"Baby, the stars shine bright..."

I walk with my head up high and I speak as if I were a god, but my old man asked me for a favor a while back and I just realized that I didn't make good on it... Money isn't a prob for me, but I think I just failed to be a son... I could care less if anyone tells me I'm a loser because I'd just headbutt'em and spit to the side, but this time I'm telling myself that I failed... My word is final, and it applies to me as well... (It's a quirk of being schizophrenic)

For now, I can only hope that I can tie my laces again, but we'll see...

If "dat one girl" were still around, I'd probably have gotten that done in no time and Ayumi would have been done the first day she broke down, but that's how it goes... "Truth" = "YOUTH!!!" (Too bad I didn't see it til mid this year)... But it's better late than never and I'm gunna tear some meat off a lion's back... That's how I roll... (Spent a majority of the year saying shit like "Tomorrow is not promised today", when it can easily be summed up as "YOUTH!!!")... *sigh*, only a woman of that caliber could put me in my place...

For the most part, I'm pretty much sick of how dull things are getting, so Imma change up a bit (Fuck you, I aint skerred to do shit)... I never really got to embrace my sloppy factor back in the day, so I'm gunna give it a rebirth this year and make some heads roll (like always)... I.E., I love Christine forever and more because she's one hell of a girl... I ran back into Christine not too long ago and she went full "lolita" on everyones asses and puts a "fuck you" on what we call "fashion" (Too bad she's not goth-loli... but I love her still)... I deprived myself on that very much since moving up to TK, but I want it back and I'm going for it... "a dirty lueboy"...

I'm headbutting anyone that turns the cheek on me...

"Humans are cowards in the face of happiness. You need courage to hold onto happiness."
- Excerpt of Momoko Ryugasaki

-wolf

"(WTF?! NANA?!)"

Ever since the Anna concert in July, things have been rolling sideways-forward... In terms of a typical person, thats not right, but I'm always willing to roll backwards while going forward to give it more of a twisted kick... It looks to be a gradual build into whatever character I'm gunna end up this time (I unno either, so don't ask), we'll see what I end up as...

I partied earlier this week at Joonyahz and dominated myself with a near 10-beer count and 4-shots Don Julio (near 4 or whatever), then KO'd for a bit, BUT woke up 30 mins later to drive the "sober" ones to get some mexican food... I ended up drinking another 2-4 beers or so, and took refuge next to Alien on the floor... (If i had eaten and slept before the party, I'm sure I would have went on longer, but whatever)...

I ended up in Santa Barbara later in the week (my ass... one day after I woke up from Joonyahz that is) to entertain some guest from Japan... It was cool seeing them again, but the ones that caught my eye (besides Ryuji and Mai) were Koji n Chihiro...

- Koji was actually the first person to greet me and later I found that he studied a lil english, likes to drink, and his name is "fuck you" (inside jokes)... This guy rocks and we would have connected better if my japanese was off the wall (but it aint)...

- Chihiro, I didn't notice her until I actually stood next to her and took a real good look at her... "(?, black pants, black button up, white shirt, short hair... She looks like... SHE LOOKS LIKE NANA?!... oh... oh... OH MY GAWD! that's a cigarette... SHE SMOKING A CIGARETTE!!! THIS GIRL IS NANA!!! I SCORE!!!)"... I only talked to her for a bit, but her grammar and sentence structure kicked ass!... To me, that's just telling me that waiting/searching far and wide for perfection isn't insane afterall... "YOUTH!!!"

For my reference, everyone that came was Ryuji, Mai, Hideki, Koji, Ryu, Yuji, Tadashi, Taro, Chihiro, one other dude I never got the name of, and the parents... They rocked every drink I made and then some, but I kinda wished I coulda spent another day to really "party", but hell, we can only hope to do everything with limited time right? (no, I eat time for breakfast and do it to it to the fullest... "YOUTH!!!")... Congrats to Ryuji n Mai on the wedding!!! I'll make good on Tokyo and make up for missing the ceremony!!! WORD!!!

As for me, I'm feeling dandy... Some bitch took a shit in front of my bar yesterday and it made me laugh my ass off... This is also an example that shit happens whenever it wants (literally), so you gotta seize every second of the day like it was your last...

For a small forecast, Chris is staying over the beginning of this week and I'm meeting up with Fredie on hump-day (ok, tuesday really), then Rudy is making me take the 19th off, so that's already a given as to what's gunna happen... My question is, where there ever be time to fix Ayumi? PLEASE PEOPLE!!! I know I embrace "YOUTH!!!", but don't provoke its focus away to other things...

I want my girlfriend back...

-wolf

"I feel sorry for you."
"Hmm?"
"You're just way too fucking out there."

Well the ball joints are no more, but now the driveshaft is giving me a pain in the ass... The driver side looks to be easy as pie, but the passenger is working me over... shit... At least (I feel it in mah gut) the problem is easier to fix than it is to take apart and get there... anyways... Here is a short list of what is to be replaced to far...

- Lower Ball Joint
- Clutch (Full + Release Bearing)
- Clutch Slave Cylinder

And here is a list of parts that I'll most likely change since everything is already torn apart...

- Cross Drilled Rotors
- Lightweight Underdrive Pulley
- Relocate the Fuel Filter (I HATE THIS BITCH!!!)

I already told myself that I'd stop racing after I make this last repair, but it gets scarier the closer I get to being done... I don't think I learned my lesson if I'm seeing a "green" light when I think about upgrades, while still in the middle of repairs... "Shit, can't help it I guess"...

All I know is that I wanna use my "new" tires and at least enjoy my 07' "registration of triumph"... I'm totally getting a TL and taking my time on Ayumi if one more "boom" occurs before 07' ends though... word...

-wolf