I hate when people look at me and think (or even worse, come up to me directly and tell me) that I am lacking in my life because I am not christian. FUCK YOU. I will remain civil throughout the rest of this, I just had to get that one outburst over with. The more time that has passed since I renounced my faith as a Catholic Christian, the more and more certain I am that I am better off where I am now. Though the temptation is great to harbor a sense of spite toward my former faith and the followers i left behind, I do try to leave them in peace, it is really only the one's who tell me that I "need to find god" that piss me off to no end. What I have found as "god" isn't so entirely far off from the common view, rather its a combinations of astronomy and theology.
GOD: My opinion is that god, rather than some holy father figure, is an essence. The universe as we know it is basically matter, energy and space. I don't say a god created it, i say that it is god. The stars, planets, life, anything and everything else - all part of god. I do not think that this god thinks or has any divine plan for us or anything out there, it just exists and because of that so do we.
SOUL / SPIRIT: Life is just one of many billions of completely unique things in the universe. For whatever explaining there might be, theres a connection we have between life and death. It can simply be called the soul or spirit.
HEAVEN / HELL / AFTERLIFE: I do not believe in a Heaven or Hell, I do not believe in any retribution or reward for deeds done during life in the afterlife. Whatever part of us that remains after we die just goes back to whatever we were before we were conceived. This could be considered Heaven, but if i called it Heaven then i'd be implying there is a Hell because you cannot have one without the other. It is simply, Death. I don't think Death is an empty nothingness, but it is most certainly nothing like Life.
For whatever reason, we are here together and fully aware of each other. Too aware perhaps. This is this, that is that, you are something, I am something else. I'm not a fan of organized religion. I'd rather that we could all just be theologists and then go from there...
For those of you who have been paying attention the whole way through:
I don't need to go to church to find god, all i have to do is look in the mirror. but thats goddamn vain isn't it?
I believe its better to laugh than to take everything so seriously. Thinking and talking about beliefs is good, but the second we find that we are offended, is the second that we have taken our beliefs too far. I am just as guilty as everybody else.