"I'll always be a toys R us kid."
"an i getta be a crest kid..."

i aint got much tym to really say much but ill put da basis uv it all down... eberthang to anythang iz all werth it mang... check out da new pix i posted up in contempoz... it seemz lyk a weekly thang now if i only get one day to log... eh... den alla sudden ill be 21 an shiet...

da fuggin digi cam fuggin rox... itz not az pro az da canon but itz gotta buncha featurez dat i can uze fer perfect shotz... so far i learned eberthang derr iz an eberthang iz commin out hella good... dis weekend i took da trip round da bay an took mornin an night time shotz...

i ended up takin fotoz at la jolla cove wiff onkeo an kaori... da setting wuz hella nice since it wuz sumpin i hadnt been able to enjoy for a while since... hmm... i tynk i should do dis more often... anywayz da 3 uv uz were jez out in da open chillin fore we headed out to sharonz party later dat day...

supposedly alien wuz suppoze to be mah partner in crime but hiz ass had werk so i hit up quest to ride along... he wuznt doin too much since it wuz da enda da day fer em so i yanked hiz ass fer da trip... sharonz party wuz located at da country rezort along da way to sycaun... well... sharonz indian so it made perfect sense yah kno...

push 2 shove... after gettin quest i ended up makin a wrong turn an gettin hassled by da border patrol... which iz booshiet cuz we wuz da only car dat got pulled ovva fer bein "suspikuous"... but hell i knew he tugged me to da station cuz i wuz an asian dood in a ricerocket... but no hasslez an we ended up in time fer sharonz special moment...

surprise surprise... she dint kno it but chris pieced up da party emself fer hiz favorz... which wuz hella koo... cuz he proposed to err... AWW IND DAT SUMPIN... congratz yu 2...

basically da whole fuggin nyt wuz chill az hell... we all drank... watched hawaiian hoola dancerz... hit up da O2 bar... became hoola dancerz Rselvez which wuz a lil amuzin...

later we ended dat party at sharonz pad an jez drank a lil... sharonz lil sis wuz hella dancin at da party but had no partner... quest wuz a lil intimidated... i wuz hurtn pain due to mix drinkn... we wanted to dance but we had our reazonz... so we waited til it wuz bumpin at da pad and we sho'd er up... dey were a lil stoopified dat me an quest were actually good dancerz... but hell... we are asian yah kno... *SMILE*... talk boutta sneaky shakedown...

still da nyt dint end... it really ended at dennyz round 4.00am wen me an quest were gettin breakfast... which ironically i left mah cell fone on da table an alien had to get fer me... ind dat sumpin...

-wolf

"Done yet?"
"almost..."

an viola... exactly one hour later dis shiet iz finished... i now introduce da contemporary foto gallery... contempoz... so far derrz only bout 14 fotoz til i get uzed to it... so im a lil rookie now dat mah canon cam iz gone... big deal... but dis way iz hella cheaper also... WANG!!!

"You pervert, what do you planning on using that camera for?"
"duh stoopid... cameraz take fotoz... an wiff da 256 mb memo card i can take up to 1G'z werth... but den datz a lotta power aint it..."

me hav camera... an it come loaded wiff goodiez... i have test fotoz... up mebbe today... but it funni... PWAH HA!... im fuggin happi bout mah early xmas prezent... how bout everyone else...

dis shiet iz so fuggin phat mang... at 3.2 megapixel... the optical zoom still lookz fresh from afar... i say i found another dinky toy datll kill time from bein in TK ne... anywayz ill post up test fotoz later...

-wolf

"Kaori's dad is letting us use his place in Central Tokyo... look, you can even see the Tokyo Towers from this viewpoint."
"OH MAH FUCKIN GAWD!!! WERE GUNNA BE RIGHT ON TOPPA SHINJUKU!!! WERE DEFINITELY BRINGIN BINOCULARZ MANG!!!"

