| Fan Fiction |
| By Lidia: |
| Braver Than You |
| Disclaimer: I don't own these characters, and even if I do, I don't want to. **Note: I always have to leave these. Its a short little story in Gabrielle's view. If I use --'s, it means I'm shifting to a recent scene that happened between Gabrielle and Pandora.** Rating: R for suggestions of homosexual content, not m/m either Title: Braver Than You *~*~*~*~*~*~* I wiped my long, thick hair out of my face, angered at the evident blood sweat caked against my scalp. How long it had been since I had taken a real hot bath, or even a shower? Not counting the sticky, mass of rain that had poured on me all night the previous evening. I had not one idea where I was now, nor did I care. I traveled to keep myself occupied, to tell myself that life had a purpose. Even if I knew it didn't, even if I kept telling myself it didn't. Walking for nearly years now, it felt like years, but had it really been so long? So long since I had been from her arms, away from our love. I missed her dark hair, her dark eyes; the way that when she ran her hands over my skin, I felt whole, perfect. Cared for as I never had been with Lestat's father, never did such feelings come to me with anyone but my lover, my love�Pandora. I pushed the feelings down again, to the darkest pit of my soul that I could dare to reach. I couldn't tell myself that I missed her, that all the pain that had welled up inside of me would go away if I just went back, went home. Nothing would stop the churning of my soul, the presence of my son had been no help, nor the blood of a mortal. I could not drown myself of this constant feeling, that she had been right. But she couldn't have been right, my pride would not�could not allow it. I would wait for her to come crawling back, but she hadn't. Would she? Hard to tell. Pandora was soft, mellow. Always allowing people to trample here, but never take her dignity, never. Loved and lost, twice over, Lestat and his father, Gabrielle thought that perhaps she had found who she was truly meant to be with, but had she been right? --"I have to be away, I can't stay here, trapped here! Even with you�I can't, I won't!" Gabrielle said, her voice frustrated and high. "You knew I would say no, you knew I wouldn't go with you, why did you ask?" her voice was soft and melodic. Gabrielle remained silent, her eyes lowering slightly, her shoulders dropping. "You're trying to push me away, you can't handle what we have. Go." "That's not true! I invited you to come, you can come, we can go together. Are you not brave enough to walk the earth beside me? See things you have never seen?" "I think perhaps, Gabrielle, you should reconsider what you have just said to me. All things considered, it would seem, I am�braver than you." Pandora said, turning away and walking from the decadent room.-- I hadn't seen her since, but thought of her, oh, thought of her nearly every second since I heard her last words to me. I dreamt of her, wishing I could have heard the wisdom in her words. Listened to her. Now, as I traveled the world alone, I thought on my lover, and how perhaps, if I could discover what she had meant by her words, we could be together again. She would take me back�perhaps. And maybe�maybe, she is�braver than I. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Blurb spec! Sorry its kind of sappy and�not very well written, but I just wanted to write something. Lidia Vans Fan Fiction Home |