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| Blogs Of October | ||||||||||||
| Oct. 1, 2004 - I love fall, I really do...I am going to get married in the month of october one day...Today is not a great day for me...Not feeling with it...but I'm goin to tango's tonight..I hope that makes me feel better...but I think I'll just feel more worse because nobody ever comes up to me in the lesbian clubs! I wonder why...Do I give off a straight ora...or like am I ugly? I duno...but it sucks...and I' so damn shy I can hardly go up to anyone myself...I can't...even when I'm drunk... Oh well I'll give you the details tomorrow I soupose.... | ||||||||||||
| Oct. 2, 2004 - Well I haven't slept yet...LoL...but it was so worth it I had a blast! I was so glad I went....We went to tangos...Just me and Joueliz...I was lookin fine!....So I thought and was told by a couple of good lookingn ladies (jo, amy! lol)....so I had a decent size head walkin in der...so anyways I got my eye on dis gurl she seemed shy but she kept following me n e where I went..it was cute...so i talked to her friend and her friend sent her my way and she was really really ugly up close so i cut that short...(so mean)...but n e ways so I saw dis other gurl lookin at me and we actually passed eachother like she was coin out da washroom when i was goin in n she brushed by me (pourposley of course!) and we made eye contact and smiled...then I got some guy i didn't nkow to go ask if she's gay or str8 (coz she was str8 lookin) and i wanted to know if i should stop checkin her or not...so all a sudden she's dancin w me i guess he asked then said i liked her which i didn't like she was a'ite but wateva...i was just checkin...so n e ways it was awkward and she was very nice and everythin very pretty but there was something about her i'm not sure what but it just didn't feel right...and I like to flow with my gut coz it's normally rite...so it was so funny this Brazilian guy says to me oh you and your friend look and move so well together coz we were dancing and I was likeoh thanks and he was like ya i like lesbians that look like women they're so cute! so n e ways he was wth this BEAUTIFUL girl and I just asked him like in his ear coz we were like talkin to just eachother so da other gurl coudl't hear n e ting from da start n e ways and n wuz like is ur friend str8 coz she looks it...and he said no she's not and i was like oh tell her she's really pretty...so he did she replied thru him that i'm cute...and i said to him ya tell her we should dance later...he said ok but she's shy you know and i was like well tell her that she shouldn't be shy because she's very beautiful....no need...and i asked when is her bday so he asked her and she replied and i listened to her instead of waiting for the whole telephone game to continue (KEEP IN MIND ME N DIS OTHAGURL R STILL DANCIN) and she says may 18th or sumtin like dat and I said OH a Taurus! Like my mom...I understand now...then that was the first time we actually talked...and she was thrilled I knew lol...so I felt bad so I paid more attention to the girl I was dancing with and then after a bit she said she was gonna talk to her friends and will be back in a min. so as soon as she left me n dis girl kick it off we started dancing and let me tell u dis girl moves! She's Brazilian and she dances just like shakira oh my! I was like WHOA....so n e ways ya that was all good and I feel really bad coz i really punked off the other two chicks but I didn't want to spend the rest of da nite w sum1 I din't wanna....so I spent it w her we exchanged numbers and had an amazing time she's a really nice girl...and of course I lost her number...and just before we parted she said..please...call me ok...and i was lke of course i will...DAMNIT....what a fool eh...but she has my number so I hope she uses it...So I am in the waiting process right now...If u wanna know more indepth bout dis encounter and what happened just go the the GUESS WHAT pages....which i will update and keep current about all the encounters I have with girls and if I go on dates n stuff....LoL like n e one cares...but meh...if u do u do n datz cool if now watev....k kool | ||||||||||||
| Oct. 3rd, 2004 - So I am still in the waiting process...waiting...waiting..waiting...I duno but I think there is this rule that when you get sombodies number you have to wait 3 days to a week to call them...which sucks and it's a rule that I ALWAYS break coz I call them the next couple of days (if I like them) but I hope she doesn't wait that long to call me...I just want her to call me so at least I have her number and I can apologize...but regardless I am gonna go watch tv and be lazy now...cya | ||||||||||||
| Oct. 4th, 2004 - Hey All...well today I duno I worked 12-8....I had a good day...this morning I woke up to a fone call from my friend from work Amy...she called aorund 1030 or so...I didn't mind coz I was in the midst of wakein up n e ways but it made me feel good that she called me just to chat and I haven't had friends who do that in a long time...since like highschool grade 10 or so...it was cool so that started off my day ok so i went to work and had a smoke w her chilled for a bit coz i came early...and then i worked today went by pretty fast I have tomorrow off I have to clean hardcore tonight...LoL let me tell u what i did...ok so I been awatin dis gurlz call rite coz i lost her number memba...so i check the phone every day when i get home from work and if it's a 416 # i am unfamiliar w I take it down n call it well i did that today lol neither of them were her but I hope she calls me but if not i'm sure i'll bump into her one day...I'm not gonna let it get me down...not today anyways...it feels good to be in a good mood...wow...i missed it...i'm still in the waiting process but it doesn't suck all that much coz i had a good day so ya...well guess dats it imma gon go clean now...c ya! | ||||||||||||
| Oct. 6th, 2004 - Hey sorry I skipped yesterday I know I'm slacking! LoL well I have a good excuse....Yesterday was to be my day off but Amy called me she was sick so I had to work 12-8 for her... and I really didn't want to but it's really hard for me to say no to her...pretty much to any girls...and guys too I hate saying no but it's harder for girls...that I know (Even if I don't like them in that way)...but ya so I did it she made me a deal she will work for me today and sat. so I can have sat off to go sumwhere for thanksgiving...BUT I think I have to work today too she might not be able to take my shift today but it's only 4-8...So anyways...nope she hasn't called yet but I'm not stressin...oh and I have put my Poems Pages together...they're mostly old poems...bec. i tend to have thrown my newer ones out because I am so critical of myself and my work lately....but some of them were good...but meh...I'll find some and write some so ya I'll put em up...I am going to Tango's on Friday night again I am excited it should be fun!....hehe well I hope so anyways....well maybe I'll write another blog tonight and tell u how my day went (since I missed yesterday)...ok well cya! Oh ya wait!!....one more thing I wanted to bring up...Ok I'm 20 now right...and I was just wanted to ask the ones who are around my age....do you find yourself getting up early even on your days where you can do F*ck all??? Coz I'm always up by like 9 it's grose!!! I am getting so old! Even when I goto bed late I get up like between 8-10...ewwww but n e ways ya k thanks c ya! | ||||||||||||
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