Posted by J [J] on April 08, 1999 at 12:32:24 {vxsc0.TBNkehU3MO1aSEeFQE7AtTPE}:
You Know:
I would like you to consider the following.
You have exhibited a pattern of eagerly awaiting the Day of Jehovah. Correct?
This had led you to examine daily events looking for signs of its impending arrival. Correct?
You are an eager student of anything from the Society or the Bible. Correct?
These are all good things, and I would never attempt to dissuade you from any of the above.
Where I have concern is that you seem to be pushing ahead of Jehovah's arrangements. You do not seem satisfied to wait on Jehovah. Should not your regular prayers and strong faith be enough to convince you that He will act when He judges it the appointed time. Constantly trying to predict the end can be evidence of a lack of faith. Your constantly guessing about what each event may mean gives the appearance that you are trying to push the Lord Jesus into action before His father gives him the go ahead. In fact, continual disappointment in failed expectations "can make the heart sick." This can weaken your faith even more.
Now you have taken on the responsibility of judging and denouncing individuals that you personally feel are apostates. You impute such bad motives and basically claim that all H20 participants (except your supporters) have wicked hearts and deserve death. This expectation of the killing of other humans is also extremely disturbing. Jehovah does not desire any to be destroyed, yet you do. You have convinced yourself that you personally are fulfilling Bible prophecies (i.e. - your scorpion comment)
I am left with the feeling that you have more faith in yourself and in your opinions than you do in Jehovah and his arrangements. Does this not place you in the same spiritual condition as those you condemn?
Would you not agree that a congregation would love to be able to use fully a man with your scriptural understanding? Your knowledge and experience would be invaluable on a body of elders, wouldn't it?
Perhaps your elders also see evidence of your self-aggrandizing and lack of faith. This could be one of the reasons you do not have many congregational privileges.
Please give serious thought to this as I really see that your Spiritual wellness is at risk. I do not wish that on anyone. Take it in prayer to Jehovah and wait on him.
J