ADHD news 2

November 19th 2001
Its around 12.05am monday so I guess I have gone for 83 days w/out self injury. It is very hard but hey I am trying to win this fight.. I have been freaking a fair bit recently not really too sure as to why just everything is oscilatiing round my head 24.7 I feel like I ma a ball oina pinball macne where someone hits reload! On a more positive note, I spent the w/end at Pippas it was great on Saturday night we went to see Harry Potter. I really enjoyed the film. I should have gone back to the unit yesterday but was freaking too much so I dint - sorry mum! AT least AMy is ooming over on Wednesday to see me. HUGGIES! xoxox

November 24th 2001
G-d what a week. I am so fed up it and it appears not to be letting up. I have fallen out with one of my good friends, the unit still havent put me back on Ritalin despite my pleas, my weight is a joke, I am 8 1/2 stone and idealy want to be around 8 at the most. I am starting to dread my pre cpa and family meetings which are both on Wednesday next week. My urges to cut are intensifying really having to coping skill like mad... lots of mindfullness involoved. I dunno what else! Im pleased my site is still surving with out me being here, although il be back soon properly. Moving house in 20 days time! -grr! xxx

December 8th 2001
Ok, I am now on 102 days and no self injury. Things are going fairly mad at the unit, I have started to trust Luke with bits of information as to what sets me off when I feel crap. I am feeling calmish, been put on Rispiridol about 10 days ago, I forgot to bring my TTA's back to Leeds with me:( I am still not talking properly with Andy. My body temperature has sorted itself at last! I dunno what else to type, except for we move house in 6 days time and I'm so excited! Photos to follow of my room once its complete! Oh yeah had my Pre CPA meeting, it was very intesive and heavy, left me feeling bad but got through it.

December 17th 2001
Ok so we moved house in Leeds on friday the house is great and already feels just like home, quite cool really. I haven't self injured for 111 days and feel really happy about that, things are finally becoming clearer, or so I am hoping! I am currently in Southampton as yesterday I couldnt be bothered to go back to the unit so I thought I would give my 2nd family (kris and KREW) their xmas presie which was me on the door step at 10pm! I did try to ring them but for a change Kris didnt hear her phone. The kids have been great got a feeling they wont want me to go home or rather back to the unit on Wednesday morning. Got my CPA at 2.30pm Wed so I have to go, not fair! Oh well think that is all, except I am now on 3mg Rispiridone(Rispiridol) should have stared self meds today but cos I'm down here obviously can't. Never mind. Just hope 2002 is a sucess as most of 2001 has been a joke.

December 23rd 2001
It is xmas eve and I am at a mates, well he lives in Leeds but at his mums which is in London, where I am! I have just checked my email and had 100 new emails to read so I have scanned through them all, thanks I knew I could relie on you guys to keep my site going whilst I'm in the unit. I have 18 days left then it is discharge time. Oh what fun can hardly wait! I am actually very terrafied of that prospect as there is so much that I need to work through that I aint even begun to get delt with. Oh well, Grrrrr!!

January 15th 2002
Ok, I got discharged from the CRU, last friday and feel fairly ok about it! I am finding things at home so quiet compared to the unit! It is ok being at home, at least I can try to lie in till late and don't have to put up with community group! I miss the unit actually, I miss having people around 24.7! The residents got me a kewl presie! they got me loads of PAIRS OF earings! I think someone must have counted my piercings as there was 2wice as many earings as I have holes! I'm excited because Mike is coming over today! i havent seen him for ages and have missed him! he is daddy afterall! Today is the 140th day I wont hopefully of self injured on! O well better scoot! Love to all! xxx

January 16th 2002
Today is the 5th anniversary of Grandma Audrey dying. I cant believe it has been 5 yrs. I miss her so damn much. I am feeling all mixed up, still havent cut but really am struggling with the urges. I am relying on the elastic band theory so much. Want to diet but cant. O well Never mind. At least Vered is online! xxx

January 17th 2002
I got loads of sleep last night. Have decided to add a new photo section to this site! Or rather a link to a few photos of me. Got my social worker coming round soon, can hardly wait! Mum is going to be there too! - Oh fun! Can I cut now?! Mike (in America) is on msnger and Andrew hasnt been very well, in and out of hospital. I am so worried about him. Oh well also going ot drs today, want to stop the Cipramil because it is making me soo nausuas.

January 21st 2002
I dont feel good, now I think dad is worried about me, all because last night I said that I was strugling. He just phoned from work to see how I am! I want to cut! Can hardley tell him that can I! I start work again tomorrow and really don't want to. Dont think I will be able to cope! O well! I have just added a new award to this site!

January 25th 2002
Work is actually going ok, cant belive I am actualy saying that, but it is. I saw my new shrink what a t*****er he is. Oh well I still aint harmed and today is 150 days!

January 26th 2002
Just got back from Leonies where I went for Lunch. I'm in a very hyper mood and can't concentrate on hardly anything. I still aint cut which is good (I think) work is going ok too.

February 7th 2002
I went to Bar Censa last night with the guys from work as a late Christmas Do, type thing. I also saw Dr Watson on Tuesday. I really dont like that guy he freaks me out. I am still working at Burger King, work is actually going ok, havent had any major rows yet with the managment. Were going paint ballin next week!
Got work later today actully too, wonder if anyone will say owt about me walking off at the do last nite! Things at home are going well, we still aint had any arguments either! Better scoot got to make mum some lunch! Still not cut either! xxx

February 13th 2002
Well, I have gone 24 weeks without self injury. Andy and I are going ot set up a AD/HD conference for later in the year. I'm really excited about it! I'll post more when we get more info sorted. I had a job interview at Ainsleys earlier it went really well. They didnt even mind my mental health history!