fly back to friday aftahnoon... went tah Jakez tah bleech hiz her... an try an figure mah camber nut... we couldnt do it so we gave up til Thumbz came along... even wiff Thumbz jammin all ovva it... loozenin all sortz uv screwz... no success... even at Soopahamaynz no success... illin...

so aftah werk off tah Soopahmaynz since Joonyahz sistah waz havin a baby b-day... YAY!!!... *to lue people we find any excuze tah drink... weddin; sure why da hell not... baby shower; sure why da hell not... new body kit; sure why da hell not... see wat ai mean*... ai went home tah brush up a bit an ai call up Angela tah see wazzup... dar at "Super Sergioz" alredy so ai went dar since ai waz so close... course no food waz left... den we decided tah go off to Market...

Alien an da resta em were dar alredy... Alien spruced up fer Cassandra... hiz boo frum up norff... ai thought dat would be a good event tah include fer dis... anywayz... ai dint stay dar long since dar waz a baby shower goyn on... so off next door ai went... basically ai spent mah hole day dar playin cardz wiff da olda gen... actually at sum point da resta mah peeplz left to go to da beach wiffout tellin me til dey were on dar way back... either way ai waz gettin drunken so it dint matter... we all were havvin fun...

no hard laq... jez pure beer... an a hole shiet load... ai unno how much ai downed... but ai went from energized to hella dizzy wen ai went tah sleep in "Ayumi"... see... im responsible... anywayz... it dint hit me til later so ai waz drunk from 12.00AM-12.07AM... den asleep from 12.08AM-4.57AM... nifty aint it... stoopid ass Skunk woke me up wen he called me an asked... are yu sleeping in da car... aftah he knocked on mah window an sed mah namae... illin boa...

anywayz... wake up... come home... sleep... den ai awake to sum people checkin out da houze... *mah pad iz up fer sale since we movin up norff so iz all open houze ryt now... illin...*... at ferst ai waz heavily asleep til da host opened mah door... "oh... yo bloda ish sleepin"... no duh... now be quiet so ai can return to mah humble state... alla sudden ai hear buncha gurlz talkin bout space an niceness...

ai sed wat da fuck... darz gurlz in da houze... an itz so early... illin... only if ai had awoken earlier den ai coulda pertied up mah room so ai can portray da healthy side uv da wolf... den again ai jez came back from a drink up so ai dint care much... oh woe... dar were gurlz in da house... woe... woe... woe mah ass...

so anywayz... ai couldnt sleep aftah dat so ai woke up... it waz 12.00PM... Saturday... ate breakfast... den sat mah ass on da bed an played gamez da resta da day... Thumbz an Jake came ovva fer a bit... were spoze tah go check out tatz in downtown but Thumbz had tah rest up fer werk... oh da tym now iz 6.32PM... kicked it fer a bit an searched on da comp... den dey left... ai waz home... everyone called me tah go out... ai stayed... den dey came... played Phantasy Star Gamecube... burned CDz... bullshiet... bullshiet... an hea ai am at da enda da day redy tah shoot it off da next mornin... er dis mornin... either way... uhh... HIT IT REIKO!!!

lil hybrid wolf: so wat yu iz gurl...
amairyoko: I'm japanese
lil hybrid wolf: ...

TAH!!! fugg yu werld... an dar off...

-Wolf

Bastard: Omede...
Reiko: Oh crap, not that song again.

yea yea iz xmas alryt... an it iz done fer anotha year... lyk ai sed... ai spent mah hole paycheck on mah self... den again da paycheck before dat went to presentz... heh... aint dat selfish yah kno...

lez see... ai bought nuttin but schuff from da "build a ber" shop at Fashion... 20 went to a black ber fer Angela... an anotha 20 to a penguin ai got fer mah lil sis... well if ai logged bout it before den ai woulda ruined da serprize ryt... duh duh...

dat waznt it though... dis shop specializes in all da clothez an shiet fer dem thangz... since ai waz on a budjet at da tym... ai only got a pair uv berboxerz fer Angela... an da magician set fer mah lil sis... well ai plan tah finish it off on da next paycheck so ai aint bein dat cheap... dat all cost me bout 70 billz fer 2 itemz an sum clothez... lyk illin...

