We can not see you until 4:00 - no a/c in our room - walk through mall - shopping is not for me - we arrive at hospital early - sit outside ABI - can not wait to see you - we get in and you are in a very good mood - you eat a fairly good supper - not food from the "Coleman Kitchen" but you do make and attempt to eat - and doing very well with your right hand - a lot better than I could -  on Thursday they put a cast on your left leg so you would not damage anything in your ankle - you do not mind just look and listen - when we get in your room - you lift up your left leg straight in the air - this is great - left arm - "still asleep" - but that will take time as the day goes on your words are very "greek" you seem to know what you are saying - but I do not have a clue - ask you what you said - sometimes words and sometimes - I do not have a clue - you laugh sometimes but sometimes you just shake your head as though I am the one with a hearing problem - we take you outside in the garden area - you seem to move over by yourself - just thinking - is the look I read on your face - but really where are you?? one day you will let me know - as YOU HAVE A STORY TO TELL - night has come and it is time to say good-bye - never a good thing as tonight  - why, why - mom -  I want to love, no one will ever love me - mom I want to love - I want to be me, then mom - you promised - you promised - I would not have to be if I could not be Lee - mom you promised - tears would not stop from you nor me - You see I was really  hoping that would be one thing you did not remember - I could not answer except - Lee you have been asleep for weeks - and had to leave with you crying loud and saying mom, please come back - mom - oh how my heart breaks - then I wonder how long can I continue - this  has been a great day - but - I can not stand the good-byes - see you Saturday - around 2:00 still saying mom - please -mom please tell me when I can love??? leave ABI can not look at anyone - it hurts so bad - hope none of this is remembered Saturday - but ????. . . mom