| My Depressing Poetry |
| Every poet has a dark side.... |
| Hurt 5-2-01 Hurt, pain, sadness, all these feelings, I live with day by day, I just cannot make them go away |
| Falling 5-2-01 The moment I jumped in, I sank, I contiuned to sink, for there was nothing I could do, to prevent my fall, for I was falling into nothingness. |
| Losing Faith 5-2-01 I once had the answers, but I gave up my prize, for I had lost faith in me, and now I wish I could see the light of things |
| Failing 5-2-01 I hate this old feeling of failing! |
| Pain march 2001 Pain induced... by words |
| Starting Over 5-2-01 I'm closer to where I started. I'm falling slowly, I'm starting over, and its scary. |
| Welcome Back Bloody Past 5-2-01 I changed, I zapped away from the past, so this hurt would not last. But I guess, I let down my guard, for my painful past, is now my sorry present. |
| Complex Unexplainable Pain 5-2-01 The past pushed its way inot the present. It swallowed me whole, it stole everything, I worked so hard to gain. Now I'm left with compkex unexplainable pain. |
| I Lost 5-2-01 I lost. I tried to win, but I only walked half the mile. I lost. |
| All I Know 5-2-01 Ii'm scared, I'm afraid, Fear is all I know. |
| A Turning Point 5-2-01 Its not so bad at all! |
| Its Gone 5-10-01 After so many tears, my fears finally disapeared. |
5-2-01 My life finally took a turn for the better! |
| 5-2-01 I know myself better than you know, for you cannot see, into my soul, you cannot see the beauty I behold. |
| Windows to my Soul 5-2-01 My eyes are windows to my soul, they say more about, whats inside, than words ever could. |
5-2-01 Ii'm gonna make it, I'm holding onto my heart, I cannot break it. |
| You Make Me Ffeel Alive 5-2-01 You smiled, and I cried, for you brought by the part of me, that died.. |
| The Newness is Gone! 5-3-01 My teas gone cold, my new emontions, have grown old. |
| 5-3-01 Never tell yourself, you don't deserve your smile |
| My Past 5-3-01 My past is ugly, my present is pretty, my future is beautiful. |
| 5-3-01 I have a gift, I have the abality to write, and use it as a tool to fight. |
| 5-3-01 I feel as if, I must pay, for my simple existance, and I really hate that feeling... |
| 5-3-01 When I'm not me, I'm not happy, most of all I'm not me... |
| I Blew It 5-3-01 I blew it. and I knew it! |
| Frozen in Time 5-6-01 Salty tears, ugly fears, life is so demanding. Pain's embrace, feeling as if I will always be stuck running in place. Frozen in time, battle with the mind. Standing still... FROZEN IN TIME! |
| This Point in Time 5-8-01 In this point in time, feeling is fabrication, standing still in time. Love is an illusion, happiness is fake. Pain is a defeaning scream, drowned out by everyday life. A smile is frozen, a tear is shed, the world is now dead... |
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| 5-14-01 My heart seems to burn, my smile, I feel as if, I must earn, but I cannot even begin to figure out how... |
| My Room 5-14-01 My room is a private place of solitude, also a place of escape. Music blasting, the fan blowing, thousands of poems, above my head, creating a shower of my thoughts. I imense myself in them laughingly, I savor the feeling of being so free, a feeling I only have, when I escape to my room... |
| 6-1-01 Rise, then fall. Is it really worth it all? 6-1-01 I don't know where I'm going, it feels so hopeless not knowing! Will I make a simple mistake, then get up,go on,and live long? Or will I make a life altering mistake, thatt will lead to permanant heartbreak? 6-1-01 Will I always hurt? Will I always cry? Will the past's lies always squeeze so tight? Will I always lose the fight? Ugly Emotion 6-1-01 Ugly emotions live inside of me. Ugly emotions cause me to lose faith. Ugly emotions cuase me to lose faith! Ugly emotions cuase me to lose my beauty and grace. Ugly emotions bleed through, my pretty face, making it look out of place, ugly emotions keep me running in place.. 6-2-01 My hurt has begun, to hurt more than ever! Iit all started, when my heart's song came to a sudden halt. Then it was stung, stabbed, and burnt, untill it slowed down, and eventually stopped... 6-1-01 If I don't break free, with ease, and grace, I will lose faith, and be forced to start over in the race... Death 6-1-01 Death, the word brings tears to my eyes, its not the fact that we all die, that makes me cry. Its the fact, that I feel as I must die, its the feeling, that I can no longer try, that brings lose hopeless tears pouring from my eyes... The Message 6-1-01 The message is I can't, the message is I won't ever, so I lose hope. The message, is I'm going to give up, so I do. The message is I can't change, the message is I won't, so here I am beated down by the message, standing still frozen in time... Peice of Mind 5-31-01 My peice of mind was here, just seconds ago, but now its gone like yesterday, for the intensity and responsibilities, of that peice of mine, slice of life, frightened me, so I ran away, like a scared bunny, and I'm left empty. date unknown 2001 I feel so crushed, I feel as if my every thought, is leading me astray... |
| Unknown 2001 Soft spoken, timid and shy, blue eyes glistening with tears. Sda, shy one, battling her insercuties, yet at the same time, bottling her emotions, until it reaches a point, where they build up so intensly, that her mind feels as if its going to explode. Lightening crashing through her soul. Thunder booming! drowning out the soft beating of her heart. rain pouring inside her soul, creating the flood of hopelessness... 5-9-01 Yes I know happiness, is found within myself, but sadness is blinding me, so i get a distorted view, I can't see happiness within me! I just cannot find the key, to being happy and free, I can't be me... oct 2000 A secret lies beaneath her lips, locked away... drowned out by the beating of her heart, and shushed by her fingertips... June 2001 Pain, confusion, hurt. In this life, three main things affect us so much, that we feel, like giving up, those three things re simple but complicated... 6-8-01 I'm growing weak, I need to plant that string seed that grows with time, so happiness will be mine. 6-12-01 powerful words, I must muster them, for they can make all the diffrence... 6-12-01 Write! Write! Write! Chase pain outta sight! 6-8-01 I watch myself fall apart as I'm stung by my broken heart. 6-10-01 What will tomorrow bring? will my heart sing? or will it ating? 6-12-01 My poetry is what I'm feeling, my poetry is my way if healing. 6-12-01 At peace, at ease, I long to be.. 6-11-01 Emotional overload, can lead you to the road of confusion. Emotional overload, can lead you to believe that sucess and happiness is just as illusion. 6-11-01 I have a sick feeling, in the pit of my stomach. It leaves as I heave, and rid my system of this nausea. It returns, staying longer this time, it lingers... 6-12-01 This doubt of yesterday has become today.. 6-12-01 Complexity, can prevent you from breaking free, from pain and misery. 6-12-01 My feeling are dancing around in my mind, as Ii attempt to fight, this battle with the mind. 6-12-01 Yesterday, I was wrong, today I'm right, but I still have not won the fight. 6-13-01 I looked fear in the eyes, and to my suprise, I was staring into my own two eyes.. |