The funny thing from last year and this year, is that I said the same exact shiet back in 04'. Blah blah blah, shiet about self development and the "good" of the recaps... I feel like deja vu is gunna repeat itself over again this year... I hope its fuckin good deja vu...

- recaps deja vu... (1.07.05)
- soopahmayn gets a GSR... (1.12.05)
- TL leaves to fight bin laden... (1.12.05)
- digi-cam money saver... (1.13.05)
- da infamous "song for xx" remix... (1.23.05)
- rebirth of a dj... (1.23.05)
- abby budday n da TRG beef... (1.23.05)
- juju 1st night on market... (1.23.05)
- ayumi breaks da soopahGSR... (1.31.05)
- new weblayout scripted... (1.31.05)

I started working on the new scripts for the website around this time... Fuckin itz full of nuttin but "bug reports" n shiet, but none da less, this is about da same time of when I started hating people and drawing lines n shiet... I really do hate people though...

- hercules sqeezin gutz... (2.09.05)
- M ep in da hizzouss... (2.09.05)
- five hundred dollar insurance... (2.09.05)
- da motoria exhaust... (2.13.05)
- fuck emo... (2.13.05)
- da secret murrieta pond... (2.13.05)
- "another fine year disll be"... (2.13.05)
- evolution is a great thing... (2.19.05)
- simply say lone wolf... (2.19.05)
- skunk n da geetar... (2.20.05)
- munched lil middle... (2.20.05)
- disheartening time rift... (2.28.05)

DJn started to make its way back into da mainstream and shiet, so I ended up getting back some equipment and FUCKIN BURNING so much fuckin cash on upgrading to new shiet... I swear I fuckin left it behing when I moved here, but shiet, it seems like its fading this year a bit since im in break-mode...

- 20th century DJz... (3.06.05)
- thumbz weed puke (3.06.05)
- lack of brain power... (3.06.05)
- fuck jury duty... (3.11.05)
- vegetable mode... (3.11.05)
- ayu #1 motivation... (3.11.05)
- buh-bye M5Gz... (3.22.05)
- max metabolism... (3.22.05)
- why I quit DJn... (3.24.05)
- goin 4 a laptop... (3.24.05)
- rim + pothole = sad face... (3.29.05)
- no jury duty... (3.31.05)
- da arizona pad... (3.31.05)
- lue reproozent... (3.31.05)

Fuck this month... This is about da time when I went into thoughts of a financial struggle (which I was, but didnt notice) and fuckin mah character was rebounding on who to be... Crazy is one word to keep in mind...

- foretelling of a lone wolf... (4.18.05)
- new pad on da brain... (4.18.05)
- DJ set-up complete... (4.18.05)
- "jez grit yer teeth n bite yer lip"... (4.18.05)
- something big in august?... (4.22.05)
- excited for next month... (4.25.05)
- fuck money... (4.25.05)

DJn fuckin raped mah ass dis month... The fuckin events just lined up and fuckin took us on a magical journey... Killed every fuckin weekend and every free time I had, but I seemed to have fuckin liked da rush dis time...

- no-sho to bouasonez pre-weddin... (5.02.05)
- forget about da money... (5.04.05)
- neelang weddin... bouasone weddin..."more friends"... E3... (5.23.05)

Im drawin question markz on dis month... itz a lil outta da norm if yu ask me...

- Im good... (6.02.05)
- king of dance... (6.05.05)
- change for seattle (6.15.05)

I fuckin fell into a sunken state after I had mah brush widd Seattle... Actually, I fell into a big slump and started questioning everything around me, since I finally felt "free" of da heavy burdens I lugged around... It was a harsh experience, this month it was...

- chilled out seattle life... (7.01.05)
- betsy n wolf = same person... (7.01.05)
- dog no leash... (7.01.05)
- a clouded reasoning... (7.12.05)
- what everythingz worth... (7.12.05)
- a place to conform to... (7.22.05)

The wierdest part of the year ended up being near my 21st birthday... I started to fall out of the slump slowly, but was later hit with a devestating lesson that I wouldnt learn until near the end of the year... August was when I became self aware and when everything started to fall apart also...

