if he did, he wouldn't have hurt me.
he would have protected me ...
but i wasn't worthy of protecting ...
i wasn't worthy of his love...
instead he gave me his attention and that is what i deserved.
stop haunting me ........
leave me alone ...
why can't i just get ready to live ..................
to die ..........
why can't i just prepare myself for the inevitable hell..........
that is to become my life.....
he never loved me ... he haunts me ....
leave me alone......