"i luv classical muzix and all tyngz contemporary... classical cuz itz bein fergotten and contemporary cuz itll be fergotten"... I think that's how she would have said it also ne?

by da enda dis week i will hav a forgotten skill uv mine back were it belongz... she said "to return to a time when nothing else matters"... well dat includez me an da camera... i friggin luvved to take fotoz wen i had mah pro cam but wen i lost interest i simply fergot about it... but... by da enda dis week ill hav ayuz Lumix type in mah grubby lil handz... itz da fuggin 3.2 megapixel Panasonic Lumix dmc-f1 leica lenz type wiff a black frame... YEA ITZ BLACK... i kynda debated if i should get da black cybershot or da lumix but i ended up wiff da lumix cuz i alwayz wanted one... ill prolly pick up da cybershot after xmas or sumpin... but fuggin dis week imma send dis memory card to hell on da ferst trial... oh how takin fotoz bringz back memoz... "sadly memoriez are nice... but deyre only memoriez"...

wiff all dat sed... yeah mah prioritiez are set straight... once again imma say it... but deng itz alredy been a year since i last sed "dis year iz gunna be great"... an hell it haz been a great year... imma say dis onez gunna be better cuz ill be at a reasonable age were all da professionalz an all da hi class can take me seriously... "trust me... bein 20 wiff skillz up da ass duznt get yu anywhere until yer an "adult"... booshiet mang ill skoo any fuckin body in mah position ryt now"... but datz how it iz... da surefire shot i hav to get out iz mah driving or mah muzix... da longshot iz skoo... an da depressing alternative iz da office (ewww)... i gez all dis tym i wuz jez pondering bout mah money management... ironically i ceased to remember dat im fuggin young an only actin da foe due to da atmosphere... mang fuck da corporate werld... but remembah kidz... if yer gunna hate sumone den yu gotta be prepared fer da consequencez...

i still dun hav an answer to mah baby gurrz question... but ill find it in tokyo... datz all i kno fer sure now... tokyo iz were itll end finally... "well duh imma keep throwwin dat in sumwere... yu keep talkin lyk itz home an schuff... or implyin dat itz gunna be home..."

-wolf

"I got it! It's perfect! How about a rich nymphoid? That way you can have her for all the money and the sex is free. Am I smart or what?"
"mang... datz still perty low... cant yu raize da bar a bit higher... i tynk i hav moralz... make her japaneze an ill agree for a dollar..."

dis haz gotta be da best week uv mah life in TK so far... shiet mang... bro finally took it EZ an we left fer werk in da afternoon every fuckin day so far... an dat shiet wuz so refreshin... looki i hav no bagz under mah eyez anymoe...

ill admit... im a lil dirty all round an hella scruffy... but imma fuggin bitch wen it comez to mah hair... although not many peepl kno it... itz da best feature i hav yet i hide it away under a hat... not in shame but in safety for otherz... ind dat sumpin... well da otha day i dyed mah bleached endz in blu black which haz a blu effect in da sun but dark under lamp light... (which iz good cuz den boss'll nevva kno)... but mang... i look lyk a fuckin perty boi wiff mah stache an beard all shaved... but all gurrz broke dey neck today tho... oooh mang i fuckin look lyk a soopah star... arrogantly speakin but wiffout da hat tho... which rarely comez off anywayz...

oh an anotha good thang... mah fist havvin been itchin since da middle uv da week either... datz hella good newz... cuz dat meanz dat derz no stress build up any were... usually i'd play da piano or hit da bagz wen dey do but it seemz dat everytyng went hella balanced dis week... good shiet kidz...

on anotha brighter side... derz a new chick werkin at da juice shop... an shez got BIGO EYEZ which i find hella koot... (yea i sed koot... so wut da fuck)... but shez so short... but mang... i miss dat one dood... he may not be a lady but fux he wuz da only one dat knew how to make juice... so itz a lil sacrifice i have to take...

oh oh... an mah baby gurl aint no booshiet... i wuz jez tynkin bout it but mang shez scruffy even tho shez bootiful... im perty sure da reazun Y da hatch got keyed wuz cuz it wuz all perty an had a fresh paint job... but... if sumone would key ayu... would in da werld would dey accomplish in doin dat... shez a 3 bill paint job wiff no clear coat yet shinez lyk a mofoe but haz scarz up da ass on her lip an trunk... mang mah carz ghetto fab... i luv her so so much... an she may hav a lil sister in da next cupple weekz or so... ill keep yah posted on dat...

