THOUGHTS FROM THE SOUL
(the darker side)
This mind of mine just won't give in
Have I committed a mortal Sin
Why should I be tormented so
Tell me please for I don't know
Is this what life has in store for me
Must I just sit here and let it be
I take my pills I'm good that way
But still I dread each coming day
I wake every morning a full day ahead
Yet I just want to stay in bed
For my mind is buzzing I'm in a daze
I feel like I'm walking through a maze
With no beginning no sign of an end
I know I'm going round the bend
I try to fight it I try and try
But all I ever do is cry
My feelings have left me I'm numb inside
I wish that I could run and hide
This body of mine is no longer my own
It's just a shell of flesh and bone.
JUST SURVIVING
My mind is going I don't know why
All I want to do is cry
I'm so unhappy it's hard to tell
My life is just an empty shell
Why do I have to suffer so
To live this way I do not know
I just can't open up at all
I feel divided by a solid wall
I'm so dejected so lost and alone
The life that I'm living is not my own
I feel I want to scream and shout
Open the door and let me out
I love you all my love is true
So tell me why I feel so blue
A happy life I've seldom had
Can this be why I feel so bad
So help me somebody help me please
And let me live a life of ease
I want to be happy to laugh and sing
And not to be treated like a thing
I'm just a machine to turn off and on
All hopes of being a person are gone
So help me can't you please be kind
And help me cure my tortured mind.
GETTING BETTER
My mind is full of troubles
And pain I have endured
But one thing I can say for sure
One day I will be cured
It will take some time I know
To cure me of all ill's
Then I'll climb the ladder of success
And throw away my pills
I have to teach my mind to say
Let all my problems fade away
And then I'll know that I'll be free
To be just who I want to be
So help me climb up to the top
And stand behind so I won't drop
And when I'm sure that it has passed
Then I can say I'm cured at last.
LET ME LIVE
I would like to climb
Upon the highest steeple
And shout out to the world below
To hell with other people
This is my life look at me
I'm standing here for all to see
I don't want any worries
I don't want any pain
The only thing I'm asking for
Let me live my life again
So keep all your troubles
And keep all your strife
And let me get on with my own life.