tell me again about the last sunrise

for Alison Romney



"Slow dulcimer, gavotte and bow, in autumn,
Bash� and his friends go out to view the moon;
In summer, gasoline rainbow in the gutter,
The secret courtesy that courses like ichor
Through the old form of the rude, full-scale joke,
Impossible to tell in writing."
   -Robert Pinsky




the poets � the world loves to know a poet � did
speak of tragedies that have, and would yet, befall
leaders of the darkened souls that in darkness await,

and in every heart strike fear of the promise of daylight
casting shadows o�er the diatribes and delections spoken
between conspirators on a bridge in the dead of night,

arms crossed to break the cold, an imperceptible drop
in temperature threatening to overcome the worn bodies of
the strangers gathered to discuss the fate of the

poets � those madmen, those clans of unholy martyrs,
those ill-motivated pillagers of wrath of reason,
those pilgrims on their world-weary pilgrimage � and

yet it gains momentum still � those who profit from the depravity
of a people and a mindset and a set of circumstances beyond their
control � they are the true angels, the angels whose hearts of

ice and eyes of fire will be the last to falter. falter, but not
of weakness, of necessity�faltering only proves the belaboured
point they seek to crusade beneath the shadow of

(because every great philosopher knows you can�t end
a sentence with a preposition) there�s no panacea for what
the legions of priests and whores and book-burners have wrought

upon a doe-eyed people unable, or perhaps unwilling, to meet
the darkness halfway, unable (or perhaps unwilling) to face
the fears not of what awaits but what they themselves have

become. I don�t need to be forgiven for being a traitor to the fallacies
that strike the painful blows, that give a soul up for dead,
that bestow upon the poets these tortured halos

alight with circumstance, that shield the depraved souls
from the coming night. prophetic as that may
sound, I assure you it is not my intent to

preach pragmatism in spiritual matters, nor use metaphors
out of my league to belabour a point � I leave that to the
bent and broken bluesmen. Bluesmen�armed with

shaking heads and tapping feet, they speak of things I
have not seen, not in this world and not in any other,
but which I do not doubt they have seen � it is

tangible praise I dare not tamper with � I purport
to speak only for the belaboured points they
strive to drive home. Driving home, home � a

tangible and largely arbitrary location, could be a
destination, or a metaphorical conclusion,
where lamb-hearted demons speak with tongues ablaze,

say this trouble isn�t worth the foundations it�s
built upon and there�s little left to remember �
where an empty night in an empty palace finds you

listening to a radio station
blaring peals of bejeweled sonnets
to the empty streets, in the Capital,

in the dead of night, where only the streetlamps
gather on the bridges over the River Moribund
to conspire, in the mist and fog,

never to allow the sun to shine
over these dark streets, damp with charcoal sweat
in the heat of the dizzying fray

that greets the strangers, the passersby
the saviours, the Sultans, the enigmatic smiles
that haunt the core of the soulless statues

an elusive radiance, a sometime-lover of the
pragmatic rightmindedness that greets
the first light, breaking over the Tower

on its way towards the southside tenements
where children wake in mothers� arms
to a heartless rendition of a national Anthem,

or an anthemic song of heartless nationalism,
that through the Eightfold path can attain the same
deliverance from desire as you or I, only

we are well aware of the difference between
Desire as a measure of Pyrrhic victory and
Desire as an inclination of the rightminded,

though you�d never know it. I mean, of course,
not to make light of our own inadequacies �
you know I do that so well � but in the bleeding

war-wounds of the darkness, before first light, we
wake to a stillness not seen since Lameches� ages,
where only the frenzied whispers of the

streetlamps, huddled together on the walkways
between the Towers, and in the alleys behind
the butchershop, and the ministry, and the whorehouses

that swell with pride when mentioned, even if only
in such hostile company as this, where the
metronome records the pulse of our conversation,

records the inevitable ebb and flow of the tides that lap at
the feet of the rivers that gently ease closer to midnight,
company they find in the naked bones of the moon,

falling in waves on a Belizean caye in the spring-softened
air. the Universe is the eponymous brunt of an enigmatic Joke �
which I only capitalize in order to compound the enigma �

which inhales greatly, and at length in a slow and loud
rush of air, exhales, a satisfying breath taken of the spring-softened
Belizean air � nothing like it in the world, as the poets can,

and have, told you � the poets, the peons, the streetlamps
gathered together, arms crossed to break the cold, like
conspirators over the river (I�m of afraid of the river that

runs so deep) and in hushed, excited whispers tell of ages in
which such a night might be given a name, for their
children to remember, but in name only; perhaps Tr�umenacht,

or Verschw�rung, or the Night Of Evil Dreams � you
were once a member of this time, you were there, and you
will always remember the moment you realized there

was no going back, akin to the morning you heard Kennedy
had been shot, or that Dunkirk had been taken, no less
a victory and no less a tragedy. The alleys and the

ministries and the banks and the whorehouses lie cloaked
in secrecy; something everybody knows, but nobody
will say, for fear of reprisal from some as-yet unknown

overseer. omnipotence comes on the heels of Rimbaud,
and Morehouse, if you�ll care to revisit that night
through the eyes of the immortal streetlamps,

conspiring against the coming light, walking in dark
longcoats of midnight, lying to hide their enigmatic
smiles, praying only to the saviours, the Sultans,

the prismatic cascade of light rebounding off the
charcoal-sweat soaked gutters lining the back alleys,
standing in rigid formation, in impeccable salute,

to the fog and the mist that ambles murkily across the cobblestones,
pausing imperceptibly briefly to greet each one in turn,
in unsmiling terms a meeting of minds in the cold of the night,

where lamb-minded demons hold these vagueries high in esteem,
their soulless, statuesque rhymes to remain forever
lost to the darkness from whence they came.
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