3 poems by Adam Penna The Spider The spider I should've left alone intruded upon my web of solitude one evening while the TV and its gray-blue squawking did more to irritate me than any arachnid should've been able. But it was so much smaller than me, and seemed so helpless, gliding across the linoleum like a miniature, downy boat, rushing to what I could not say, although if pressed, because I think I know the natural world, I might've guessed that it was afraid. However, fear is a human construction, a name Adam gave to the nausea he felt after he ate the first bit of forbidden fruit, and God's big voice began to complain. If he had called that sudden pang lust, we would've experienced another world entirely. The spider knew none of this. In the great telescoping hall of being, it crouches away in a well-greased corner, somewhere ahead of the flea and behind the cricket. And yet we, forever looking toward the sun or back to our dim origins, assume the space we sense and calculate remains consistent on one rung as another. But what if the spider felt not fear but something different when it sensed in its dark and tingling senses that this change of light, the night of a footstep, the shadow shrinking from unsolicited twilight to precise darkness, was its ship sinking? What if it were annoyed, disappointed that life was over, and it had never a chance to bite that pussycat on its pink heart-shaped nose, or perform a last act of meanness on one thing or another? Tonsure At the tonsorial parlor, I will be exalted, pumped up on an antique pneumatic barber's chair, wreathed with garlands of hair and shagged with a plastic cape which keeps off the clippings. First, I wait with the rest of the shaggy heads on the bench, eyes averted like sinning parishioners on a pew waiting for the confessional booth. We sit monk-like, humble, penitent, hands folded over our bellies until we're called. The scissors whisper like angels in our ears. And here a physical change connotes a change of spirit, as if by revealing the forehead, the neck, the ears we get to see God's face in the oblong mirror, in our own rumpled brows. This is why we cut our hair. It's revelation. You leave a new person, lighter now, keener of sight, somehow saved. So I pay and tip heartily and hit the pavement once again. The barber's pole spins goodbye behind me. The wind rakes at my eyes. I see so clearly I almost cry, my smile burning, my forehead gleaming. Remains My mother will be buried in a tomb inside a wall, embalmed with the fear that dogged her so in life. My father will be burned, his bones singed to ash. And placed beside his urn for all eternity, as long as this eternity may last, the charred remains of all the dogs he fed and walked and watered and cared for. It seems perfect that my mother and my father should rest in death like this because death, in this advanced age, should be the image of life as we wish it to be — my mother whole and safe, my father never alone. ©Adam Penna. Adam Penna lives and writes on Shelter Island, NY. His work has appeared in Abbey, Bellowing Ark, Cimarron Review, and Xanadu among other magazines. He holds an MFA from Southampton College, adjuncts for sport, and bends copper for a living. Penna's work can be seen at Rio: A Journal of the Arts, and seen and heard at Concrete Wolf. Back to LEGIBLE home page. |