"Nah, I'll fuck you up in a smart conversation."
"Oddly, I know you can."

The weather has been unstable this past month, so it's been hard to keep up with my itinerary... I thought it would have been consistently cold, that way I could do more training outdoors and stuff, but it's hot & sunny on some days? Not that it's a bad thing, but I seriously need to do some body work on my poor Ayumi, so it would be nice to be ready for those days... "Until Bondo makes cold activated fiberglass resin, I'm waiting for spring to do it perfectly"... The rain doesn't help my training either, be it the morning fog or pouring rain, the tabletops at the park get hella slippery, which isn't good if I lose grip during a kong vaults & shit... "Cool for the people who are watching, but very bad if I slip and lose a tooth or something"... Play smarter, not arrogantly stupid!

I like the fact that if you want something to change with the current path your life is on, all you have to do is simply "do" and you'll be on your merry way until the next predicament... In my mind, you are never bound to a single path, that way you have no excuse to say that you are stuck due to a single decision... "Really though, you'll learn to never make bad choices once you've made enough of them... Actually, depending on the severity of the situation, maybe you did fuck yourself?"... I've watched angels become demons and devils become saviors, so with that being the case, who can you really rely on when everything is constantly changing? Simple, you believe in yourself and lay waste to anything and everything that becomes/is an obstacle... really? Not necessarily...

Depending on the type of person you are, drastic changes within your "norm" will ultimately alter you as well... I know that in my past, my character couldn't be justified as anything good willed, so I do have people now that I look upon to remind me that there is indeed some righteousness left in this mad world and that my sin could be diminished, but I was proven wrong to think that purity couldn't be tainted over time... "Defecting is an option..."

In the end, I'm right... Calamity is what brings order and my morality is actually recovering due to the chaotic events "my world" under went/is undertaking... I'm not being judgemental because I'm no saint either, but I'm in disarray since my third eye has blurred and my creeds are to be changed once again... "I'm compelled that I have to, but it's not gunna be the same from here on... There is no atonement for personal sin, but you always have the choice to go astray and never look back..."

Seems like I'm starting to sound more humane now eh? Whatever, it doesn't matter, it's just Murphy's law in effect...

"But you know what I really wanna say about all this? Fuck this shit! I aint got time to be dragging my ass on anything that doesn't aid my progression... It's all in the mind, just swallow it and keep pushing forward!"

-wolf

"Nike?"
"No, the Greek Goddess Nike!"

Victory is obtained through vigorous hardships and yet it can still be failure if personal expectations are not fulfilled... Shaolin monks can endure training in the freezing snow or under the mass pressure of a waterfall... "Certainly, I can run a mile in today's rainy weather... It's not a guess, I'm just gunna do it!"

"Impossible is possible."

For once, the sleeping man is slowly waking up to realize that the train is moving forward and he still has plenty of time before he reaches his destination...

-wolf

Fun Fact: The spider bites from my 06' Japan trip still itch
Fun Fact: My left thigh dislocates from the pelvis every now & then

Back in high school, I could run at least 4-5 miles in the span of 30 minutes... Last week, I almost died running around the block!... "Oh, it'll get better"... It seems that doing flips and quick bursts doesn't necessarily keep you in top form for long distance running, but I know it was a fluke...

I knew something was wrong last week when I stretched my right leg and felt something "tear" behind my thigh, but arrogant as I am, I took off running... Which resulted in extremely cramped calves and me coughing up all the fuckin nicotine I second handed from everyone... "Oh, I'm totally fine now... Told you it gets better"... It turns out that the "tear" I felt was just a muscle that hasn't been stretched out for ages, so I took it easy for a bit afterwards and it feels way better now... "Okay, there's still a lil bit of pain, but it doesn't feel like it's gunna rip anymore... or more than it has already?"... Bleh, helping Auntie Fong move house this past weekend and lifting all that heavy shit didn't do me any favors either... I managed though...

So now what?

"I actually have an answer for that this time."

