Today began as similing Lee was ready for the day to begin as usual and thank God you were very hungry - so eggs bacon and waffles with peanut butter (a Big Daddy thing) is what you ordered from the short order cook (mom) we went outside fo a little while but not very long as it is as hot or hotter here than it is at home - and that head gear is so very hot.  You and dad are ready for the race - I am so glad it is  not football season as neither of you watch football - just the end results - playoffs and of course "Super Bowl" - today you and I talked about when we would be going home - now you are out of the hospital you realize days, nights, trees - life in general -  you are home sick and want to see everyone - you are not as happy as you have been in the past  and in my heart I know it is because Jay is gone and there is not no one here but just dad and I   - there are things I know you want and try to say but as you point out the words are inside - you just say things then hit your heart and I understand  - it will not be long before you are the one installing these songs on this IPOD - songs I do not remember but of course your dad does - Dad makes spaghetti for supper and you are very happy  - so much you do not even eat a salad - but you had a large one with turkey, cheese, bacon and boilled eggs around 4:00 pm this afternoon while Terri and Ric were here  - now you realize you have yoour phone keep looking at numbers, names but not calling anyone (at least today) - after supper you are very ready for be - very unsure of tomorrow - new day at Pathways and a place you have not been - but I assure you - we will be with you all day - so just relax - sleep tight . . . love mom