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~Key Events in 2007... 01.07.08... 8.56am~
January 2007... 2 logs... Damn, I don't log about junk anymore... Compared to the logs done back in the day, my shit is more meaningful these days, but at the same time it shows that I'm succumbing to "drama" and all that shit... It's gunna be hard, but I'm gunna TRY and get my (super)carefree life back... Try I said... (I tried in 07' it seems, but I didn't follow it through I guess)February 2007... 4 logs... Although I tried to keep optimistic about a lot of my "changes", a lot of shit was still buggin around my head and shit just kept turning my answers into questions and all that jazz... You can kind of see the chaos begin here in February as I jump from jolly logging to dreaded death... You can SAY one thing, but there's always something else that can alter it... I hail...March 2007... 3 logs... At this point, although you can't tell by the logs, things just started piling on heavier as the lens in my third eye was prying itself open... (Simply put it as stress due to fear of truth)... I didn't know at the time, but I didn't come to terms with a lot of things and just kept throwwing them aside... The outcome wasn't sweet at all...April 2007... 1 log... As a self determined decision, I ended up going to seattle this month... I was way ahead of schedule of my real ETA, but the pressure load kinda hit me and I took an "early" random trip up to get some much needed family time... Temporarily it helped, but it was like adding nitrous to a raging flame... I don't mention much of it, but being around kids kinda helps me "atone" for some of my sins and keeps my sanity in check... Why? because kids are dumb and innocent, so shit like that won't last long... Who knows, they might be the next me?... I am now an uncle, so I know for sure that one kid is gunna have eyes on me later in life...May 2007... 7 logs... I covered up a lot of negativity by screaming out "Youth!", but even having so much positive attitude will have a great downfall, which backs up my "Order by Chaos" belief... It was proven at the end of this month... A lot of people died I can tell you that, but shit just gets worse when you think it'll be getting better...June 2007... 1 log... I didn't have much to publicize, so I kept it away from the public eye... It selfish to say, but a lot of bad things happen when I tend to be happy about things... It's not something I "think", it's something I've seen upfront for a fact... People think it's a crazy theory, but try being the person who's saying these "crazy" things and you'll see that it's all truth in the mind... I just didn't care anymore and just needed to stay away to get my third eye back in line...July 2007... 6 logs... You can kind of see that I said "fuck it" to a lot of things and went off and did a buncha random stuff this time around... I took the month of June to think about a lot of things, so "Tomorrow is not promised today" started ringing in my head when July rolled to... I knew of the saying, but I just never took it as seriously until I gave myself a reality check... "If it so happens, you're gunne be your own maker. Live it like you mean it, because I can't guarantee your safety from yourself"... So off I went...August 2007... 3 logs... My main focus was making good on what I said the previous month and what I aimed to do since the beginning of the year... To get my carefree life back on track... It's a long process, but I'll get there...September 2007... 5 logs... Here I'm still doing the randomness, all the while randomness was still doing the world... I'm thinking that I ending up not caring so much about things as of late is because I'd rather not grow attached to petty things... As we all know, everything is a burden... "No more chances if shit happens"October 2007... 1 log... As the log says, "read archive file", which isn't found on my site *tsk tsk*... I've learned to shut my mouth on my thoughts and actions during october... It's just the way it is...November 2007... 2 logz... I started shutting myself to other peoples thoughts and started thinking of me this month, which is why I started posting "fun facts" instead of quotes of the day (or some shit like that)... I give a slight insight back to october, but I really didn't give a shit about a lot of things still... It looks dramatic, but I didn't think much of anything when it happened...December 2007... 3 logs... Yeah we're into "2008", but this is Dec. 07 and it wasn't too long ago (but everything doesn't seem long ago when you think about it)... So as the logs look and how I've been feeling as of late, I still don't give a shit about a lot of things and I'm just going along my own way... OSU BITCH!!! |