anywayz... on to today... ai woke up round 11 an took a shower... bout an hour or more... den alla sudden Soopahmayn waz sittin on da computah d-loadin muzix... dint expect dat but wat da hell... went tah Mowt Dangz pad tah grub a bit since dey invited da family ovva... ai munched on a grippa ham an mashed taterz... watched "The Sweetest Thing" while I waz dar...

movie waz more dan ai thought it would be... thought chick flix but turned tah be comedy... ai lyked Selma Blairz role in dis... fuckin rowdy az hell... pluz dat an da baffroom scene... nah actually da hole movie waz well played... it kept mah interest til da end... A+ yo...

anywayz... aftah a bit ai left tah Fatboyz tah see wazzap... jez Koo Guy an Fatboy kickin it since it waz kynda early... illin... Soopahmayn came down... den left as did Koo Guy... Khongsaly came out... den Skunk... den Fatboy an Skunk left tah pick up Bryan... den me an Khongsaly left an went tah Chekz pad tah fill up on Korean Steak... it waz me an Khongsaly... Chek an hiz gurl... an Joonyah an hiz gurl fer a while... til Joonyah had tah take hiz gurl home... den it waz jez me an Khongsaly an Chek... hiz gurl tagged along... took him a while to get back... actually we left fore he got back... so off tah Danaz we go...

we got tah Danaz alryt... den Angela chucked sumpin at "Ayumi"... so ai peeled out an almost mashed her foot... *mah v-tec controller popped off an mah cd skipped... incredible...* anywayz... den off again since dar waz no grill suppliez... Xmas day... rarely any storez open... so we resorted to da AMPM on Home Avenue... friggin 12 pack cost 5 billz an shiet... lyk illin... so we grabbed 3 an left tah find charcoal... luckily Fatboy got it so we left...

basically ill cut it lyk dat... dun need tah be too detailed... got tah Danaz... chilled an grub... da resta da peepl came... surprizingly Lexx an Christine came out today... kynda thought they had dar own tyng tah do... but ai waz velly pleased dat dey came out tah kick it wiff uz... strangely Connie came out... dis tym wiffout SOO!SI!EN!... how weerd...

basically it waz koo... ate a bit... played sum gamez... exchanged giftz... got sum luvvin... an da enda da day... ai took Connie home an ended up at Joonyahz since Chek waz gone... waz gunna go dar an finish off da short ribz... illin... but again... we compiled in Skunkz Civic tah kill off da day... max waz at 6 peepl... til Chek came back... den we dogg piled 5 peepl in da back... total uv 7... illin... ai left at 12.30 AM tah get mah lil sis... but ai missed er by lyk 30 secondz... so ai waz trailin mah aunt home an she dint kno it... still... it waz a good day... sum tyngz ai dint log since it would have took too much tah detail it out... ill keep it hea though... anywayz... heaz da gift list...

-Big Block uv Almond Hersheyz from Alyssa... luv dis since ai waz cravin choco at nyt...

-Jack Danielz Tie from Alien... goodness iz black...

-Mashimaro greeting card from Christine... da letter inside waz realy golden sweetness...

-Rude Awakening Clock from Angela... dis one waz good since ai finally got a reliable clock tah wake me up... WEE... dun run on batteriez...

-SI Swimsuits 2003 Calendar from Angela... heh... saved me tym tah go out an get a new one fer meself...

aight daz it fer dis year... ai would log sum more but ai need tym tah sleep since ai got werk in lyk... 1.30 hrz... anywayz... hav a happy fuckin holiday peepl...

