"Well when you really think about it, there aren't many choices we have."
"sacrifice is always something you have to consider in most cases..."

mah mind iz baked... n derz no one here to help me... failure is not an option, so my very own being is motivated by an ever dying thought... peepl stress about the shittiest reasons these days, but they have no idea the hardships ahead... my buddha prays for their reality... mine jez split in half...

i wanna go to a place where all thingz R fergotten... the past... the future... a place where only the present is the most important part in life... da next month or so, is a time that'll test my ability to comprehend my reality... is it, to revert back to the person i believed i would never be again?... or would it be, to become a new person to negotiate my real me?... one things for sure, the present calm no longer exist...

"Don't look into the past since it keeps you thinking, nor the future since it keeps you wondering, only focus on the present since that's reality."... but wut if that reality doesn't give a reasonable path to follow?... my dear guardian angel... my dear guardian angel...

-wolf

"Where do you get the ideas for the captions on your webpage?"
"wen yu jiggle mah fancy..."

i sit on mah ass thinking of mah next action... whether itll be a good choice or one easily to be forgotten... nuttinz shining at all right about now...

i haven't the slightest thought of what's to happen next, or what's to become of the almighty... but for some odd reason, i am calm and serene... this is a bad thing right?... i never really gave anything any hard thought, and i really don't think that imma start anytime soon... i unno, call it stupidity or ego, but something is to become of me... something no one or myself is gunna belief... itz a gut feelin, but pray none da less that it's nothing bad yeah?

some people would dedicate all their time and life into one simple skill or practice... but here i am sitting on mah ass, goin through so much uv it, yet all i do is cast it all aside to become side jobs... it's not a healthy habit, but i figure that a well rounded person is perfect for any situation... or am i jez too chill in general to notice that i'm sinking?... either way, whatever happens... jez bite yer lip n grit yer teeth...

actually, there's been noticable changes overall... everything seems to be at a stand still, slowly tryin to get some where or slowly changing... but no one seems to be stressing much at all... i think that's one part of me that never left, even as i migrated up here to TK to get away from it all... actually i admit that i've been selfish lately, trying to keep myself away from everything... but even still, all da "familiar faces" still pop up every now and then regardless...

dont yu jez luv it wen yu hav frennz dat kno hoo yu really R... talk bout outta da blue support mang... mah phone list jez dwindled down to who really countz, so mah bad if i don't greet yu wiff mah "usual" yeah?

-wolf

"I used to play the violin."
"no fuckin way..."

talk bout bein on MIA n shiet... been gone to seattle fer boutta month and i dint even stress a thang til i got back hea... talk bout illin...

mang, it wuz such a LOONNNNG trip, but it wuz worth all the trouble for... i say at least... da whole fam up in seattle iz so fuggin chill... i dunno if itz da fact dat i became disconnected wiff mah own life here back at home, or if this is da change that i really needed... i unno, it kinda felt like da same feelin wen we first moved up hea to TK, but da only prob iz dat everything wuz like an hourz drive away... so in difference wiff seattle, i litterally had nothing that indicated my "life", yet it dint bug me at all...

well after i got used to da atmosphere, it got perty chill fer me at least... cali has somethingz and seattle has somethings, so i cant really debate wheter which one is better, BUT dat whole chill period up derr wuz sumpin i really needed to get some dirt offa mah back none the less...

i think i wuz being missed here back at home, but nuttin really indicated that anywayz, so what's holdin me back to stay anywayz?... thingz R a lil too high maintenanced here in cali, plus i got too much uv a status here to hold up, SOOOOOOO mebbe i do need a clean slate and keep myself low key somewhere else ne?... im pretty sure i wont be missed much here... i think at least... well, make it a year after, and i'll consider the possibility once everything iz back on track again...

anywayz, even if me n betsy NEVER EVVA met durin da 20 year MIA, somebody tell me how in da werld did we turn out assimilatin almost every aspect uv each otha?... 20 yearz uv nuttin and we turn out bonding better den magnetz... so so creepy how this story iz unfolding dontcha think?...

BETSY YER HOT SHIET!!! new fotoz uploaded dearest... click "contempoz" since yer a new commer here...

-wolf