once upon a time a long time ago in a galaxy far far away
somewhere over the rainbow and two stars to the right
down a little rabbit/hobbit hole in a town called Brigadoon
there was a place
where half of this would have never happened...
one night i found a woman who'd lost her childhood
but no one could tell her for no one had noticed
she'd joined a frozen ocean scattered
with ghost ships led by melting moons
of ideals thought so long ago
with so much time to rust
one night i found a deity when i looked at my ego
so i locked him in a closet and went for a walk
and finding only arrogant goddesses
wearing tight black leather miniskirts
i turned and slowly walked home dejected
one night i found love in a bright orange cherry
so i said burn baby burn and i dove for my soul
and i wandered dazed down streets and sidewalks
and was lonely
one night i found fun in a crowded warehouse
where spirits were high
attitudes good
and everyone was dancing and finding their vibes
and i danced all night
in the spotlight of modesty
one night i found excitement in rolling wheels
of a car bumpin and boppin
with techno, house, and jungle like lightning
it was passing the rest at eighty five
zooming past trees!
and buildings!
and jersey walls!
and other cars!
and trucks!
and people!
and road!
and...
lights flashing
in came the pork products
one night i found joy when i listened to a fellow
for a couple of minutes on a street corner
standing happy in his dark blue outfit
and i was sloshed
and friends were sloshed
all under age but he didn't care
one night i found disappointment in a young woman in a field
when she told me to leave with my hoodlum friends
to get off God's land that belonged to her
and i told her to have a heart
we could have some fun together
she just grumped us away with her frowned face and shotgun
one night i found a nickel in a deep black ditch
so i flipped it around til i found a jelly roll
so i ate it up til i found some reds
so i smoked them down til i found some jack
so i drank it away til i tripped and fell
into the bottomless pit of excess
one night i found inspiration in a golden-pink orifice
with Pink Floyd in the air and darkness confessing
all misdeeds done in the years before
and all i could hear were the silly sounds of madmen
and all i could do was laugh
my eyes open wide to the darkness
one night i found loneliness with Janis Joplin
and she asked me this question from her throbbing heart:
"why is half the world still cryin', man,
when the other half the world is still cryin', too, man?"
one night i found chaos when i looked in the mirror
and i thought of my time as all times before
recycled again for the infinitive time
and i thought of all the other people
confused about sex, hate, and time in general
and everything else in the garbage truck world
so i fell to the old crazy juice
and pieced myself apart until morning came
one night i found peace at a table in a cool clean coffee house
as i watched some angst ridden teens dressed in black
screaming "save the whales!"
"no more war!"
"kill all those damned nazis!"
and i watched them look around to see who was watching them
one night i found armageddon on the radio
and i wondered what had happened to "alternative" music
i wondered what it was the "alternative" to?
for all i could hear on every station were crazy crying losers screaming
before backdrops of broken lawn mowers
one night i found a dream in a prison cell dorm room
when i was eaten by a clock in a wave of darkness
and i saw the red eyes of Satan on the dark postered wall
and i looked closer to see that they were the eyes of God
and with a laugh and a smile i decided to join them
and the immortal mind of Blake
one night i found life on the roof of a building
with the stars in the never ending night sky
and sheets of roaming waves of clouds
and the edge of death so close
the lights shining bright on all sides below
my chest touching dusty grey
in my hand the cigar of the world
in my mind nothing but paranoia
one night i fell asleep with the legions of early rising sleepers
and awoke to blazing sunlight
wondering where the night had gone
one night i found a mirror in a sinister brunette
with eyes of thunder and lips of rum
and a heart of gold and onyx and lead
and the claws of a beast
and a boyfriend
one night i found neglect in a mainstream club
where hip hop and energy thuds boomed furiously
but dancers lacked the music�s vigor
unless they were showing someone off
and the walls rang filthy with decadence
as i watched the night waste away without fire
one night i found sex in carnival fashion
so i got my kicks for fun and nothing else
and it didn't last
and no one cared
and everyone's still happy
one night i found energy in Kerouac and Cassady
and i left the next morning for the beach and the boardwalk
and i zoomed through towns in eastern states
searching for spirit in obscure places
and i roared through new york into northern new jersey
where i found quiet cafes
and coffee houses beating with neo jazz
and i slept in a tent in a friend's back yard
and before i knew it
i was home again
with nothing but daydreams of california
one night i found existence in a hospital room
in a bed alone with a morphine button
and Led Zeppelin blasting beauty in thunder
and i wondered how many were in the same place lonely
and i thought of how intelligent happiness was
and i thought of how i wanted to grow out of blue-gowned depression
the way one grows out of an old pair of shorts
or blaming everything on someone else
one night i found imagination in an ancient city
where i played cards all night on a secret wooden table
and creatures from lore came alive in my mind
as i was carried away...
only to be SMACK!ed by the bus of reality
one night i found lust on the television screen
and i wondered why it seemed like all the beauty had been taken
when all i had left was a hand and a towel
is it fame or fortune?
or something else
and i wondered how many more free ones were out there
and how long they'd remain free
and why they were free
one night i'll find someone in a dark and quiet spot
and they'll be my free mirror
and we'll link like magnets
and we'll run away into the endless night
one night i'll find some satisfaction
one night when the moon doesn't shine so brightly
and i'll live happily ever after
and i'll never grow up
and i'll never wake up from my dream
the end
but i'm still livin
and livin
and livin
so i'll forget about it and just keep on livin
and i won't let satisfaction stop me
one night every night forever and ever and evermore...
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