-Wolf

so heaz xmas eve day... mah sis'z bday on da otha hand too... tynk she 13... 14... ona doz... pick one... anywayz merry happy bday Noodlez...

on a different subject... if yu kno me lyk dat... an really kno me... den iz no serprize dat ai hate da holidayz... well besidez from spendin money on otha peeplz... it reekz shiet... ok ill elaborate...

unlyk all otha peepl hoo are happy an smilin mosta da tym... each year im ingulfed wiff dilemmaz all round... no shiet... well not my own but otha peeplz... wishez tah happen... wishez dat are broken... schuff lyk dat... illin... ai unno... mebbe iz a knack fer me... havent had a trubble free xmas so far... but ai gez daz da way it iz... usually ai alwayz patch it up sum way or anotha... but dis year ai jez let it hit da fan... lyk hard... actually ai dun even feel da same from previous tymz so ai gez dat contributez... HA! all mah money went to me dis year... selfish... hell no... ai spent da last cupple yearz spendin mah azz off an in return ai get nuttin but a smile... well sure dat sentimental value but hell... ai dun need dat shiet no moe anywayz...

aside from bein grinch... evryone elz iz hit on dut soopecial sumone... illin... if it were up tah me id say da hell wiff em an save dat cash... give it to me instead... heh... but ill play it dis way instead...

From what I see around me, each year, every one is hurt from thinking too hard, thinking too much.

-The only reason why you recieve pain from your good deeds is because you are the better half. No complaining please. If you happen to lose yourself in greed and blindness then escape from it because the other person will not change for anything else. So, bite your tongue and follow a new path, hard as it may be, it's reality to you but fantasy to them.

-If you can't make a clear decision off what you know, then don't make one yet. How can you be sure about your answer when you are not even sure about the situation at hand. Take it like it is, gain more details on the subject before you make a decision.

-Stuck in a circle you can't get out, you already know your own answer but you are too afraid to accept it. Get over your head and listen up.

-Party, party, party and what you forgot about is your family.

-To admit your mistake is the best way to come at it, there's no use in running, unless you fit the description of a lowly coward.

-If you ask too many questions then you're bound to hit a brick wall that you didn't want. Learn to filter what you want from what you don't want to hear, it makes the difference from fib to lie.

yea... bravo host ego... yu did a fine job yah panzie... anywayz... wiff dat sed ill continue on wiff mah story... since dis month haz been nuttin but express yer fillinz month... den ill partake in it a lil... funni shiet aint it... ill keep it short...

if a gurl can get in mah head... touch mah black ass heart... and make it all express from mah mouth... den yuz da one...

den again ive yet tah see dis spectacular person so destined tah crack mah titanium plat hard circle ive accumulated... nifty aint it... heh heh... actually... ai jez realized dat ai talk too much shiet bout gurlz deez dayz... mah goodness... even mah own mom would hate me fer wat ai tynk... HA! funni aint it... well no harm done... if yuz mah peeplz den it dun apply cuz ai kno yu lyk dat... so no crazy talk wen yu see me next tym...

one otha note... past revisited... da sweestest song ive evva heard so far... no rival in mah head... Ayuz "Two of Us"... so much value... so much into it... ai lyk it... ai really do... im serious wen ai say dis... but it makez me tear up a bit... lyk illin... only Ayu can break me down... daz lyk... 1 outta da werld so far... so far Reiko... ai aint ferget yet...

eww... now dat bringz dis up... one more skin bleeder iz da difference from homiez an gurlz... actually one uv da many reazunz why ai rather stay at it alone fer a bit... anywayz... to mah homiez... wen ai say ai un need a gurl cuz dey un treat me ryt... dey kick back an ask wazzap wiff dat... ai say it a lil and dey comply... no questionz asked... now gurlz on da otha hand... no matter how much yu elaborate da answer... dey alwayz ask for more... an wen yu tell da hole answer... darz alwayz gotta be a psychological reazun why ai wanna be alone... lyk illin yo ai jez gave yu da most definite answer so take it lyk dat an smile... darz no moe to da story...

GO AYU!!!... sumpin beyond mah reach yet keepz me on mah feet...

