Tuesday, yes it is already Tuesday - mom is now is a daze - for some reason I just can not talk to anyone - you and dad were joking - laughing the day was great - no infection in the blood - this is great  - you will have to have antibiotics for 4-12 weeks - but now they have in a "pic line" - this will not have to be changed - they can draw blood out of it and give you all your medications - so this is good - you ate everything is site - I even got you and Oreo Ice Cream Bar - (did not know they were so messy) - you just smiled and mmm, mmm - dad left for a break - you started rubbing your head - and then the look - what, what - you are aware - and now you know they had to remove the bone flap - cry, cry you did -  I could not take it any more went to find dad - we tried and tried to explain - but you did not understand - as dad had told you earlier - but now you know - it is still bandaged so you can not see - I do not know if it is the fact of the "helmet" or just you wanted to be whole so bad - you would point to your left arm, leg and then your head and just say no, no and cry - you will begin therapy but you must get stronger - all this happened for a reason - and now is the best time than rather down the road when you are so much better - as that would have really been a "hard blow" to you -  but all this to shall come back - this is the first time in a long time that you were so upset that we left before time to go - they called the doctor so they could give you something to calm you down - and believe me - come Wednesday morning I will be seeing everyone of your doctors - so that we can get you started on physical therapy- Lee do not give up now - you have no idea the road you have been - and now you are still so good - much better than I am -I could not talk to anyone tonight - and I could not stop crying - you see I may not be in the pain you are in - but I hurt just as much or more than you - I have seen this road you have been on and just a little stumble hurts me - Lee this is just a little hill - not a mountain - as the mountain you have already climbed - so together we all shall get over this - and we will  - we all shall get focused again and together we shall over come - all this is for a reason - so just keep on Lee and tomorrow I pray that  God will give me the strength to fight for you  as you are fighting - I am just tired and I know in my heart that God will give me the direction and words to accomplish what I can do for you  - but that is nothing compared to you - so Lee give mom that smile - no more sad tears - happy tears is all I want - as my heart is broke and really I hope and pray we do not have to have anymore sad tears - my prayer is for God to help you understand that this "hill" is not permanent - it is just a bigger step for you to take  - Lee  we all love you and know what is inside - keep the life, love and passion - and most of all let me see the sparkle in your eyes - and let the words flow  - you see Lee YOU have a story to tell - this is mom's for now - so fight Lee - and most of all we are all in this together - not alone - not just us but our whole family and family of friends - I am trying so very hard but I am just going through a "sad" time - but this to shall pass - right now I can not talk to anyone just you and dad - but I will stay strong and so will you. . .Lee you will finish this story and through it good shall come. . . .love mom