I have never considered myself a true atheist. I was contemplating it at one point, but that's when I realized that the reason I wanted to be atheist was because the faith that I couldn't achieve was really annoying. I was afraid that I was going to go to hell because I could not believe in heaven. Once I thought about it a little more, though, I realized there was no use worrying, as that would imply that I had any idea what was going on. I cannot have faith in a god.
But I can't have faith in the lack of a god, either, so it was agnosticism for me. In fact, I think that atheism is the most ridiculous religious standpoint of them all, even though atheists are usually the most intelligent people to talk to.
The reason is that atheists are usually on the right track. They realize that it's stupid to believe in a god, but somehow they think that that means there is no god. The concept itself is really the worst, though. I can understand why some people might believe in a god. They perceive good fortune in their life to indicate the existance of a god. But many atheists I've talked to say that their horrible lives (read: they have homework.) are attributed to a lack of a god there to save them. I'd say that it's all the more evidence that here is a god. He just hates you.
There is no such thing as disproof. There is anti-proof, as in proof against something, but there is no proof for the lack of anything. For instance, you can prove that an egg is on the grass because of the fact that it's white and visible, and if you tried you could pick it up and feel it. You can prove that an egg is not on the grass by pointing to the bare ground and observing no little white roundish objects. This is an example of proof and anti-proof.
Now, you can prove that an egg exists by showing it to someone. Then if you take it away and tell them that it exists, they'll know you're telling the truth. However, if someone comes up to you with no egg and says that an egg doesn't exist, you will have no idea if they're telling the truth. They can't show you the lack of the egg because its intended location is unknown. You can't go see for yourself.
The "grass" or "location" referred to in the previous examples would be similar to the plane that a god would exist on. You cannot see it or anything on it, so you cannot prove or disprove its existance.
This is why atheism is senseless. At least religious people believe what they do for some sort of reason, but agnosticism is the only religious standpoint that makes real sense.
Now, most religious people don't have to see it for themselves. They are perfectly aware that their belief is based on blind faith, and they're fine with that. But I am not capable of that myself. I cannot believe something I know cannot be proved. It would be idiotic of me. Some people need religion to survive. It's a source of hope. Some people think it's nice. Some people don't even know why they're religious, but I don't need it nor do I want it. In fact, my irrelevant yet honest opinion is that I hope that death is the end. I want to cease to exist. No eternity bullshit. If I have to exist forever with even a shred of my chaotic human mind, I would go crazy. In heaven they would either have to give you a labotomy or--you know what, I can't even say that. Talking about heaven like I have any the fuck clue what I'm talking about is stupid. If there is a heaven, it exists on a plane that my feeble human mind would not ever begin to comprehend. This is why I don't even try.
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