-Wolf

finally ai getta do sumpin dat ai wanted to do fer a while... heh... ai wrote a letter to mah grand kidz... yea... daz ryt... mah grand kidz... dint kno ai had sum ryt... well soon ai will...

kiddin peepl... ai jez got bored fer a hourz an decided tah write to mah future grand kidz... tynk im crazy... well tynk bout it... talkin to yer grand kidz way into da future an explainin bout how yer life went down... ai unno bout yu bout ai tynk itz nifty...

basically fer today ai introd mah self to dem... hoo ai waz... wat ai am... wat ai do... shiet lyk dat... yea all uv yu tynk itz cheezi but ai lyk it... itll keep me intact wiff my family even long aftah im dead an no matter how much uv da mixxin pot mah family spinz into...

well tynk bout it... itz yer grand kidz yu talkin to... wat yu wanna say huh... specially now da one im writin... since im 18 iz kynda ironic if my 32 year old grand kid readz about hiz great grampz writin lyk hez da shiet wen hez only 18... HA! fugg yu grand child... im still oldah an wiser...

so daz da event uv da day... im startin a whole family log cuz ai feel lyk ai need tah make a mark fer mah family name since im da 1st gen to be born in da US... kidz ai hail yu... im yer 18 year old grampz yo... pluz da ghetto...

-Wolf

so im commin back from werk an iz a daily routine on da same route each day... Mugen Prelude... WRX... Talon... Accord... den on da way past TJz pad were no carz are usually at... *if on a good day hiz LS Integra should occupy hiz 3 lot spot...*

da only tyng different dis tym iz dat dar waz a car in TJz driveway... it caught da corner uv mah eye too... SI Blu... ai wondered... hey SI Blu... only one carz got dat... AYE itz a Civic Si... in TJz driveway... weerd...

really ai dint even expect dat he would get an SI... nor a Civic... but im still not sure if itz hiz or hiz popz... ill figure out soon nuff... one tyngz fer sure... ona da family ownz it... no platez in yet... come tah tynk uv it... dey got more carz dan dey can fit into dar driveway... *garage made into a second livin room... nifty aint it...*

so watz da plan fer da day... hmm... ponderin still... ferst imma switch up da Pioneer amp wiff Khongsalyz amp... see how much da difference iz... den lez wander on ovva tah Mattz an see were he iz... eh... still not da hole day though... fer sum odd reazon... ai feel da urge tah emulsify "Ayumi" in car partz now... feel good feelin... ill lay off da Xmas shoppin fer a bit... no good shoppin wen iz not dat important yea... sorta...

-Wolf

anywayz... ai havent been loggin in az much... peak season at werk... WOO YAH!!!... ryt mah azz... so ill be on an off fer az much til... January or sumpin... anywayz...

da hole point uv secret santa iz tah keep it a secret ryt... which makez it more fun... lyk illin... Angela yu hav no fun peak... lyk illin... either way... if daz da way yu want it den ill say ok...

eh... which leadz to da hole point uv me bein hea... eww... ai kno ai rant bout peepl a lot... but mang... iz come down to dis... ai really hate da peepl round me... ai need tah find sum peepl... more peepl... more exposure... single minded peepl jez get undah mah skin an it getz me ryt at da throat... yea ill keep talkin an if yu kno hoo yu are... yull keep gettin mad... so ill keep talkin cuz daz wat mah name impliez...

heaz wat yu are...
- yu alwayz gotta say ai dun wanna
- yu alwayz gotta say ai un feel lyk it
- yu talk a lot but aint got shiet tah back it up
- sittin at home dun do shiet
- it hurtz yerself wen yu talk shiet bout yerself
- yu got no shietz tah do
- all yu do iz wait tah follow
- were iz yer sense uv originality
- yu aint hoo yu say yu are yu fuckin poseur
- yu piss me off fer reazunz unknown
- yu dun even kno hoo yu really are
- ai travel alone cuz yu are one blind azz moe fuggah
- hoo da hell do yu tynk yu are
- point at me fer sayin iz mah fault an daz it wiff uz
- yu really dunno wat itz lyk tah live it out
- ai un really care fer yer outcome any moe
- iz da way yu want it now so fuckin congratz... yu win

shiet... ai could go on... hoo waz dis meant for... hoo carez... if yu tynk itz yu den mebbe it iz... ai kno hoo itz aimed at... do ai care if yu get discouraged by it... hell no... mebbe yu shouldnt take it seriously since only ai kno hoo itz aimed at... an hell no dun IM me an say yu tynk itz yu cuz fer one reazun or anotha itz not... so qwit feelin dat yer special an dat yer on mah mind all da tym... cuz yu aint... now datz bold...

so now once again a trigger haz pulled mah blinding rage...
an im cast into a state were nuttin seemz tah go ryt...

were am ai headed...
ai still dunno...

hoo am ai to meet...
ai figure dat ill do it alone...

wat am ai to do...
ill let it happen on itz own...

wat keepz me still...
hail to Ayu an Armin...

wat happen to my mind...
itz in a state uv trance...

ahhh da bastard duz it again... play wiff yer head ai will... so wat... anywayz... wiff dis in mind... ai unno... ill let mah head battle it out an see wat happenz next... ayu ready... cuz dis can get uglee...

