When I remember your kisses, I look for a calm and quiet place where I can rest my head �a place where I can think about you and get lost on my own thoughts where the only partner I have is my imagination and the only enemy is the time.
I would love to spend hours like this lying face up looking at the sky. Do you know that inside my head there is a fantastic world where there is no pain and even though there is sometimes darkness I am not afraid? And if I take a deep breath in the darkness of my hidden thoughts I can feel you as if you were close to me?
The truth is that even with my eyes closed and falling asleep I can touch you in my dreams... I can even feel your smell and the heat of your body. I don�t want to wake up from these dreams of mine where you are not unreachable and where there is always a happy ending.
It is an eternal suffering not being able to weak up every morning with your body by my side. Sometimes I think I would never find peace because I don�t have you with me but perhaps if I declaim a poem the pain will disappear for a few minutes.
A poem full of you, that reminds me the magic feeling you make me feel in every touch and kiss. Perhaps if I stay longer under this imaginary tree lying face up and facing the moon and the starts I can close my eyes and fall asleep to kiss you in my dreams and even make love to you.
You can love me if you want and while I am still in he darkness I can see your face and the shinning light of your brown eyes. I can be blind and I can still admire the beauty of your body and the smoothness of your hairy skin.
I fall asleep and I can touch you I can kiss you. Perhaps this is because in a glance my soul got lost inside your body. My soul entered in you to never return. The truth is that all my life I�ve been loving and crying you in silence when I am not close to you.
You are my happiness. In my dreams we can love each other, as we never did before. I don't want to wake up so please let me die dreaming with you.
Karyna Alexandar (aka) Lexajuly
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