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| 247 12/11/03 Anti-Death I take back a lot of what I�ve said recently to date, Sure I still feel depressed but this is no more act of fate, There are tough times in life seemingly caused by the good, And to think that I was happy is something I should It�s so much easier to stay down and just not try, Though what comes out of that is a feeling of wanting to die, I can easily remember bright times in happy days, To think I�ll never experience that again seems insane now in many ways My problem always has been how I have trouble dealing with the past and me, Where really there is a cycle which I�m moving through at the moment as be, Though why this time around it has been more difficult I couldn�t tell you why, For my best guess would be as good as yours because I�m not going to lie Times are changing and though I am scared I want to see this through, Cause hey, just a few more months till college, that�s something completely new, But I still have these conflicts going on with myself fighting it out inside, Though now I no longer want this boring life, it�s time to go for a ride. |