"The Butterfly Effect", "Chaos Theory", "Order by Chaos", whatever you want to call it... I've always been the observer and record keeper of events that fall into categories such as these, but I never thought I would find myself a part of it... "Yes, choices lead to other choices and there is always multiple endings, but who'd have thought right? The situations I encounter never affect me in the long run, yet here I am with my rippled event"... The following are two outcomes that have/could have changed the current "me":

1) Landing the backflip at Joonyah's grad party
2) Missing the backflip at Joonyah's grad party

It looks like it's not that big of a deal, but that's where you're dead wrong... Had I landed it, I would be "hoping" more than "doing" right now... Since I missed, smacked the hell out of my skull, messed up my vision and permanently damaged a part of my spine (I've yet to see the chiro, so I could be wrong), I'm "doing" way more than just running on "hopes" alone... Honestly, I would be in total disregard of my personal health if things didn't happen as it did...

"Order by Chaos"... It took immense pain and a mentally slaughtered ego to put my ass back on track... I'm one music sheet away from being able to play "1000 Words" on the piano (Keyboard... mleh!) and just a wee bit more til I can do a transitional handstand... If I stay focused and determined, my next story is gunna be a fun one!

-wolf

"Aww hell, read what this says..."
"Do not microwave?"

My max benchpress is a good 200lbs+ and I can do reps of 170lbs easily... Doing hand stand push-ups are pretty easy too, but the problem is getting into that position from an elevated sitting form... "Uggh, my triceps!"

I thought I've been working out my triceps at a good rate, but I finally got frustrated when my old method wasn't making enough progress for my pop-up... So instead of doing extended leg push-ups (with weight vest), I tucked in my legs and elevated them on a platform to concentrate more weight down on my arms... "Yeah yeah, why didn't I do it in the first place? It's called being smart and progressing slowly... Patience is key, but patience becomes laziness once you figure that you haven't been pushing yourself hard enough"... So with the slight change, my teres minor/major and tricep muscles are reaching plateau finally... "And I think I tore them a bit... The pain taste so sweet!"

I wonder how the hell I lost my physique so badly in the first place?... I don't regret how, I just wonder...

Now all I have left is the mystery with the oblique muscle on my left side... *sigh*

-wolf

"Regular girls are too intimidated of me, but I do have an eerie charm towards strippers, gogo dancers, hookers and all that jazz."
"Don't. The world ends when you're not single anymore."

Well shit, I thought this would have been the year that I don't miss a month in logging, but what can yah do... "Oh I was pretty damn busy aight!"

I don't even wanna try to write down the details of all the happenings, so I'll bullet some keypoints for reference sake...

- Went to Seattle for about 1.5 weeks
- %100 sure that the oil leak from the oil filter seal is healed
- Almost beat down Fatboy during hollyween
- Spent a weekend in Vegas
- The passing of Kam's dad and the birth of Travis
- Phanh's newborn too
- Kicked it with B & Vanaly for a good week
- Uncle Fon'z, Dex's pops and gramma get hospitalized
- Gas prices DROPPED to a whopping $2.01 for Chevron premium

I unno if anything else is note worthy but I'll get back to all that later... The only concern at the moment is that the friggin doggy, Bei Bei, has a mean ass stomach ache and can barely move... I hate to predict the worse, but damn, hopefully he'll make it through the night so we can take him to the vet in the morning... "Yeah yeah I talk shit... I say this and that, but it's way too early for it to die yet."

Anyways, I'm a lil pumped up more than usual because I located a gymnastics gym right by the mall... Meaning? Meaning I can finally take my ass to a professional pit and practice whatever the hell without fear of hurting myself... "More than usual that is"... I'm pretty confident that my jumping height is up to par again, so making my return from "rehab" isn't gunna be as bad as it looked to be... All I really wanna do is get the corkscrew and butterfly twist back into my system, then I'll be more willing to do crazier aerials & shit later...

Even with all the little time I've had to workout the last 2 months, I kept at it with my abs and now I can pull a 1000 crunch set every other night... (400 even and 600 left)... Heh, I feel kinda goofy when I start working out/training, but I'll be happy with the end results when it all comes together...

"Just a lil more dedication and strong will is all I need right now."

So once again, no more drinking!

-wolf