Bi-Polar

Here is a wonderful poem that I have written and dedicated to all children and people out there that is diagnose / suffer with bi-polar, manic depressive. -- I hope you find meaning in it too. Some of you may find yourself laughing and some may cry, feel free and it�s OK!

�Mania is sickness of one�s friend, depression for one�s self. Both are chemical. In depression, one wakes, is happy for about two minutes, probably less, and fades into dread of the day. Nothing will happen, but you know twelve hours will pass before you are back in bed and sheltering your consciousness in dreams, or nothing. It isn�t danger; it�s not an accomplishment. I don�t think it a visitation of the angels but a weakening in the blood.�

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		Poem Dedicated for People with Bi-Polar
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	Here is a wonderful poem that I have written and dedicated to all children and people out there that is diagnose / suffer with bi-polar, manic depressive. -- I hope you find meaning in it too. Some of you may find yourself laughing and some may cry, feel free and it�s OK! �Mania is sickness of one�s friend, depression for one�s self. Both are chemical. In depression, one wakes, is happy for about two minutes, probably less, and fades into dread of the day. Nothing will happen, but you know twelve hours will pass before you are back in bed and sheltering your consciousness in dreams, or nothing. It isn�t danger; it�s not an accomplishment. I don�t think it a visitation of the angels but a weakening in the blood.� --Robert Lowell For People with Bi-Polar For people who have bi-polar it is very hard to mend...... Our pain was rarely spoken and we hid the pain from friends. People said they understood us, but they didn't act that way. They broke our hearts and stole our worth, with the things that they would say. They reject us, have unrealistically high or low expectations on us. They are angry towards us, and they try to deny our illness and say it�s not an excuse. We wanted them to love us. We didn't know how we could let them understand what we have to go thru and wish we weren't bi-polar. We go thru Manic Phases We cannot go to sleep. We stay up for days sometimes even weeks. We tend to think a lot. We have lots of energy -- jumping around, doing outrages things. We could be very creative. We talk a lot and write a lot Many times we are very aggressive. We spend a lot of money on things, not because we are rich we just are that way, it�s terrific fun at the time. With Credit Cards and bank accounts there is little beyond reach. We spend our money like there is no tomorrow. Money flows, objects accumulate. We are not crazy or psycho. We have no choice and its NOT our fault that we are the way we are. We go thru Depress Phases we sometimes prayed for them to end, and when the pain kept coming, we learned to just pretend that we were good and this was just one of those days ... tomorrow we'd be manic again. Some of us may try to end our precious little life. We Struggle, and many live. At our worst depress phase, most of us wanted to end our lives. We spent most of our time struggling with our pain in our head. We try to claim ourselves down. Our head felt like it is going to explode. Many of us is not capable of giving up our lives at this stage. We fight the seems to be endless battle, and some of us are too scare to fight the battle alone, instead we choose to take the battle to the next level, that is, when we tends to feel a little better, we will end it right there. Ending our life is not a way to deal with our problems. It�s hard for us to believe it so. We had nowhere else to go. Suicide seems the only way out. To escape the pain and suffering. Some seek to drugs and alcohol Some seek to self abuse or Putting anger on others. During Depress Phases We bang our head over and over against the wall. We believe our life is ruin. Suicidal feelings are difficult for us to express because they are often embarrassed by such impulses and lack the appropriate language to articulate such feelings. We feel isolated, despair violence, hopelessness. We tried to live with the illness we hated ourselves instead, and couldn't see a way out, and wished that we were dead. We scared ourselves by thinking that, and scared ourselves to know. To be seen identify or seen by others as a problem child, party kid or the trouble maker and trapped inside their pain.... To every day lose everything with no savior or refrain... To wonder how it is possible that God could so forget the worthy child you knew you were, when you had not been damaged yet ... To figure on minutes and hour hand of the clock on the wall counting on every single seconds hoping that the depressive phase will soon be over. Enough to leave the torment and survive in our society, were more than you could count to, or more than you could bear, was the reality we lived in and we knew it wasn't fair. We who grew up with the disorder, are somewhat out of time, struggling to mend our mental disability, when our peers are in their prime. Where others find love and contentment, we still often have to strive to remember we are worthy, and heroes just to be alive. Some of us are healing. some are hurting. Most are passing the anger on. Some give their lives away to drugs, or the promise of like beyond. Some still hide from society. Some struggle to belong. But all of us are wishing the past and pain would not hold on so long. Each time we reach the manic phase, our psychomotor activity increase, along with the mania package, comes with the increasing pressure, rate of speech. heightened irritability, our outraging aggressive behavior. There's a lot of digging down to do to find the person within, to love away the ugly pain and feel innocence again. There is forgiveness worthy of angel's wings for remembering those at all, who ignore our abused and sacred life barring with the disorder and programmed us to fall. To seek to understand them, and how their pain became our own, is to risk the ground we stand on to climb the mountain home. The journey is not so lonely as in the past it s been ... More of us are strong enough to let the growth begin. But while we're trekking up the mountain we need everything we've got, to face the society we have become, and all that we are not. So when you see us weary from the day's internal climb ... When we find fault with your best efforts, or treat imperfection as purposeful crime ... When you see our quick defenses, our efforts to control, our readiness to form a plan of unrealistic goals ... When we run into a conflict and fight to the bitter end, remember ... We think that winning means we won't be hurt again. When we abandon OUR thoughts and feelings, to be what we believe YOU want us to, or look at trouble we are having, and want to blame it all on you... When life calls for new beginnings, and we fear they re doomed to end, remember... Wounded trust is like a wounded knee-- It is very hard to bend. Please remember this when we are out of sorts. Listen to us, and give us a HUG Tell us the truth, and be our friends. For people and children who have bi-polar... it is very hard to mend. Peace, Love, Unity, Respect. Copyright � 1999-2008. All rights reserved to Modnam Notio Inc. 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