-Wolf

Armin Van Buuren... not yer average trance artist... really though... unlyk Oakenfolk or Voodoo hiz shietz... perty original... ai lyk da style... anywayz... nuff fer now... im exhausted lyk hell... gurl save mah azz yo...

-Wolf

hey werld... fer da dayz agenda ill be stationed at "Mesa Kollege" gettin mah blain revamped... yeap... da hole day... so dun be shy... drop by an gimme a gut pucnh or sumpin... an be perpared tah get one back... soooo... fuck yu since imma be spendin mah day at skoo... shiet mang... yea da hole day... iz finalz week next week so cram ai say...

aye fuggah... ai sed ai waz lazy... ai aint stoopid... armin iz gawd... gawd ai say... supreme gawd...

-Wolf

da dum... an itz december... mah bad fer not loggin in so much lately... been all sleepi bizee... wat evva... anywayz... im finally all outta debt an allz ai gotta do iz keep mah paymentz up an im all good... now... ai got extra moola... were do it go... none other dan mah baby "Ayumi"...

eber thang lately haz been goyn straight dis week... well otha dan da foul up on monday... iz been goyn good fer me... no nuttin off... so wat iz dar tah look forward to... a lot... DJ Irene waz commin to town sumtym soon... da only prob iz dat im not 21... fuckin shiet... trance clubbin to da max were ai cannot tread... im jealous... but ill wait... fuggin...

next week iz "Liquid Dreamz" at da coorz amphitheatre... it myt be alryt but hey... celebz in daygo county... pluz iz south side... ai unno but yea ai gez... gottsa get mah bootz redy tah go... snatch sum ideaz fer "Ayumi"... eh... so far in tinkerin fer sum camz... but den again mosta da peepl are greedy an ai hav no such luck in fyndin it... ahh... so ai mine az well fit on da beltz an cold air so ai can hand down da akimoto to khongsaly... hurrah...

eberthangz good... but iz borin... eww... aint shiet tah do anymore... ahh... ai would hav more fun sittin in Shinjuku watchin peepl pass by dan ai would be clubbin in da statez... an on a side note... dat fuggin Armin Van Buuren iz a fuckin gawd... most illin...

oh yea... Red Ant iz spoze tah be droppin in fer da winter... once a year yo... mah lil nygga cuzzin... so far ai havent been able tha keep track bout wether he goyn off da bad vibez or wat not... but yea... iz koo he down hea... settem straigth fer wen hez down hea... at least...

trance artist... guest... cold blizzard... now dis iz winter... one tyng dat 2 uv mah homiez did mention dat ai keep fergettin tah shimmie outta waz da hole winter/x mas season an da issue uv havvin... check dis... a gurlfren... *aww sum peepl wanna get coozy or sumpin*... but yea... anywayz bein mah self ai cant help but let it get in mah bonez an shake mah head tah help out... ai find tyngz lyk dis really fun...

alryt ai kno waz gunna hit me next... yea ai can do it fer da homiez but wat bout mah self ryt *Mizz Reiko*... simple... broz fore da hoez... well in a sense... check it... let da homiez be happi fore yerself... dat way no onez got an excuze tah bite at yu... meanin... dey wont try tah get at yo woman... ha... illin... so iz lyk dat... dun say im sentimental fer mah homiez or anytyng... but ive alwayz been lyk dat... Wolf... da humble hybrid doggie...

so ai got an agenda tah fulfill fore da 25th... lyk illin... got lotz uv tym ryt... mebbe not... but ill keep in touch... mmmmm... lyk illin... dis Van Buuren iz hella good... da trance iz actually balanced... anywayz... im jez blabbin now... im off... oh yea... fuk kyu...

-Wolf