You are so very tired, just in your own world now - this has set us all back as I believe you thought you were stronger than you were - this was very major and you just wanted the outside to be "whole" - now Lee it is only you and God that can fix the inside - time - time -  and more time - that is what it will take - you did not make it through the day at therapy - as the look you had at lunch I knew you would not - but try we all did  - you did eat a little lunch - almost a whole leg quarter - few bites of mac & cheese - butter beans - but this is ok as you are trying - we pick you up and let you sleep just a short nap - then take you outside for a little while as it is so hot - I read yesterdays blog to you and then I must explain - Girls if you can not come, just call and talk - this would help a lot - as words from friends even if over the phone to Lee it is still connection to the "real" world - as right now he does not understand when someone says something and then does not come through - boys when you got lost and called he "really" was fine, as he felt so bad it was ok not to stop by - he did smile when ya'll got lost -  and as a man thing I am glad you admitted you got lost - as with Rob - he is just going a different way -  and believe me I do not mind using "ON STAR" - life is good - we learn each and every day and to ease my "inside" - I am believing that God is giving us all a second chance  - a chance not to take life for granted but - to love each and every moment together - to appreciate the little things - to spend time in a productive way  - God - Family - Business - in that order - to realize in a split second you may not have the chance to say "I'm Sorry", "I love YOU", "Thanks be to God", "Forgive me I was wrong and you were right", or the time just to look and smile at life without any thoughts or promises - as all we can do is take TODAY - and remember and say all of the above - each and every day as we may not have tomorrow - and with this I do know that is true - I did not know if I would ever be able to tell Lee - you are good, I love you, Good Night Sleep Tight and the most important thing every - I did not know if I would ever be able to get a hug, kiss or  a smile from him ever again  - however, now God has given me a second chance too - and I will take this chance and change it to consume my whole family and friends - I will stay in contact  - I will not forget who and what has gotten me through this second chance at life - I hope this has made a difference in their lives as well - Do Not forget - YOU MAY NOT HAVE TOMORROW - so if there is a friend, family or loved one - call, email or send a card - and tell them hello. . . I  love you. . . anything - do not wait until it is a crisis - as most do not get together until there is tragedy in their live - make life a happy time - praise little things as well a big - just thank God you have today . . so stop and smell the Roses -  and get your second chance at life without a tragedy. . and then you and I can wait for Lee to finish this story in his own words. . love mom