-wolf

"Eww, so what's wrong with us?"
"kidz need trainin an women are trubblin... aww shiet im in a paradox..."

wut da hell... da axlez snapped on da hatch... wut da hell... onkeoz gunna party dis weekend... wut da hell... fiel getz 2 uze da fitness aerobix room from 9-11 on wedz an monz... oh wait datz a fuckin good thang...

so now dat fielz got a room at da fitness center... it makez it fuggin eazier fer me... an on mah body... dat way i could fuggin land on da yoga matz instead uv da concrete... which iz beneficial wen corkscrewz dun wanna stop wen dey wanna... YAY... wolf iz on a roll...

an also... dey got mirror an fuggin lightz... even xtra fer me... now i could actually see wut im doin instead uv jez starin at mah handz an feet... and yu bet yer ass imma abuse da yoga matz fer akrobatix... well shiet... i aint chineze type fer nuttin... and flipz off da wall... now datz sumpin im lookin to...

and to tynk... dis side uv me wuz startin to feel more relaxed an shiet... teh... well it lookz lyk ill be puttin a lil more time into da battlin an shiet... ahh... a lifestyle which i thought to rid ferevva... but wut da hell mang... lived it luvved it so itz a permanent parta me now ne... mine az well jez bite da bullet...

SO!!!... i fuckin lied... now i did at least... well i'd lyk to say hell no to da stargazerz... mah shiet wiff yu guyz alredy ended an dis even now aint no invitation to call me back an shiet... but fuggin propz an headz up to fiel fer hittin me back wiff dis info... it could be sumpin to keep me into it again...

-wolf

"I GOT IT! For x-mas I should get you a girlfriend that only says "uh okay" and has no brains at all. That way she can comply to your ever changing lifestyle with little or no maintenance at all!"
"mang... datz perty low standardz yu thought up fer me... we aint frenz no moe..."

i figured dat dis iz bout az good az it getz... but... i gez not... wiff az many talentz az derr are in da werld... derr iz alwayz a way to excape... datz wut i say... outta all da skillz dat i got... i'd rather be fuckin dancin mang... oh my dear ayu... how yoov grown since back in da day...

seriously i could do jez about any job out derr available in da werld... but da one thang datz up on mah list iz a lil dancin... well even if it duznt pay much or payz too much... i tynk dancinz bout da only thang dat keepz me motivated... or sumpin lyk dat...

well i mean... how fuckin fun iz life if yu only uze yer brain 2 express how yu are... i dun mean to flaunt or nuttin but im a fuckin all rounder... i dont mean to put anybody on da spot (especially joonyah... much luv an no finger pointin but dis iz da main category uv peepl which i truly hate...) but how fun iz it if all yu do iz study study study... all yer doin iz bein selfish an tynkin bout da hefty sum uv money at da end to support yu an yer future family... "Don't look into the past since it keeps you thinkin, nor the future since it keeps you wonderin, only focus on the present since that's reality."... buddha forbid dis but if yu spent yer hole fuckin lyf studyin yer ass off an only end up on da opposite side... how would da story uv yer life sound to otherz... complete waste... LIVE GAWD DAYMIT... a higher education duznt necessarily mean yu will be or are on toppa everyone elz... itz all bout how yu sieze da day...

well heaz wut i mean... letz list sum professions...

biochemist... purely brain an yah sit on yer ass all day...
psychologist... purely brain an all yah do iz listen...
bag boy at da store... active but not using it to the extent...
singer... chances are yah prolly suck at dancin... rare occassions dat yu can...
rapper... yer image duznt allow dancin if yer hardcore...
soldier... oh yer fuckin active but yer runnin fer yer life an yer all muscles...
acrobat... datz jez pure luck...
teacher... purely brain an iz anotha name fer couch potato...
b-boy... now datz da shiet im talkin bout...
crumperz... now datz da shiet an yer keepin yer ass alive...

dancin... datz were da shiet iz... yer fuckin uzin yer head an yer body in unison... specially choreographed shiet... yah gotta plan an yah gotta execute and yer fuckin havvin fun while in da process...

itz lyk i alwayz sed... money haz no value to me until mah fuckin job makez me happi... if... IF... i snuggle my way into avex az a back dancer... i wouldnt give a shiet if dey paid me less den wut i make... da chances are slim but a chance iz alwayz a chance...

i unno if it wuz deja vu or jez a coincidence... but mom momz asked how am i evva gunna take care uv mah self... now i sed to myself... i aint gotta worry cuz all i gotta do iz make enuf to keep dem happy til derr dead an all i gotta worry bout iz mahself...

it may be selfish but datz how it iz fer me... once everyone iz outta da way da only tyng i gotta do iz die alone an be happi... knock on wood fer mommy an daddy but dey jez dun understand a tyng bout da real value uv money... all yu gotta do iz ask yerself if yer really happi or not... den yull see if yer makin liez fer yerself or not... hav fun kidz...

-wolf