"If it's a misinterpretation, then I need another chance to find its meaning..."

If I went selfish and forgot about something, and all this time it's been crying silently... then I been making the wrong choices...

In my case, once you gain knowledge of something wrong, you gain two things... one, a chance to mend it... and two, something extra to tear you apart from inside...

"(???), 1998"

-wolf

"QUOC! Why the hell did you do that... all of us wanted cake..."
"You can still get a piece... get it from the door, the floor, Tommy's face, my back..."

Happi Budday 2 me n Tommy!... Well what else can I say... It wasn't as big as last years, but this years BBQ was hella koo... Check out the 4 fotoz and you'll see the cake in action...

Likewise, Tommy knocked out before me this year, and I was left pretty deng healthy I say... I unno, I don't think I can KO myself anymore?... Like I said a month ago or so, I think my brain finally became self aware and sets off some sorta safety spasm or some shiet to keep my body active and ward off a blackout... I wuz hella tired, but I kept moving around regardless of coordination disadvantages... yipee?...

Anyways, it's weird how a circle of friends keeps changing through out each year... Some come and go, and some are here to stay... I still think I'm a lil too young to realize any truth to these changes, but I wonder how many of us will be left in the next comming years or so?... Well, I'll try one last time and see who's what...

-wolf

"You're not drunk?"
"Funny, you're not drunk?"

Well, let's see how long this "proper-grown-up" thang is gunna work... "Some exceptions on the writing style though, somethings just can't be expressed properly yah know?"...

Well, in a turn of events, my 21st birthday didn't quite meet the criteria of some people, but yah know, I am me right?... Don't worry though, I didn't do anything the first day, but please try to let me retain some dignity and pride... An alcoholic must remain calm and head strong on such an eventful day as this... "Because hell doesn't even know what's gunna happen after this day"...

I must give thanks to all those that called and were apalled with question marks above their heads, and do dearly give blessings for those that remembered... I must say that there were quite a few people in which I didn't expect calls from, but uh, only as an expection for today will I feel luv'd by the attention... isn't that swell?... "all dat luvvy duvvy thangs aint jive'n in mah system yah kno"...

Thanks to all who wished me a happy 21st, I think this was the best birthday I've had so far... "Or one that I can actually remember", but yah know, it's a little sad (but what can you do) that someone didn't call whom I expected... "Weird, I'm here when there is none but gone when there is one"

So, anyone up for a drinking contest?... I'm up for one anytime now...

-wolf

"5ish... you must be drunk..."
"not drunk... buzzed enuff to act da foe..."

2morro... ill awake and figure out wut ive done n left... which iz hella stoopid, cuz if i can do all dis right now... den am i really buzzed? or jez plain fuckin stoopid? mebber im a lil smarted wen a lil intoxicated? "YEAH!!!, i can still play da piano"

-wolf

"You look dumber than you really are."
"wut da fuck... wut kynda fuckin compliment iz dat..."

ick, wut a fuckin weekend... da crazy man contest nevva happened, but it dint stop me from doing all da good likes... check out da new fotoz i posted... not too many, but none da less self explanatory...

actually, it wuznt too bad uv a weekend... saturday didn't go out az planned, but it worked out in a twisted way... i unno Y da fuck i had to do dis, but popz had me drop by da new pad and start fiddlin wiff da lightz n shiet... at first i didn't tynk anything about it, but when i got der, i asked mahself "wait, da fuck am i doing here? i could do dis any other time... jackass"... BUT it worked out, i saw da neighborz dat live a cupple doorz down... i aint too happy, but itz something more to look at den da current pad im at... dood, she looked like a dark skinned korean "EWW", and she wuz all thug, smokin a cigarette wiff a cell fone in da otha hand... korean, but none da less something to look at... HA HA!...

saturday ended wiff a buncha us gawkin at shyboyz eclipse n piecin hiz bodykit 2getha, but other den dat, dat wuz it for saturday... stoopidly i drove all da way back home, jez to come back to daygo on sunday fer joonyahz berffday... cut thingz short, we ended up at hiz pad in la jolla and jez drank ourselvez silly... "no i take dat back... otherz drank, while i went to war on mahself and tried to KO mahself... dint work out tho"... mah drinkin habitz R hella weird deez dayz... i should KO at timez, but lately mah own brain iz keepin mahself awake by keepin mah body active... self awareness?... i unno, but it getz hella dangerous for dat too... "guilty, i did a backflip while HELLA drunk yesterday... and all everyone did wuz provoke it... ick"... either dat, or i wuz consistent wiff wut i drank?

well, surely enuff i wuznt drunk enuff to not drive, so i drove mah ass down da street to get gas, when i realized i fergot mah cell fone at hiz pad... although sober enuff to drive, i wuznt sober enuff to remember how to go back down da street, so i ended up driving all da way down to skunkz pad to take a nap n sober up... aint dat sum shiet...

well cheerz 2 joonyah... yer one year closer to death, but it lookz like yer patience n hard werk iz werkin out fer yah... "hiz gurl drivez a friggin G35... good gawd, dat friggin sweet v6 engine wuz makin mah n fatboy gigglie like lil gurlz"... CHEERZ!, yu mah frenn, R now set to cruise mang...

-wolf

"Aye, remember that game tecmo wrestling?"
"yeah, i fuggin alwayz picked star man..."

itz been a fuggin while since everyones been active... da last i recall, da only time we really got out and did sumpin wuz back wen i wuz still livin in daygo... actually, it prolly all fell apart wen most uv da fam started breakin away from each other... funni aint it?...

NEwayz, i gez no onez gunna propose to do anything too active anymore, so, itll B me to start sumpin up, AND i propose da famed crazy man contest... uh, well not much uv da group iz fit to do so, but itll be sumpin fun and active to do... instead uv sittin around n lookin at each otherz faces n shiet... ick...

i unno Y, but i started doin all da acrobatix again... "i let mahself go wen i started werkin, so itz taken a toll on mahself fer sittin on mah ass 8hrs a day + da 4hrs sleep added"... so, wish i dont break mah neck? mah specialties now include a corkscrew n razor kickn off objextz... now letz see if i can accomplish a no handed cartwheel off da balboa park fountain?

-wolf

"Alrighty, will that be all for you today?"
"uhm... actually... aye johnny, yu wanna banana split?"

YAY!... itz a new month, and letz see how dis month rides out... it'll seem a lil offbeat since imma have a fresh new start at so much shiet... but none da less, sacrifice is da only way to really get anything done...

i would say more... but lately, i've been gettin writers blox... i tynk mah friggin mind iz jez shrouded temporarily for da time being, until thingz get settled dat iz... but yeah, motivation iz at an all time low for some reazun... mang, i thought i'd be better off moving... but TK sux... da hype only lasted dat first year i wuz here, and now dis shietz fuckin gay... "lotta talk, but nobody struttin"... ick, good place to retire, but Y da fuck am i here... really?...

buncha dumb fuckz... yahll dun brainwashed one uv mah own peeplz too... made her tynkin dat she "rich"... "nygga, quit talkin like yu from around hea and remember dat yu "hood-rich", cuz we grew up in da same crowd... itz about 2 be shameful on yo ass mang"...

in otha news... i used mah "fuck i got fired" emergency savings to get new rimz... well... dat shiet dun went out widd a big ass bang mang...

-wolf