlier in the week by sleeping in all day and pushing off my trip to the shop... Today my "YOUTH!!!" will ultimately take me from Temecula -> Daygo -> ? -> Temecula -> Cabazon -> Temecula -> Ontario -> Seattle -> a bar, on my 3hr nap that I will undertake (right after this short log)... The ultimate form of "YOUTH!!!" (I call this) will make you shit in your pants if you can't stomach it... word! (dedicated to vanaly)

"Oh, you're that spikey headed guy!"
"Not that I have a choice, but yeah that's me..."

I've been getting a lot of good feedback on my spikey head since it's been "spikeable" about a month ago... Truthfully speaking, I'm actually getting more booty because I'm a spikey head vs my helmet head... but... THERE'S FUCKIN MILLIONS OF SPIKEY HEADED ASIANS OUT THERE!!! WTF?!?!... I seriously can't wait for my hair to grow back, so I can show what "spikey" really is... Harajuku Spikey god damn it!!! (Actually, my spikey head isn't clean cut nor is it similar to the masses, so I can see why people are taking particular notice of it... Like I said, I'M NOT A NORMAL PERSON!!!)

Speaking of which, I don't think there's any other job out there that would encourage me to "Do the Dew" that I've been doing for so long now... My hair is growing to be a lion's mane and I have a giant afro if I decide not to wear any mousse (all employees are to be groomed and look presentable)... My face is grizzly (hence groomed)... I have seven shiny ass earrings on one ear (employees are allowed ONE stud on EACH ear only)... I don't tuck in my shirt and I walk like a lazy ass (hence presentable)... I wear seven rings and three leather bracelets (no implying affiliations to any groups please)... My middle finger makes a lot of appearances and every other word is either "shit" or "fuck" (that's pretty much self explanatory)... My boss is all for it and let's me run with it...

Don't get me wrong... I'm not lazy at my job and the work I do voids out anything "negative" about me... To my company, they already looked pass my image and would rather leave it as is... THAT'S HOT BEANS BITCH!!! Think imma sneak in some black lipstick and possibly squeeze a Zell Dincht type tattoo into the works later on... WOO!!!... but even still, everything'll change if I get bored anyways, so I'll change accordingly...

so now what?

Time to take my ass on a small vacation to Seattle yo!... The timing couldn't be any more perfect because I received a sudden realization that I'm bored with working at the bar... SO, I will be taking a break away before I end up quitting... (Then that means I can defy "be defiant" by working at a bakery shop... what better way to "wow" the world once again right?)... right...

FYI: No, I don't have a girlfriend and I really am fixing my car... If you don't know it by now, I wouldn't give a second thought to trade my girlfriend for a case of heineken... ok, so i lie... make it a 24 pack... (NOW QUIT TALKING SHIT!!!)

"YOUTH!!!"... I am happy!

-wolf

About a year ago, I went to Japan to celebrate Onkeo and Kaori's wedding... While there, I met up with a lot of Kaori's friends and family... I previously met her brother and father in 2005 when they came to the US and we had a hella good time drinking and all that jazz... When we were in Japan last year in 2006, her father again showwed us a good time and drank us under the table countless nights (and mornings), showwed us who's "boss"... Although my japanese wasn't up to par and his english wasn't too well, we made due and goofed around like family...

When I got back to the US, I promised that I would brush up on my japanese so that I could conversate with the big guy, the next time I'd go to Japan... Currently, it's 2007 and I couldn't arrange time to hit up Japan due to some circumstances, so I planned ahead for the Sakura Season in 08', hoping we could get drunk off Kirin under some Cherry Blossoms... but... shoulda-coulda-woulda, now its too late, there is no next time...

What I'm trying to say is...

My condolences to my cousin Onkeo, Kaori, and her family for their recent loss... It didn't seem at all possible, but reality is unpredictable... Once more...

"Tomorrow is not promised today"... Seems like the overall them for 07' don't it?...

"YOUTH!!!"

-wolf