- writerz blox... (8.01.05)
- white washed mah woman... (8.01.05)
- e-money on 5zigenz... (8.01.05)
- embark on da crazy man contest... (8.05.05)
- da korean near da 2nd pad... (8.09.05)
- shyboy n da bodykit... (8.09.05)
- joonyah berffday at la jolla... (8.09.05)
- newly developed brain skill... (8.09.05)
- drunken backflip... (8.09.05)
- sober to drive drunken n fergotten... (8.09.05)
- joon n jeek... (8.09.05)
- just drunk... (8.13.05)
- nuffin 4 budday... (8.20.05)
- cake all ovva da place... (8.22.05)
- da truth from hamasaki... (8.30.05)

It all started from last month, but September added more thangs to the brain that didnt need be... Good times n da bad, but it workz out in a twisted way...

- grampz diagnosis... (9.11.05)
- "one less person, one less burden"... (9.23.05)
- alyssa baby shower... (9.26.05)
- i see khan... (9.26.05)
- da oxnard family... (9.26.05)
- kidz luv monsters... (9.26.05)

It took a lot outta me dis month, but even if I lost a few, I gained a few... I dunno what to believe, but it was just all coincidential and a lil freakish at the time... "Ghost arent meant to linger around forever", and ironically it play'd out well in all events for this month... "to joe, grampz, n boogyz gramm"...

- darren budday... (10.03.05)
- herez mae... (10.03.05)
- a curse of mine passed along... (10.21.05)
- amano events... (10.21.05)
- tossing cellphone... (10.21.05)
- enigma i am... (10.21.05)
- juju n michelle... (10.25.05)
- kooguy goin away kickback... (10.25.05)
- sai budday 2 downtown... (10.25.05)
- fong budday... (10.25.05)

Right after all the drama and shiet happened, I expected that a certain "someone" would show face and comfort my mind... but to my surprise, she didnt... Although its only hinted from previous months and small remarks, a person close to me just went MIA and shut me out a while back... But slowly, my mind started to straighten out when I thought of every possible truth to every little thing she told me... "Impossible is never impossible"...

- drunk but not senseless... (11.10.05)
- baking cakes at joonyahz... (11.10.05)
- boogah cake made but not delivered... (11.10.05)
- kongz cozmo essay... (11.10.05)
- black cat + black dog = no fightz... (11.10.05)
- ghost vs ghost... (11.17.05)
- MIA n work w/no drinking... (11.17.05)
- bastard -> loner = strugglez... (11.17.05)

December was the month that ended my slump and lessons... It started off a lil rough, but I then later interpreted what she said... "She'll become a ghost, and Ill see the truth"... Imma pessimistic person, so everything I thought she said was twisted, and my reality was like "fuck this shit"... But in the end, some people I wouldnt expect, twisted a different light on it... Lovem fer dat...

- a ghost implies this... (12.13.05)
- nothingz important... (12.13.05)
- just one year... (12.13.05)
- rules of tipping... (12.16.05)
- money aint got worth... (12.16.05)
- i say "itz all worth it"... (12.16.05)
- namez = ghost... (12.16.05)
- debt free... (12.21.05)
- excess money = good feeling... (12.21.05)
- korean n chinese button pusherz... (12.21.05)
- chineze magic... (12.24.05)
- da ultimate barback... (12.26.05)
- asianz at da bar... (12.26.05)
- da OSAN... (12.26.05)
- keypointz = less crazy... (12.28.05)
- skunk, da top rank #2... (12.28.05)
- senseless but not heartless... (12.28.05)
- rae says "laggerz"... (12.28.05)
- depression -> alkyhol as a repression... (12.28.05)

-wolf