8:30  Lee - eyes open slowly - too deep - no movement - new IV's - Lee mom is here - Lee it is cool in here - better than the other room - eyes just roll away - no direct contact - as I know I can not look at you much today, for me I know I have to return home tomorrow - and I do not know how I can leave - but with the grace of God - I will and have no choice - I just can not let you know just how it hurts  deep inside I do realize you know something - just keep looking at you praying you are asleep - as you have not seen the tears fall from my face and I do not want you to know that I am upset - I have my eyes closed and to my surprise you see me - frown a puzzled look - but I just turn wipe my face - and look back at you with a smile - and deep inside I am thanking God for the strength to keep all  the hurt I feel from you but I know you know  - They have now moved you to Transitional Care - I do not like this room - all is good - I am not sure you are ready for this room - 8:00 - Lee - Lee - you look but still    no true emotions  - just look - Dad is OK with all this - but I still have  hidden thoughts - just must learn time - and time  thanks to God is what we have with you - so now enjoy - sleep tight - we love you as always I kiss your cheek and dad kisses his fingers and places them on your lips  you are too deep to realize