i had been left so many times in my life.
kAYA MiNsan i just feel na paikot-ikot lang
ang life. lalo na ang lovelife!
MAy dadating - me aalis.
Masaya ka the 1st time,
SaD ka in the end.
Ain't that kinda sick and tiring?
Nakakasawa dba?

-LoVe-

Mrami dyan pag inlove sobrang saya.
KaLa mO wala ng bukas. The type na parang
siguradong sigurado na sila to their
"someone". I'm not s2pid to say that i never
felt the same way as some of you did.. but
don't you people ever get tired of it?
Like.. no kidding!
Masaya ka 1 time..
kala mo kayo na but then..something's gonna come
your way .. to what?
to ruin everything!!

yan!! yan ang life ko.
yan ang pinaniwalaan ko since my bf and i broke
up, like.. 2 yrs ago.
Msakit,MhiRaP.
Dumating na yung time na
i got so nUmb.
To think na..2 yrs na kaming break nyan ha! Pro
i don't know if i could say that i'm totally
over him. Guys have been passing by me askin me
to go out with 'em but the thng is ,
- i can't -
its not becoz "nagpapakipot" kind of way
but.. wala.. takot lang talaga.
Takot na masaktan.. Takot na maiwan ng pangako.
and the plus factor of that is..
i still love my "x" who i haven't even seen in
such a long time. Don't you think it's weird?

Now, there's this guy who asked me to go out
with him. And at this point of time..
He really showed me that god!!!
mahal nya ko talaga. Pero .. hindi tinamaan
ang lola mo e? So ayun, i told him to just
stop "it" for now. Since then, he's changed. He
doesn't talk to me no more and all that.
Nakaka-guilty.. of course. Coz i feel like ive
lost a friend. And syempre, i Miss the things
that he would do for me. But.. bakit ba ko
nagpapa-apekto? i dumped him for my ex pero
ngayon.. eto ako.. tryin to burst out my
feelings? *sigh*.

Now i realize..
the saying is true!!
u'L oNLy know how important someone is
pag iniwan ka nya.
So ngayon,
eto ako.. i dumped him.. and wala na sya.
What the hell am i supposed to do?
i dont even know how to open it up!
i admit, i was numb when he was like all
mushy and sweet to me.
- Walang pake,
walang reaction in all the things he's said.
I could have went out with him - but then - i
didn't wanna use him coz he's hell of a nice
guy! - seriously! - Pero ngayon..
it's too late.

Dahil sa kabatuhan ko..
wala na sya..
hindi ko na mahaboL.
And kung habulin ko man..
Magpapahabol ba sya?


You know what's d good thing in this story?
-it's letting someone or everyone know howw
you "really" feel about smthing. And you know..
not just keepin it and try to be strong for
nothing. being strong doesnt mean that you
really are one. Sometimes, kUng SiNo pa yung
matatapang.. e yun pa yung talagang mahihina in
reality. =]

-Natakot akong magmhal.. so nagpakabato akko..
nagpakamanhid. Me dumating na guy..
pero binaliwala ko dahil sa "takot" and dhil
sa "thought" na mhal ko pa yung ex ko. But now..
na wala na sya.. me kasama ng iba.. eto ako..
kinakarma!!! -

so.. people..
think about it!!
there's nothing wrong in getting hurt.
And.. don't think ahead! Just be contented on
what's happening today.
masaya ka ngayon wit ur loved one..
treasure it!!
magkaproblema man.. -solve it!

magkahiwalay man kayo..
-accept it!

Dont try to be strong and act like you got all
this "power" to cover every pains that you're
feeling. And don't be afraid to get hurt.
Coz habang nasasaktan tayo.. dun tayo natututo.
So.. mas maraming beses kang nasaktan..
mas matututo ka!
You could love lots of guys out there..
- so what? - there's nothing wrong wit thaat!
from ur first.. to yr 2nd.. to 3rd.. to 4th..
its not a big deal!!

dahil habang buhay ka pa
saktan ka man ng maraming tao na minahal mo
darating at darating parin yung "isa" na
talagang msasabi mong ...
"para sayo"

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