Girl
That little noise
is so loud
in this silent house
that lacks you.
I drift in circles around you.
You make good prey.
They warned me that
I was too good for you
but I don't care baby
I'm your groupie.
We couldn't be more wrong
for each other
So I love loving you.
What is this desperate wanting,
this aching question
this need?
After all this time
I should be used to your leaving
but I worship you
with your soul tinted blue
and your eyes seeing inside--
We are the only two in the world
And then the irony of ironies:
You finally need me
but I don't love you anymore
10 Days
10 days till I meet my soulmate
the one I'll live to die for
he'll stop the rain and break the pain
that's held me here so long
I'll meet the one who's meant for me
but watch out
I'm not meant for anybody but the sky
Drifting is far more appetizing than sitting idly by
Is 10 days long to wait for destiny?
I've been screaming out from inside this lonely heart
but no one hears the words I don't know how to say
And no one understands the struggle from day to day
I've been reaching out from inside this tormented mind
yet there's no one there to grab my hand
And no one wants to hear the plan
Have I been doing all this living right?
Have I stretched it thin
enough to see the worth?
Out of all the discoveries I've made,
I've yet to discover me.
I fear I have looked for a "you" too long
somehow I forgot to find myself
Truly I was born to be severed just as I
am destined to be whole -- I just don't know how.
I get no answer when I ask
what lies beyond the scream
                                the day
                                the fear
will my spirit never cease to rattle its cage?
It's just before sunrise but I'm wide awake
I can smell you under my skin
you're in my hair, my head, my smile
how are you so warm but so distant?
My lips, my hands, my mouth ache for the
touch of you, proof that there is in fact
substance behind that heavenly scent
stay with me tonight
don't let the moon's descent pull you away
You are all at once familiar and unexpected,
sending me head spinning
let's take advantage of the blue ink darkness
and not let this all-knowing innocence
pass away
A stabbing pain shoots from beneath my breast
your memory is illuminated
I feel your hands on me
warm and eager as a boy's
slow and rough as a man's
while the static of electric youth holds you somewhere between
This time I did it right
there is no pain, no yearning, no regret for once
only the calm desire to have lain
in the circle of your arms
in the fire of your eyes
in the knowledge that you wanted me
for an eternity of summers
You show up
all in blue and orange
your eyes behind glass
and you expect me to laugh?
You expect me to throw myself into your arms?
Well I will
but not for you
for me
because I am bored
and you are the only thing with promise
the smile can't take away
the teeth gnashing
the claws tearing
at my skin
the oppressive darkness of this jungle
I'm lost and wandering
anxious for a clearing
some sun shining through these trees
my steps make no sound
drowned out by wild bird calls and lions' roars
a pair of glowing eyes from the pitch
something to run from
have to hide
me staring at me seeing the unseeable
something never to have happened
but did
don't tell me how long it's been
cause I know it's been a while
I tried to catch that name of yours
but I held onto that smile
you've done something
spun me around a little
and I like it
I've missed it
how convenient for you to have been so kind
how perfect it was that I saw you
you think I'm crazy and that's fine
but don't think I'm too confusing
I'm hardly out of reach
just keep smiling at me
I'll keep smiling back
What do you think of me now?
Now that I'm not just another face?
Now that I've infiltrated your network of smiles?
Stretch and yawn and practice your apathy
or scream and laugh to show that you
can have a good time too.
I don't think you know how to be real
apart from the rest
inhale exhale
are you ready for just another strange day?
Things that go bump
No monsters
under my bed
are as frightening
as the demons of memory
I wrestle with
every night
She cries over her skinned knee
sticky fingers gripping skin
head down
Thanks to an uneven patch of ground
her faith in the bicycle is shattered
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He cries over his dead wife
palms up
tear stained face asking why
Thanks to an unlucky moment
his faith in life is shattered
There must be something wrong with your eyes
to make you look at me the way you do
as if in the space of my words there lurked
a deep meaning you've been looking for
and found
and can't have
it pushed me off center to intrigue you
watching a question form behind those eyes
but knowing you can't ask it
you're not sure what it is
your flickering interest makes me look away
but only because I know I can't have you either
the she-falcon
follows her prey from above
it does not yet feel her presence
but she has yearned for its too long
a silent calling between the two
a deadly affair
there exists a pull that both sense
one running the other chasing
silence
she dives
eyes - huge
talons - extended
belly warm with satisfaction
the story ends
she begins again
but with knowing eyes
sharpened talons
still-warm belly
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