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| 230 11/7/03 I Hate November God I Hate November and let me tell you why, I hate it so much because something always makes me cry, Be it of someone else�s actions or that of my own, There�s always a hurt found that I�ve grown and known This year along with the two others that preceded are one in the same, There has been a point where I�ve lost it with myself to blame, Though others also have contributed to my loss of rhyme and reason, I�ve also come to the conclusion that I can blame the season Though in 2001 blood poured from my wrists in late October, It was clear that throughout November I was anything but sober, With thoughts of suicide still lingering in my mind, To say that the month was hell for me would be putting it kind(ly) The year after that was better compared to the last but sill was wrong, The fighting and arguments were loud complex and strong, And I�d rather never try to think about what exactly went on, Through them I felt like I lost something that is still gone So now we�re here again and it comes to no surprise, That just when I thought I found something it disappeared in front of my eyes, For no understandable reason with only feeling from down inside, If this is how I started this month then I�m in for one hell of a fucked ride... |